I clasped my hands together
but not to pray.
I did it for the perfume she left on me
when she accidently doused me with her perfume.

That careless act took her from me-
she now distantly waves in the back of my mind,
as dormant as an alleyway long forgotten
deep within the streets.

Tears don't do a thing but make the pity
grow stronger
the ancient ruins of her past flooding a
gate as a memory reappears

If there was a God he would have saved her
and for all the good in the world.
I wouldn't believe that deity
for a ****** second.

I saw you in this morning,
Outside temperature was minus five.
In an November below a crystal sky,
We looked one to another,
Eventually, We told each others Hi.

It's awkward to see you every time,
Now that you know soon I'll be gone.
Somehow you always read my mind,
Deep in my feelings,truth you can find.

I loved you like a fool,
At times it felt so cruel,
To know,
For you I was just an empty pool,
And you thought we were cool.

We're both cold with each others,
A chance we might getting a flue,
Mixing different flavours and colors,
I really don’t know whats got into you,
When we’re together we stick like glue .

Wandering in my vanity,
Please don't be mad little kitty,
Only you can restore my humanity,
Dressed all in black,you still looking pretty.

I would rather walk an extra mile,
Than telling you how much,
I really do miss your innocent smile.
Now you treat me a bit like bittersweet,
Intrigue story indeed.*

Stef Devid Alexandru ©

I am the girl that hides behind smiles
I'm as bloodthirsty as a sarcophile
             I'll laugh and giggle at your jokes
                I honestly want you to choke
                       I hate the way you look at me
                                  I'm not asking for your empathy
                                    I can't wait for this to end
                                                    Find me a rope and I'll suspend

liquids take the shape of their container and I am 70% water,
I can only spread into the fishbowl my mind pours me into,
a free bird cannot exist without being let out of its cage and I was told to do everything except fly,
I am a home without walls and without any structure I begin to measure what is not there,
i measure the diameter of the space in my earlobes,
they speak for me when I am silenced by all that is louder than me,
they try to shout over the voices of teachers and coworkers and parents and all those that have as much faith in me as I do,
they tell the world that I can't fathom a future for myself where I would be valued enough to be expected to look respectable

I used to measure the space between my thighs,
that space spoke louder than I did on a stage,
a stomach growl felt more like an applause to me than what an audience would do after I pretended some words on a raised floor,
it was louder than my mothers voice,
when my thighs didn't touch nobody told me I was too much for them,
it was how the world heard me when the words that I needed to express started drifting away like the inches of flesh,
the inches that had taken my entire youth to collect on my bones and protect my skeleton from the cold

I am the spaces where my body used to be.
I am the negative space in the silhouette of who I once was.
and in losing myself I learned that when your own body feels like a foreign object,
it becomes pretty easy to destroy it.