I don't know what's worse;
Drowning beneath the waves
or dying from the thirst.

Some days
I feel everything at once.
Other days I feel nothing at all.

Last year I was reckless.
I catapulted into the deep-end
headfirst.

No waiting at the shore
No wading in the water
Only a sprint to the furthest end of the sea.

I soon began exchanging
pieces of me as currency
to buy more time afloat
my sleep;
my mind;
my sanity.

I thought I was resolute
but this was all too much
Titanic
I was drowning.

Then there you were...
you and your raft
ready to take me home.  

It was then that I realized
that none have ever really loved me
before you <3

It's been years and she has not felt normal...
It's getting hard to breathe
She wants to shout out....she is pain!!
She doesn't know how to feel okay
She is scared all the time
There is something eating her up!
killing her from inside brutally...
She wants this to go!.....just go!....just gooo!
Why can't these feelings leave?
Stuck with her from all these years
HELLOOO? Is there someone to pull her out?
She is drowning...

i sometimes imagine
boys with sunburnt skin falling
into saltwater seas
with laughter on their lips

i saw glaciers in your eyes,
icy plains and lost streams.
i felt you fill my lungs
your salt water burning
with each new breath,
drowning in you
with every exhale.

Rain clouds looming over me
Threatening to drench me in it's cold

But they don't know
I'm already drowning
Ice cold crashing inside me
Dragging me deeper into
a darkness I can't even fathom.

Too scared and tired to fight anymore
So here I lay, rain on my face
Nobody to pull me up, lesson learned the hard way
Drowning from the inside out.