Maybe they're right…
Maybe I’m a terrible person
A narcissistic ******* with
Manipulative tendencies
And a giant ego
Breath
Could I be a wolf
Disguised in sheep’s clothing?
Or perhaps a deceptive villain
That became an expert at
Playing the good guy part?
Breath…
What if I’m no better than
My **** father and grandfather?
What if the difference between us
Is merely circumstantial?
Breath!
You know all those dreams
Are never going to happen
Right?!
Breath!!!
It doesn't have to be like this
It could all go away, you know?
Breath, breath, breath
It will go away eventually
But not like this
Breath…
Had another episode last monday... they're becoming more frequent. Happening like every other month.
This piece is not pretty, and writing this was really hard. But it's my best effort in describing the chaotic struggle of trying to push those intrusive thoughts away and getting back the control of my mind.