Did you ever just lay awake?
If you haven't, I'm sorry.
If you haven't been kept awake from your dreams
Or lost a wink from the anxiety of unknown
I don't think you're doing life right.
The feeling of being exhausted
kept awake by all the forces in your head
It's awful but it's in moments like this
You remember how wonderful being alive is.

I hate waking up in a scared sweat.
I'm more relieved my nightmares slide away.
How many times have you died in a dream?
It's not as many as you'd think,
If you really thought about it I mean.
I've heard it's good luck though.
I'm afraid of winning the lottery in my unconscious
It may be the worst real luck I ever see.

Whatever the case, you're doing great
If you're on top of the world,
Soar as far as that streak runs you.
If you're in a terrible slump,
Rock that pit like a champ.
Don't ever stop being,
Simply being whatever you are.
**** it's perfect.
Why do so many people mold themselves
Don't do it. Be happily, you.

Before the death has gripped me
I have not know what is - free
Gleefuly sprawled in the darkness to be
Seen, eating spleens of the fiends.

I leaned towards overthinking
With no real thinking to be done
all games and fun, untill I've pointed the gun
Shunned by society, I've been shunning myself
Thinking, success will lift off my stress
Regardles, I've failed to impress the press

This is the moment, Death has Gripped me
Cut me, ****** me and it struck me
I've been lucky, but a bit too cocky

I see no love in the deep web
Of useless cred, I've shed in the net.

Lying in the basement, poorly lit
Seeing the truth, Death Gripped.

The eyes of the world     have looked upon you.
So sad they only     saw your pouting lips.

Strawberry Kiwi makes makes me queasy
I know it's a bit crazy, and a bit cheesy
But this place has me so confused, so lost
Sometimes I feel like I'm owning it like a boss
Drinking Green Tea and ******* on a Jolly Rancher
Knowing that the taste is pretty far out there

Been kicked off a horse, been kicked in the nuts
I've seen the sun go down, seen it come up
It's safe to say, I've been running on a lot of luck
My mind is clear, and I'm ready to ride this buck
Don't stop me now, don't get in my way, here I go
I've been working for this, I need to do this, let's roll

What is luck
How do you define that little word
How do you put meaning behind the overused snippet
How do you answer when someone asks what luck is

Perhaps the illustrious Lady Luck is a driving force pushing success to your corner
Perhaps she is simply a grace some people are naturally blessed with
Perhaps she’s a devil hiding in a bottle that calls you to fill and empty it just one more time

Or is she merely a little angel lurking in the imagination
Whispering tales of her own fabled glory in your ear
Does she swim like a mermaid through the blood
Settle in the bones with a poisonous push of influence
Is she a banshee with an opposite effect:
Her coming bodes well and her leaving foretells misfortune

Or is Lady Luck simply the embodiment of good fortune in and of its humble self to be true?

What is luck?
Is it represented by gold?
Is it symbolized by wealth?
Is it showcased by power?

Or is luck evidence of something so far greater?
Is it the presence of love?
Is it the coming of hope?
Is it the return of joy?

Is luck responsible for all that is good?
Does she turn gray clouds white and cease the thunder
Does she shine some favor on the poor man’s lottery ticket
Does she bring an arm of justice or a leg of courage

But can luck right this world’s assorted wrongs
And guide things towards going right more often
Or are we just fools

Are we placing the credit for our goodness and rights on a mysterious undefinable force
Simply so that we can deflect the blame for our evils and wrongs when the timing should prove convenient

What is luck but a sly sweet presence in the imagination
What is luck but friend and foe alike guiding and beseeching the mind
Can anyone answer with certainty and consistency when asked: what is luck, truly

BRMD

I figured my problem
its not depression or anxiety
or insecurity or whatever life throws back at me
its only the change which occurs now & then
making me fearful of what might happen!

People say, if you cannot handle change
You won't be able to grow & thrive your aim.

Strange it is, I do not fear the unknown
rather I fear the known.
I'm very comfortable with
the unknown people or places
but what I am more worried about
is always the fear of known
As known eventually becomes unknown!

So, thought more deeply
to start tomorrow with a tiny tot steps.
I will face every little fear which comes my way
to vanish each of them from my everyday!

Wish me luck as I'm done
procrastinating with my fears
which makes me sick
every now & then!*

- 22nd May, 2017