Good moods used to promise themselves to me,
convincing me things could stay that way.
That something had changed for good.
But they don't.
So I was left betrayed.
And disappointed.
Because the of lows that follow.
Eminent and looming.  
And you can never out run them.
Not with innocent denial,
or hand fulls of pills.
With every high there is a low.
Just like peaks and valleys.
And so I struggle to stand tip toed.
When I already know whats down that road.

In the highs and lows of life
In the ups and downs of life
In the joys and sorrows of life
In the happiness and sadness of life
In all the different moods, moments and spheres of life
Always make it a point to live life in the present with present moment of time.

Never has it happened in the present,
nor will be happen in the future.
Every moment in life that comes upon has got it's own life for quite sometime till the point in time comes when it passes away.
A moment in time that has gone, is gone,
it won't come back again.
Never has it happened in the present,
nor will be happen again in the future.

Thus every moment in life comes with a purpose.

Each moment in life has got it’s own importance,
it’s own value,
it’s own significance.

Always it’s important to understand, realize and accept the importance of every moment in life.

As easy as it may seem to be,
the easiest thing in life is to do something in haste,
in a rush of blood.

By doing so,
if it solves a problem,
then it’s well and good,
if not,
then the struggle continues.

Still even if it brings a solution to a problem,
it still remains good proposition.

The only thing that remains of concern when doing something in a rush of blood is that it can also mark the arrival of a disaster,
even if you know neither it can be averted,
nor can it be reversed.

So better keep moving at the right pace with the present moment in time
Keep a track of how things shape
Better to be more concerned about the present than that of future
Things change,
sometimes something good might happen.

Things change,
sometimes something unexpected might happen,
but then that’s life.

Hence it’s always important to keep in mind, to remember
Always take one step at a time.

Do things which you like,
rather than doing something just for the sake of doing it.

Never run away from the obstacles of life
They are a part of your life and part of the game
So face them,
learn something new in the process of solving them.

A day will come when a sense of satisfaction will occupy a place in your mind and also in your life.

Till then, it always give it a try,
try again.
Try, try and you will win.

Till the perfect moment in life comes when there is a sense of satisfaction that comes to mind till then,
it’s life and life continues.

In the highs and lows of life
In the ups and downs of life
In the joys and sorrows of life
In the happiness and sadness of life
In all the different moods, moments and spheres of life
Live life in the present with present moment of time.

In the highs and lows of life
In the ups and downs of life
In the yes and no's of life
When confronted with any doubts in life hesitation will not work
Clarity of thoughts will make the difference
Transperancy in pattern of work must be followed by clarity of thoughts

Be clear in your mind with regards to what you have got in your mind and all that you want from life.

When the right moment of time comes strike a deal with the inner self
Once decided, then it's time to make the next move
Always it's better to watch and wait and then decide how to move ahead.

When the desire is to do something specific, then that desire must have a strong backing.
A desire must be followed by firm willingness to pursue and achieve the desire that's in mind
When the desire becomes strong and concrete it will then be accompanied by a willingness to face odd, which will come along the way.

An odd that comes at an odd moment of time in the middle of your way needs to be solved.
So,
organize yourself, your time and space.
Find a way out,
An idea, method, technique, trick,  whatever may be the need of hour
Find a way out, which will get the odd out of your way.

Experiences from prior have always told one thing
Odds are always there for most of the time
Better deal with them, handle and tackle them
Learn from the odds that you face
In doing so the best thing that happens is you will have an experience of your own.

Even if you think it otherwise,
the other way round life had never been smooth, simple and easy
Never did it happen that after overcoming an odd everything in life became calm and quite, as if nothing happened prior.
On the contrary, after overcoming an odd the next moment of time will tell you how to move ahead in the direction of goal
Life had never been simple and easy
All that happened was it always seemed like life is simple and easy.

Always keep in mind,
always follow the same
Make a habit, register somewhere at the back of your mind
Odds do not change the rest of things in your life
It's important that you remain firm in your mind,
firm with regards to overcoming an odd and don't give up.

Never give up against any odds in your life
When you accept a defeat against overcoming an odd,
everything from the present date and time moves into the past.

Better face the odds as they come along your way
Give your best
Make every possible effort to overcome the odd
Always have something definite in your mind,
always
Both before and after facing an odd
Better to have something of own in life
Better to be what you are
Always represent yourself as what you really are in your life.

Consistency is the name of the game in which every element of your life plays an important role
Everything is of concern
Everything becomes important in life when it comes to getting consistency in life

A lot of events that happen in life can be experienced only once
They never get repeated
Never does it happen you prove your skills, capabilities, abilities and identity all the time in your life
Recognition comes over a period of time
Experience and expertise becomes a part of your life then
Experience and expertise always counts in everyone's life
They have got a place in everyone's life.

Not only when you participate in a competition, but also otherwise as and when an untoward thing happens, when something goes wrong, be honest at that time.
Honest and confident about yourself
Confident about your skills and expertise
Now when you know your own position and ranking face the facts and search for truth
Just because something went wrong it's important that truth must come out
Truth will come out only when honesty is there.

Before the outside world interferes in your way of doing things
Once and for all understand, realize and accept the fact, which clearly states, who you are based on your prior performance
No need of going into what the world says
In the world outside most of the time there is always something for sale
Time changes
Attitude differs
Trends change
Important that when all of this happens, the person inside you remains the same
Also otherwise the outside world works in a very different way
In the outside world it's all hype
The hype that's created around you
It's all fiction
The fiction that gradually becomes a part of your life
Followed by imagination, desire and dreams.

It's all about life and the world in which you live and work, not the outside world
That's the bitter truth of life
Each and everything belongs to you
You are part of it
Still you will often come across the fact that you are not part of every group
You are not like others
Others are definitely not like you
For one reason or another, many individuals hide themselves from agreeing upon the fact as to what they really are and this not only matters, but is also of concern.

It's always better to be a small part of a larger picture
Better than doing something insignificant of your own and remaining satisfied with the same
Simple things in life don't take much time
Over a period of time you learn them on your own
Later they become part of your life and your habit
It's always better not to get engaged in more than required proportions in doing simple things of life
Over a period of time you become used to it and they become a part of your life.

In the highs and lows of life
In the ups and downs of life
In the yes and no's of life
As and when you get confronted with any doubt in life
Better to wait for a moment or two and then move ahead in life.

nine or ten pills a day
make the best part go away
how does one live a life so dull
when it once used to be full
UPS and downs
broken faces, empty bottles
bed ridden weeks
that were filled with no motivation
but I wish I could keep
some parts of me

I'm stationary, sat silent in a taxi
on another plagiarised street
where the rain is the only other rhythm
compounding that heavy threat of my heart.

There's one frozen memory
of words that crept unwarranted to
the surface and floated idly there,
an oily mirror amongst the ****.

I said
I can't do this any more.

And wordless, you left me when
actually, I didn't think you could.

This taxi is empty and the rain is
only on my face and that bray
of my heart holds steady,
in spite of everything
else having
stopped.

i would say i’m okay
but in all reality
it’s these nine pills i take a day
four for anxiety
three for a stable shiny mind
and two mg to keep me low

all of these downers
i’m still above
i’m still above that line
that line of feeling fine

all of these downers
that are supposed to keep me stable
and there are still moments
when i feel so unable
to take on the day

all of these downers
would have some on their ***
and i’m here still finding
that my *** is playing in grass

Seven years
Years of tears
Tears of a joy
Joy of life
Life of fun
Fun times
Times were wasted
Wasted
I was wasted
Why did I get wasted?