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Ashley G L Dolmo May 2015
I look in the mirror & first thing I see is insecurities.
Every negative emotion has taken over me.
I don't want to feel anything but happiness.
I want to smile for what anyone would call no reason.
Rather be emotionally emotionless.
I want to be free.
This anxiety can leave .
The pain is trapped inside & it's hurting me.
I can't move or escape this cage.
The metallic bars are becoming more narrow as I stare at them.
However I thought my imagination would remain wide.
Now every bit of creativity has been restricted.
Marlo Apr 2015
They ask me how I feel.
How could I explain this?
The cracks and sizzles beneath my skin when anyone touches me now.
The snapping of my guts being removed from me,
and the empty pit left within.
My skin covered in
layers and layers and layers
of don't look at me.
I'm ashamed.
How could I tell the reasons
why my tears threaten to run away from me,
but I pull them back in.
Holding onto them tight,
so no one knows.
As if the salty water could wash away my front.
How could I make them grasp the fact that everything personal I've had is gone.
Every secret spread across my face.
Every crack and scrape once covered by makeup,
now pulsing redder and hotter than before.
There is no words for how I feel.
There is no script of what to say.
There's only one time I get to feel this way.
And it is the most terrifying thing in the world.
so this happened .
. *** .
Blue Angel Mar 2015
I didn't see it
Maybe I didn't want to
Just friends I thouht
He was nice, he cared
But he is like the rest, which isn't fair
Telling me I was beautiful, all for something, the warning signs were there
I just didn't want to believe
until once, he persued and I rejected
he didn't like that
and know for 3 months I feel marked
what's a girl to do?
This goes out to the guy who I thought was different........I forgive but won't forget
He said I'm beautiful and his number one
How was I supposed to know that next he would say "we're done!"

He said he loved me more than anyone he's ever met
I saw him staring at her and he began to sweat

He said he cared
But he now he says I meant nothing which is something I can hardly bear

I gave him my heart
Still he continues to tear it apart

To him I could never say no
But today all he says is "you're a ***!"

He was the best guy I ever met
And although he is ashamed of the thought of ever liking me, he is someone I will never be able to forget
Eleanor K Mar 2015
by Wendell Berry

You will be walking some night
in the comfortable dark of your yard
and suddenly a great light will shine
round about you, and behind you
will be a wall you never saw before.
It will be clear to you suddenly
that you were about to escape,
and that you are guilty: you misread
the complex instructions, you are not
a member, you lost your card
or never had one. And you will know
that they have been there all along,
their eyes on your letters and books,
their hands in your pockets,
their ears wired to your bed.
Though you have done nothing shameful,
they will want you to be ashamed.
They will want you to kneel and weep
and say you should have been like them.
And once you say you are ashamed,
reading the page they hold out to you,
then such light as you have made
in your history will leave you.
They will no longer need to pursue you.
You will pursue them, begging forgiveness.
They will not forgive you.
There is no power against them.
It is only candor that is aloof from them,
only an inward clarity, unashamed,
that they cannot reach. Be ready.
When their light has picked you out
and their questions are asked, say to them:
"I am not ashamed." A sure horizon
will come around you. The heron will begin
his evening flight from the hilltop.
One of my favorite poems, but I did not see it on here!
Dr Zik Mar 2015
You are You!
Who am I?
You need not to reconsider
You need not to feel shyness
You need not to compromise
You need not to hesitate
You need not to make request
You need not to bother about
You need not to make a hurry
You need not to protest
You need not to wandering about
You need not to ashamed for
You need not to chase about
You need not to lurk around
You need not to mad about
You need not to feel loneliness
You need not to be humble
All these things are for me
You need not to get rid of
Any thing!
Anyway!
For any one!
any time!
You are at the height!
Not in the depth!
Its all for me
I 'm humble and busy
With bow head I face you!
Only in want of you!
Me
You Don't Know What
It's Like To Be Me.

Until You've Looked In The Mirror
And Don't Like What You See.
From her...
Rebekah Dec 2014
"you look happier lately"
i smile
i'm not

"are you doing okay?
yes, better
i'm dying inside

"i think the world of you"
you shouldn't
you don't

"and i worry"
there's no need anymore
please help me

"keep smiling"
thanks, i will
*you'll never know
Ashamed of me
You have no cause to be
Why should you care
What they say?
What they think?
Why do I care that you're ashamed?
I thought my decision was made

Whatever, I'm moving on
You don't have to worry about me
I'll be happy without you
Or maybe I'll still be me
Don't act like you care
I know you don't
You can just leave me alone
I give up
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