Friend
She hears the quiet whisper of the man paying his respect to lost love
Wiping his eyes
And offering her heart to lend

Caring
Taking him in
Showing love not deserved
But love she was sharing

Weight
was lifted
Singing and dancing!
Sorrow was not his fate

Free
His spirit lifted
And all he can think is...
Thankful enough he can never be
             ...
Thank you

I talk to these gods in times of trial and success
They **** me in times of swimming
But give me a melody to keep singing in my mind.
I've been skating on thin ice on waters filled with debt
Hoping I can hold my breath while this washes over.
I've been sober long enough
To see when people drink too much power
Dancing stupidly in the traffic of a nothing life
In charge of nothing, seeing the whole sea
From the mole hill they imagined.
Imagine that.

You're my song of the day, not metaphorically,
Literally the tune blasting through my ears as I write.
As the girl does yoga on TV
showing pictures aesthetically pleasing to my mind
Knowing work is right around the corner, here I'm fine
Mulling over the problems of the morning
Only to be forgotten with clock's ticking time.

I leave it all at the door in a futile escape
Once I cross that line, that is where they wait.
Don't be concerned all the fronts are fake
The real issues aren't spoken in anyone's public wake
Smiling like suns in children's artwork
Hung on a fridge, that will work in the world I live

I tried to tell you
how I feel
you said,
"That can't be real,
You're my friend
That's the way it is
Besides I really love him."
He played you
and you broke down
Girl, I told you
he would ******* around.
You don't believe a word I say
but it ***** how he left you this way.

You got in deep
You got hurt
You keep going back
girl, you don't learn
I told you "I love you."
But it doesn't work.

Just another day, another boy
He played you, like a toy.
Broke your heart, then ran away
look how you are the very next day
played you like a fool
Girl, I bet you feel used
I come around to cheer you up
You thank me with a hug.

You got in deep
You got hurt
You keep going back
girl, you don't learn
I told you "I love you."
But it doesn't work.

Another boy again?
I've tried to be there
Yeah be your friend
You're on your own
My heart was out on the line
this whole time
Can't chase you around
Don't need to see you
keep getting hurt
You told me, "you think he is the one."
He gave you some great times
Now you've been left on your own again.

You got in deep
You got hurt
You keep going back
girl, you don't learn
I told you "I love you."
But it doesn't work.

You came to me the very next day
You asked
"Why does everyone keep leaving me?"
I looked deep into your eyes
looked at the ground and just sighed
I had no answers, cuz you're on my mind
I think to myself, how can they do things like this
to a girl like you.
It's so hard to push you away
because you come back with that beautiful face
And I can't help but capture a glimpse of your grace
You know when you're with me I'll keep you safe.

You got in deep
You got hurt
You keep going back
girl, you don't learn
I told you "I love you."
But it doesn't work.

You found another boy
You think his the one
I'm on my own again
But I know the truth
you'll come running back one day
But the thing that hurts the most
I miss you every day that you're gone
There is nothing I can say
To stop you getting hurt
But I'll be their girl when you call.
I won't let you go alone through the fall
When you need a friend
I'll pick you up again
I just hope you know
You've got a real friend
that is never letting you go...oh

You got in deep
You got hurt
You keep going back
girl, you don't learn
I told you "I love you."
But it doesn't work.

I am your best friend
Best friends stay until the end
I'll dry your eyes when you cry
Kiss, caress and hold you tight
Maybe we can be together someday
But for now your best friend I shall remain.

©2018 Written By Benji James

Isn't it funny how a lot of fears.
Have never been seen in reality?

They fear clowns.
But have never seen one in person.

They fear the ocean.
But have never drowned.

They fear heights.
But have never fallen.

I think it's funny.
Because a lot of people fear demons.

You've never seen a demon.
Yet, I have.

Demons aren't that scary.
They're just like you or me.

They long to be loved.
To be appreciated.

They want to feel valued.
They want to feel worthy.

At the end of the day.
Don't we all want that?

So put down your pitchforks.
Put down your torches.

Grab your closest demon.
And give them affection.

Here it comes, here it comes
my silver lining
watch the lightning striking
these waves come crashing down
The fallen and the fearless
are in the house
Oh, oh
here comes my silver lining.

