Translucent
A burned dream
Fingertips at trembling galaxies
Remembering stolen breaths
Dismantled from rusted logic
A steel garden flourishes
Sealed with infectious passion
A reflection of mirrored pain
Emerging bloodless depths
Rising to a caged silhouette
Shrouded in sacrifice

And I watched all night as you bled
Never left the side of your bed
What became of this life I had
Too numb to even feel bad
I wanna see your face tonight
Just to know if these feelings are true
So I cried like you were dead
You never showed up
Never showed up
Yeah I watched you just as you bled
Told me everything that you had read
Thought that I was gone past ten
Wanna go through this song again

Vigilant at best
These tendrils of my mind
Enduring the mixture
Of gold and blood
To the graphite center
Of your dear heart
May I speak true?
Of perception
Through wires
Not bound
In the vivid corruption
That is my home
But of truth
Buried
With such a sweet friend
Forever

All this time with sails crumbled
Scared
Matriculated
Longing for the shores once more
A rustic room
Or a promise
Four times removed
And replaced
With infectious imagery
No
It cannot be
Between the silence
There lies a message
Please
Don't let go
These cotton sheets
They tell of a true legacy
To memorize a taste of strength
I've searched too far
Lunar sighs
Or a deliberated throb
Purity in nature
Strings attached with missing pieces
Is all I ask

Must it remain?
I saw you
I saw you there
Floated away
For a minute
Held
My hand
You
You ghost
Goodbye

Smooth
Like you could walk every step alone
Quick glances in the alleyway
Pretentious but humble
Smoking
The tobacco folds away
In despair
Your destination
Not obvious in nature
However held true
Poisonous brew
Never slipping
Never falling
Always with turn
And swift feet to match

Something has now come between us

There is silence finally

Amongst voices

Sand

Spilling out

Between pockets of stars

And I'd never be whole again
To feel anything
I would like to encompass my past
Light silhouetting my face
Writing this to you
One last time
My stomach as a well
Forever dropping and pulling
Being emptied out
And your depths are unknown to me
I hear an echo
In the midst of the night
Haunting my bones
My lungs to ache
Rebuilt
From ages ago
In the mist
And the lights
Stirring
There
I wait for you
And no mortal may know

She responded with a whisper of "no"
As the ship dragged on
The hull
Buried deep in dust
The navigation
Fast asleep
Traveling through space
To our home planet
Some years ago
War is over
Those we keep
Stay quiet and still
Those we don't
Do not speak until our return
Walking to the glass
We see the stars align
To spell our name out in the sky

No, I'm fine
I can put it in a book one day
Burning spiral of a memoir
Crack the spine of the book
Leave it out in the rain
Ash my cigarettes on the pages
Burn holes through the red line
Drip coffee to the bottom
I can do this
I'm fine
God, I'm fine
I'll be okay
And in the time it takes to type this,
We can sit on the balcony while it rains
And I will have another cigarette
We can laugh
I will cry for myself
I will sit for a while
Missing her
Missing the lights
Not missing a thing
You never do brother
Our blood is so thick
Can you still smile into my eyes?

It's torn
This flaunted melody
I stand admired
Though former thoughts shattered
This bliss cherished
To not drink death
But to cradle it
Idly
They speak of love
And three months of no answers
Lusting after something unnamed
So terrible
With a drunken heart
Held eternally by another

Still to be seen
Awakening a deceased compromise
Mirrored prey
Driven by enveloped creation
Fever consummation
Visions of your childhood home underwater

Worship the words I don't say
Until light
That which is contained
And not squandered
And that which is
Leave behind
Tonight we drink deep
Colorado weather
Texas treasure
Keep up now
Daring monolith
Rise up
Transform
With me
Tonight

Un nom de plume
It doesn't matter where
Tout enfin
Vous atteignez répit
Pas de lutte
Nous tenons cette mort
Comme un courant sous-jacent
Vos échecs vous ordonnez
Vicious
But not unnoticed

And did you know?
Your mother was deathly sick
Yes, right till the end
Her whimpering your name
Her son has left far away
Your family and their questions
How I lied and said you were working
So long I convinced them of your piety
And so long I hated you
Not for your decision
But that you had a choice
I never did

Your words cast spells on my frame
As we took a cue from nature
And once again
You've stolen the skin from my bones
But it seems I am feeling well
I hope you can believe that
The castle has slipped into the sea today
Then the news came in
Golden days blossom here
Completing my heart
There will be nothing left to salvage
Save your emerald eyes

