Here I am sitting, hurting and aching.
I am Jealous indeed
I am Jealous because,
You showed me value but you suddenly took it away.
I am Jealous because my love was ignored
I am Jealous because I gave my all,
and I couldn't convice you of my love.
I couldn't convince you,
that I love you.
I am Jealous because you yelled on me with anger and rage
and the next, a photo with you smilling.
I am Jealous for I could not trace logically,
For I could not see the source of your hatred.
Deeper than your hatred for me,
There's a reason why,
There's a reason that you blinded yourself to my good deeds.
That you saw none of which i gave you that was good.
Love, time, strenght, service, you saw none of these,
In your rage you only saw my folly, in which is not even valid to say.
I am Jealous, for you say you loved me,
yet another you said you never did.
and yet you said you can lie to hurt me.
Which one is true. I am torn.
I am Jealous that my small mistakes are drilled through my being
While their's, they are justified beyond all senses.
I am Jealous, because you made me feel special,
you made me feel like I am no other,
I am Jealous because you convinced me you'll never leave me
Yet now, like a nobody, in which you threw away.
Perhaps I may assume the best from you,
that you threw me away, because you wanted my heart safe.
Because, I brought out the monster in you.
How is that, I do not know...
All I knew was that I loved you with a sincere heart
