Been thinking ..
Would I really express this feeling?

Well...
We've already started
So better just let it go and be written..

Before this had happen
I didn't know the little hole will grow and I'll be weaken
I've known you as a sweet little admirer
A boy that I thought will make my life better

With you
I'd experience almost all the "first time"
It's great before because I  thought our feelings really rhyme

But the world seems like they see it in the other direction
People judging, thinking what we're doing was a wrong notion
I don't care at first of course
But..
When my father told me what I'm feeling is wrong
I've rethink and had second thoughts if this should be stopped
If our love will stay forever or it will eventually rot
But you'd confirmed we're not doing something wrong
Cause you confronted and told him your love for me is strong

And you know?
Because of that my heart leapt with joy
Your love felt like it really replaced the void
In my heart which would really explode
If you ever lived me alone in the cold

Days, months, years passed by..
We've been together for a very long time
A perfect relationship, they'll say
And I won't deny, I'd also have thought it in that way

But seems there is something wrong
I've noticed the changes
When I seek your help and start to cry
You'll just look at me with a sigh
A sigh that started the spaces you've built
To ruin the things we've created with it

It is not accidentally built though
The barrier?
I've heard that you really do need space
From my dramas and doesn't need to see me a few days

That is the time..
The time I knew it would all stop
The time I knew you're already tired
The time I discovered you've found the girl who is really right

I've loved you.
Yes I do
Until now I can't deny
The feelings I have between you and I

You know the secrets..
The things I've shared with you even before we met
I'm not afraid though you'll spread and tell it to others
Because I know..
Even if you've stopped caring..
You can still be my sweet little friend

Now that I've had released it
Thank you dear friend for being there
And I want to tell you I'm not mad
At you or her, I'm not holding any grudge

As life goes..
It is normal that people change
It is normal that the feelings will fade
What isn't good is if you've not done anything
To change the things you know that doesn't have a meaning

i just wish i knew
why you gave me flowers
voluptuous and full of colour
and left
as soon as they started to fade

Voice
Eyes
Face
Fade
Fades
Fading
Away from me
Desperation shows through
Shining
Shines
Shine
From me to you
Too soon
Lying
Lies
Truth
Too many times
Too many ways
Life
Lives
Living
Fading
Fades
Fade
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                                Into space