#inside poems on Hello Poetry

Jack R Fehlmann Nov 2020

Gentle, contrasting upon pages
Soft light holds

These words penned in
My hands cursive

As the dark of shadow surrounds
Drops fall upon
A page of recollection

Bleeding ink that spreads
Makes blurry
Why it is I feel this way

Lowest moment
Freely self inflicted for no reason
Why am I like this?

A need in me that I alone
Embrace to the end this way

Alone.
Wrapped safely in a dark room
Drops on the page.

Depression even when in treatment can hit like waves to the cliffs face. Almost self inflicted. Almost in some sick habit, I force myself to the place inside, below to the embrace. I hate feeling this way. I wish I could banish the path that leads me down to the misery I never earned and the torment undeserved. Why can't I be normal and prefer the light and love and warmth. Melancholy for too long. Something is wrong in my head.

#depression #melancholy #sad #introspective #wrong #inside

Jonathan Moya Nov 2020

Defining the Difficult Word Inside Her

I plea for my mother’s spirit
to wait for me before the ascension
because I want to know more
beyond her sun, moon and stars;
for her to show me
the other colors
hidden inside her;
shades my crafted words
can only reflect in broken shards.

She draws me a symbol
for a word only
known to her and God,
a word so complex
I can never remember
how to draw it,
never define it fully
and can only stutter-
a seed stuck
in my throat-
whenever I try
to release its
sounds to the world.

#defining #the #difficult #word #inside #her

Jennifer DeLong Nov 2020

Me

I walk inside seeing my blood flow through the winding paths
I see the many cells all working
together
I feel the warmth of my skin
I hear my heart its rhythmic beats
Its in hear I come to know
how it all works to keep me
here healthy & strong
Its a strange thing indeed
Its a beautiful work of art
Taking a walk into me
Was a adventure
I won' t soon forget
© Jennifer L DeLong 10/30/2020

#adventure #me #inside #alive #body #strange #walk

Michael Luciano Nov 2020

I Lost Myself Inside My Mind

I fell into her shadows dancing towards the light.
Lost among The castaways searching for a life.
Myself I could not see looking in the mirror.
Inside a dark dark room filling up with fear.
My eyes are all I see peering through the door.
Mind is all but gone sinking through the floor

#lost #self #myself #inside #my #mind #seeing

Amanda Sant'Anna Oct 2020

When you look at me

You know what you see when you look at me
And it is not good, I've seen it too
But there is a murmur in my ears
I hear its brightness loud and clear

A child covered in yellow dust and ether
Sits on my chest and tries to talk to me
I shut it down because I do not know her
I only know what you see when you look at me.

#child #joy #inside #soul #eyes #look #see #good #evil

Eleanor Sep 2020

Come breathe with me

Come and breathe with me.
Close your eyes and feel what I feel.
You cant can you? You cant close them, because we are standing on the edge of a cliff. Your closed eyes would only make you sway. Gravity will call your name and your feet will betray you.
Breathe in the air of disaster. Do you smell its smoke? Its sweet is it not? Its enticing and dangerous and you want to breathe deeper. Your nose is a ****** for the scent.
Feel this wind that sweeps around our barely lifeless bodies. Like mannequins we stand here quietly. Almost like we are invisible. That is how the world feels. People rushing by and around me like the breeze. I watch silently from within my own body unable to control anything on the outside.
I watch others control my own actions. They put me in danger and I let them. Why do I let them? Answer me why do I let them?
Breathe in this truth with me. The truth that we are never controlled by our own will but by the fear from within us. The things we have gone through in the past. The unknown. It takes us by the hand and leads the way. We call out and ask where it is taking us but does it answer? Why would it? I already know.
It takes us to the end.
So breathe with me and we will wait on this cliff edge a little longer for the void to call our names.

#mentalhealth #did #osdd #inside #void #breathe #poetry

Amanda Sant'Anna Sep 2020

poison

I drank from the well of shame
And I still feel it burning inside me

#shame #pain #water #drinking #burning #inside