Grace moves in these structures
Virginities undersold
Saving familiar breaths
Tissue restraint
I head away and leave my name
A kinder morning than we've shared before
Finding Jesus in a Subaru
Unable to create from ashes
Stained glass
This glass is stained

My care for you will never go away
It is engrained
Carved into my skin
Intricate
Invisible
Confident
Excruciating
Pumped through body and mind
You were always safe
You were always loved

It's past 9 o'clock now
So I know you should be asleep
The nurse
Passed through for her rounds
The machines
Humming and murmuring
With an electric glow
I walk through the corridors
To your place of rest
Last one on the left
Your eyes are closed
As I enter the room
You smile, weakly
My eyes
Filled with grief
Deciding whether to tell you
How many hours I cried
Alone in the shower
In our bed
Without your warmth
So I sit with you for a while
Until you drift away
I'll be here
I'll help answer all the questions
And I hear you say
You think they'll let you go home tomorrow
But my love
You've never left home

God, and how could you?
Or how could I?
Be the greatest?
With my mother, far away
My father dead
My wife distant
My children, unknowing
Without a penny to **** on
And without a place to call home
The inevitable falling and tearing of my very hope
I'm the world's saddest poet, and I'll tell you why
Without a single trace
Recognizable to anyone
I have brought forth my own demons
To walk with me
They told me
Never
To leave you
Alone

His younger brother died
Some time ago
So he sat and cried
Eating his happy meal
Ironically
Sitting on the fourth church pew
We sang hymns
He prayed curses
To a God that didn't seem to hear
Or a mother that wore too much make-up
A father that beat him every day
Wise eyes
Written on his face
At such a young age
Now
As I stroll the grounds
Feeling you six and a half feet beneath
I learned what you knew
All along
How can you not pity his place?
Should have known
For fear of the footsteps
At bedtime

And you're still with me
In every rolling wave
Warranting unclean requests
For a reflection of freedom
Concealed below
It's the edge of cold perfection
As we surface for solutions
Doubting your grace exists
Feeling the gravity of an escape
Celestial restrain
Persistent devotion

Another demise painted in blue
Rain powering lights in a storm
A safe whisper from walls
Chaos in frames once more
Child of a thousand seeds
A causeless faith ruins us again

And then comes a breath of completeness
Destroyed
Windless
Again, a feeling of more than her
Fires whose flames reflect in my window
You now walk inside of buried buildings
Vexed
Forward
Moments caught between lovers
Gone
Longing
Am I scared or ******* terrified
Disgusted being alone
From the inside

How I feel
Slicing through the pain
The swine and the game
Knowing the worry of disdain
The nights long
And filled with pain
Killing many lovers with my name
Holding each other tight
With chains
Now
Onto the change

Only one more time
And you will be sane
Only two more times
And you will gain
Never knowing
Never wanting
But always made
Now is the time for the weak
As Frost said
Promises to keep
Trench along till you sleep
Many souls lost
None that weep

I never thought you would pray
For things to stay the same
So now you will lay
With your guilt
And never say
The song is complete
Listen
Hear each refrain
They go quietly
And without much shame
Never know
Never show
Never ever grow
Stay the same
Carved in the tree is your name
Without me
Once again
You will not win
Try as you may

Your breath held undying
Cloned eyes
Gazing a solitary entrance
Loneliness sequence
Capturing a scarab in synesthesia

Please, just hold my hand
Like you did back then
And if I see you again
Would you believe life is in full bloom
Without a trace of remorse
Transported
To a future
Drowsy and distant
Blacked out
The clock can't be right
In all my ways
In all my faults
Dearly yours

This agony is true

Let's hope it's really up to you

When it's very late at night

And you're laying down to sleep

I pray I'm not remembered as a ****

Or someone you can hate

I'm made of deep sweat and cigarettes

There is an ending here that I don't regret

The hollow course our love ran
Our veins
Drenched with rain
A night tower
Flashing
With weighted scars
In the distance
Gleaming from your notions
Of society and suicide
I thought of you
As the street glistened
The smoke pouring from my mouth
Bent in your direction
Finding you empty
Exhausted logic
With a waking memory
You don't know yourself anymore
I just wanted to hold you

Fist clenched
Arm torn
Head turned
So things turn dark for one or two moments
Ghost made present
Your breath leads the way
The smoke from the fireworks
Magnificent display
Tell me once more
What was it like?
You held close for the beat
But my heart
Was led astray
Ashes near the ground
And what became of her?

