Here I lay in my comfort composure Listening to every rythm of my music Removing my white earphone to listen To listen to the beauty of nature raining Picturing myself as a randrop falling; free Picturing the placid movement of water Moving as one, cold breeze and falling with heavy gravitational pull Thinking back to when I'd lay in comfort Listening to every perfect beat of your heart Concentrating on the whispers of your spirit Being attentive to your chords as you release them Piercing my mind, quaking through my flesh To simply un-wither that was even desintegrated Your love circulating my veins Simply By speaking Rippling accross my seams Bolting through my body more than any drug ever Hanging me on your hook Touring to the meadow in my dreams Conquering the battles in my nightmares Re-writing the words on my page that is life Then After enough re-painting Of my story You started to un-write my book Crossing the hearts Tearing the written pages Oh how I could only stand and stare Oh how all you did, difficultly Glare The whispers your soul gave withered Cleared and filléd my mind vacant Was I abandoned by your heart So easily the welcoming door Became an unbidden command requested This hour Is when I play it back; Remenisce about it Laying alone, in discomfort Listening to no beats Not even one of my own Then I close my eyes violently Shoving back the emotion To silently replay those words I love you Always Crashing down Bolting tar through my body Poisoning my mind Rippling through my veins That same poison Is what I use To **** inside me What demons creep See the story has a twist What I feared most What demons I feared even more Is exactly what I became The poison inside me Crisply ogling at me Inside the cage Compresséd Inside what We call a Mirror
A very long poem yes I know, if you read this far thank you. It's 03:26 and I just think back to the best days of my life
Stress consumes your mind like fire in a forest It ignites the anger inside to arise as smoke clouds around your eyes In this moment you are so horribly enraged, So terribly uncomfortable inside and out, That you can't control your actions, your words, or the way you feel You snap, you glare, you place the blame Once you calm down you realize you are only angry at yourself And the anger is replaced by regret and fatigue You're tired of this cycle Tired of feeling so out of control This is what stress does It eats you apart from the pit of your stomach and only consumes more and more till it reaches your mind and you are entirely taken apart Like the string on an old sweater stress frays the steadiness you contain
Straight at the stars She stared in this beautiful night The constellation reflected In her glowing eyes I believe I’m alive for you For this glare every night Early in the morning When the sun touches her skin I stare at her beauty Just like her at every night At the different stars Shooting across the sky Let me wish this forever Let me hold your hands I don’t mind the downs Let me give my life to you And millions of kisses On those rose petals On your rose cheeks
When we first talked I remember his look. He saw right through me And that’s what he took Smells thick, heavy like mulch beneath I knew then This is Fearless hunting the lamb And there it all began Jump without looking into the depths Run into his arms Into his story His dream His land Ocean rising and pulling from the shores Up in the clouds, filling the air Fueling the eye that would not spare Destroyed sobs heard the silent screams of despair And it was then he did not care. He stood, tall and proud and I the glare The ghost chewed eaten discarded Stalked, chased and charmed; capture a beauty for his arm, Release and dangle close for treats This lasted for months and weeks The tune never changed The hum jolting up right The beast no longer hungry As he’d been fed Stuffed like a coward on his king like bed, who else knew these sheets, lies, loves in ****. Eats for two, awaiting the fight, his song loud like the ego he bore Until I faded A glare…No more.