My apology is not enough
To start to fix what I have broken -
Every word poured out in love
Is coated with a silent poison.
I must admit my mind is flawed,
My shame is proof enough of this.
I walk full stride towards the jaws
Of death, I’m welcomed with a kiss.
I clothe myself in lengths of rope,
A knotted stomach’s shrine on show.
With sweet relief in morbid hope
Weeds are rid and flowers grow.
The blame is only mine to take,
Loving me, your one mistake.
This was written during a particularly dark period of my life - it’s somewhat painful to reflect on and see how desperate I became during that time.