What's to stop them?
In a panic
Once turned around
And sacred
We will meet beneath the lights again
And I'll turn for you
I'll do anything for you
**** if you will your pure intentions
And have everyone alone
Along
And then we will meet again
This is more
This will turn out better
This chance
But willingly terrified
You can lay down
Music bursting through the seams
Smoke near the shadow of your face
The lights illuminate us one last time
Never leave
Let me be what I want
Never leave

As life holds itself

I stare

High above

In the safety of my rage

This piece has passed

My agony fallen

And my wound lies dead

Leaving me here

Alone as I was

Beyond you now I feel the whims of freedom

A comic relief

Perfectly captured

In your split wrists

Death will become victorious

In your failing

Choking now

Understanding the cosmic and somber consequences of my selfishness

We are not ready

I admit

A shift finding my concrete absolute comfort

As a brother you may say nothing

Singing without reason

Feeling the blood hold

There was love in your eyes

Death is missing

We walk the warm night air

Puerto Rican ***
A long car drive
Neighborhood kids
Fireworks
Laughs given
And tears taken
Unfiltered cigarettes
And cardboard boxes
Your father was still a sociopath back then
And our apartment smelled like the ocean
My energy was only matched
By your good grace
Mostly I remember
When you told me I would be okay

Never took notice
But you trust this salvation
Caught in the uproar
Damnation
Clenched fist in hand
Whispers from lost lovers
We sink
You'll be permitted
You'll hit
And miss
That broken machine
Unwinding
When he said
Girl
You're young right now
But I'll wait
Because I don't want to be an escape

I am burdened as a soul
With no flight path
No way out
No way in
The meaningless operation of my souls path
Was not really meant for earth
And how could I?
How could I really?
How could I die here?
I wasn't born here
My soul
Intangible

My soul
Not something to come and go with the wind
It's not something to be thrown on the tile floor
When it's been in a losing fight
So I'll sit here
And pretend that you know now
When I can't even tell you the correct word
You expect to sip lava through a straw
To fly while hiding in a cave
To know the utmost reach of my alignment to the stars
I cannot be tamed

As we stood still
Images crossing lanes
Quick unsettling
Shards of light
Assigned
Quaking
Not for fear
But in the presence
Of the multitude of expectations
There I was proposed
For the certainty of things to come

I just received your letter
It must be tough
Knowing you shouldn't be there
Figuring out you made a mistake
That's what it is, a mistake
I hope you're done
There is a very intelligent person inside you
I know it's your life and yours to live how you want
But I'm your father
I'm the only one you've got
You'll have to make the best of your situation
If I'm to speak honestly,
You need to accept help from the people that can
You know how I am
I know, that you're better than this
I hope you realize how much people care
Especially me
I'll send more money soon
I'm on leave from work,
But that will soon change
I'll write more in my next letter
I hope you're doing okay
Love, Pa

I'm not saying everything is perfect
I'm not saying things are amazing
I'm not saying life is perfect
I'm not saying people are amazing

I just want to stay in bed
(warm and safe for now)

It's again open season
Yet there remains no vacancy
No rooms for rest
Salmon kite
Days of nostalgia
Free float
Pure trist
Illis quotes Amber
The fungus grows larger
A beast and a rifle to burden this momentum
Falling through a mother's pine
One thousand banes in the form of love
A mother's work is never done
Ninth dynamic
Four hours and this is forged again
Silver screams heard through golden temples
Dust settles, the bricks fall
A mile of bone penetrates the pyramid
Bringing new forms of energy
Satan's toothpick
And sharp fur for another
Ghost conductor entering messages
Down there, he eats in a fit of slothful rage
In fits of overdosed shrubbery
***** clocks
Each hollows and fades you
Advanced romance as strands won't return
Dirt searches for your face in the midnight hours
Artificial chains
Lead by burns
Idolatry commencement

It's the moths upon the wall
To say it's not this way at all
Because no matter how I fall
I won't ever be getting your call

There is so much here to be loved
A figure unknown
Shadows consume
Regret
Strings play strange melodies
A fraction of you
I wish it were different

These secrets bled long ago
A four-hundred year candle blown out
Now separated
Your bedroom window
A hidden floor
Static sheets
Finding me flushed and infectious
Raw
And with power unreal