Eyeliner and painted nails
mascara starts running
when you sweat it out
watch out now
here it comes
it's on the horizon
here comes the sun
and my silver lining

The moon is glistening
over the open ocean
nothing goes to plan
even when set in motion

Money Burns, life's a mess,
girls can play hard to get.
Love is tough, the road is rough
but we're taken on challenges
as they come
I'm coming up hard
I'm coming up fast
I gotta silver lining
within my grasp

Here it comes, here it comes
my silver lining
watch the lightning striking
these waves come crashing down
The fallen and the fearless
are in the house
Oh, oh
here comes my silver lining.

Eyeliner and painted nails
mascara starts running
when you sweat it out
watch out now
here it comes
it's on the horizon
here comes the sun
and my silver lining

©2018 Written By Benji James

Are you talking about me?
Do you want me to leave?


...
I , umm,
I wanted to stay.
And i dont know why i didnt say,
The things i meant to.

Online relationships are hard, i know.
So it’s okay to leave before the show.
I thought I could see you
And i thought you could see me too.

I’m sorry i didnt mean to hurt you.
I didnt want to.
I know saying sorry won’t fix it
But I’d rather do that than just sit.

I never meant to make it seem like i expected a smile.
I didn’t mean for you to have to fake happiness
I wanted to be the place where you could talk, confess.

I wanted to know who you are truly
Not who everyone believes you to be.
But if you want me to go,
Then I’ll respect it, i suppose.
It’s not what i want
But I don’t want to be one more place where you put up a front.

Lost my way, Lost my life
Lost the girl
I think about at night
There's nothing for me to say
Baby, I should have never
let you walk away
I'm hurting like never before
There are no words to describe
what I feel anymore

I'm struggling
to keep my heart running
I'm struggling
To give everything
Because either way, I'll never win

I won't leave until you're gone
because my heat can't stand
saying goodbyes anymore
And I won't disappear
until you look away
Because I can't bear to see the tears
stream down your face
there is nobody left
to break me free
baby, there is nothing left
inside of me
The feeling
that burnt deep inside
must have left me
when you left my life

Poured my hear, my soul
into everything I did for you
Shattered every piece of love
I had for you
I remember back to when
you screamed my name
and when I heard you say it passionately
yeah those memories are still killing me

my broken heart lies beating
on the floor
Not sure I can keep ripping pictures
off the wall
And I'm all out of options
Can't talk at all
Can't see anything in you
no more
Oh babe is the love you had for me
all gone

I won't leave until you're gone
because my heat can't stand
saying goodbyes anymore
And I won't disappear
until you look away
Because I can't bear to see the tears
stream down your face
there is nobody left
to break me free
baby, there is nothing left
inside of me
The feeling
that burnt deep inside
must have left me
when you left my life

I'm still in love with you
I think about you every day
it hurts so bad every time
you look my way
I will never forget the past memories
I will never forget the words you said to me
the sweetness of your voice
the heart that left me with no choice
but to let you into my life
baby, I'm hooked on you
There's nothing that can pull me away from you
I will still give you my heart
until death do us part

I won't leave until you're gone
because my heat can't stand
saying goodbyes anymore
And I won't disappear
until you look away
Because I can't bear to see the tears
stream down your face
there is nobody left
to break me free
baby, there is nothing left
inside of me
The feeling
that burnt deep inside
must have left me
when you left my life

Oh my heart
still skips a beat for you
oh my love
still burns for you
so caught up in what we had
feeling there's nothing left
just makes me sad
can't stand to think
we've lost everything we had
Baby, I'm afraid
I can never let you go
You're my angel, you're my life
the light that still burns bright
and I can't stand to see you go
so ill do what it takes to fight for you

I won't leave until you're gone
because my heat can't stand
saying goodbyes anymore
And I won't disappear
until you look away
Because I can't bear to see the tears
stream down your face
there is nobody left
to break me free
baby, there is nothing left
inside of me
The feeling
that burnt deep inside
must have left me
when you left my life

The sweetness of your voice
The heart that left me with no choice
but to let you in my life
Baby, I'm hooked on you
There's nothing that can
pull me away from you
I will still give you my heart
until death do us part

©2018 Written By Benji James

Nothing to nobody,
To nobody a somebody,
Nothing to everybody,
But too much to be nothing.

Nothing to say,
Too much to talk,
So much to do,
Nowhere to start,
But too much to be nothing.

Nothing to break,
Too much to cope,
Everything to risk,
Too little to push,
Not enough to be,
But too much to be nothing.