Fourth time writing you
Getting darker now
Living on roads
Existing at home
My second happy ending
Stimulate
Grey pain
Tear
Dreams of pure love
Awaiting your arrival
Writing on receipt paper
Friday's spent walking  
Much closer now
It seems
Fear became our constant
Breathe for me once more

Unkindness from landscapes
Trees breathe a familiar scent
This village centers a hope with sleep
A thing which saves, and burns but goes away

True hearts tear straight

Like smoke trapped inside a bottle

How to instill our chance of love

Stomach an empty window

Strong feelings of wonder

A source thought small

In essence my beauty not faded

Bring your memory to a child's grave

The sea is alive with rust today

And the darkness is an angel awake

East coast eyes

I won't die how you think

Can it be just you and I tonight?

I have a rage inside me that cannot be measured
And a love inside me that is unfathomable
If I cannot indulge in one
I will fall into the other
Endlessly

Maybe it is my fault

I'm crying picturing your broken heart

I realize now
I should have gotten out

I do not die
I only wither

Such a shameful waste of love
So goodnight

I want to believe
I will find home

I still can't say you've recovered
I still can't say you've died

I have a rage inside me that cannot be measured

And a love inside me that cannot be fathomed

If I cannot indulge in one,

I will fall into the other

Endlessly

To stare into darkness
Makes you understand
That sleeping is an escape

By this
I know
You'll never say you're wrong

Be aware
No man has let their story
Become this real

They say you've gone away from me
But I can feel you when you breathe

There are no more stories for us

Loss of fear
Inexplicably
Became fear of loss

It doesn't have to be like this

Cannot imagine the space
Between us

To make a heart
This desperate
Weep

Some lived and
Some died
(inside me)

Suffocation via ceilings
Roots growing in my marrow
Battery acid injections
Sweet warmth with glass bones
Waiting for a change we can stomach
Hope left days ago
Dying in a concrete world
But with this pain you will never show
And with my pain you will never know
It's insane but I'm meant to grow

You swooped down
Hula hooped
And dropped for the kiss
Lit cigarette in hand
Laying down in the backseat
Feeling the cold air once more
Planes in the distance
We leave Tuesday
We could be there for each other
I would still sell my shoes

And took her I did
She resisted
But I win
When passion stands next to us
Can we say we were together
Until the end?

Thinking of you today
I hope
You find the strength
To leave behind reasons
And their undoing
A lesser man
Would leave these stories untold

Paralyzed
To break the sound of your arrival
The stars mock him
Leaving him
Defeated
Ashamed
Never knowing
Where she might be
Oh, he could say
She's on the porch
Whilst staring through cloudy lenses
On the roof
Leaning against the tiles
For the embrace
Never felt by any lover
Or on the road
Making sure
The reason she's leaving
Are different
Than the ones
Used to say she will stay
That perpetuated imbalance
Could surely be her demise
Deep black
Brilliant
She awakens
To shower
To start the day

When I was young
Solemn
We awaited this great Christmas night
With shining eyes
When I was young
And a heart of heavy gold
A carousel of lights and magic
Smoky evening and cold window-frames
When I was young
A child speaking sweet words
And giving cherished smiles
Across the gulf of a winter night
When I was young
I wish it would have stayed this way
Not to be caught in sleep
But to be home just once more
When I was young
A sister holding me with compassionate grace
A real warmth on this blessed Eve
And my heart pounding of pure love
When I was young

So this spells tragedy
Dually noted
Something off my chest
And into your heart
Now a digital voice murmuring
A synthesized plea
Love that spans highways
But only 79 miles an hour
The tattoo on the crease of your elbow
And are you okay?
I'm still wondering
As you let the smoke pour through the skylight
Nothing else mattered to me

We wish to know our own names
Sounds of thunder move you inside

Really looking back
I noticed there are many different kinds of people

Some were meant to leave
Some were meant to stay

Some needed you
Some wanted you
Some were closer than a brother
Some were very far away

Some loved you with all their heart
Some never loved you
Some were mothers
Some were sisters
Some looked right through the smoke
Some couldn't see tomorrow

Some needed saving
Some needed to drown

I've felt them all
Follow the map

Ease this margin with your brittle fingers
Touch and replenish
Nothing lost
Except your son
Waiting for you
On the staircase
Benevolent friend
Made clear
And your dreams
Cried out
Through the garden
My legs were made whole
My eyes
Track every particle
Till your lovely return

This midnight witness now crumbles
Fear
A stare that destroys
My scars will remain beautiful through winter
Trespass me
Replace bones with those in the forest
We speak of time
You listen to an images portrayal
This too will haunt you
The chest of this earth is searching for finality
What am I becoming?

By the time these eyes grow quiet
They will speak of her concrete lungs
Mistaken sickness
Crumbling forgiveness as we mourn the struggle
Sonnets of such desperation
Pillars of passion melted to liquid silk
Devoured by precious creation
Fathom these damaged voids
With a jagged prose
Hungering breaths
Foolish
Monstrous
Kidnapped composure
Restless with trembling intention
Collected to a stillborn resonance
Discarded with shadowed reform

It happened one night
Amongst the cheers and patterns of conversations
Love turned to hate
Thought you could be alive again
But when you turned the handle
You misplaced one thing
And in turn the past could prove
When you murdered me
You forgot about the blood stains
That were left on your memory
And in this way,
I can never die

You had been so lonely
Full of warmth
Waiting for me
As I walked past the cell block
Shuffling my feet out the door
Piping hot food
A welcome reprieve
You looked at me
As one of those magazines
Your father writes for
You kept me
As your mother's dying wrist
Was left dangling
In your outstretched hand
You smiled
As if everything would come together
All at once
I would leave you
Like a stray fed too long
You told people
It was because I was never loved
Properly
I was heavy sand
When you were the easing tide

Back again
Sitting
Collecting somewhere
Moments of weakness
Spiraled drip
Murmurs in the basement
Your father's slouched shoulders
But still unsatisfied
In sleepy remorse
Feeling less than abysmal
Clean sheets and short days
But great you would become
Not in the sharpness of your current
But in the promise
Of your potential
Actualized
Bedside note
Your brother singing upstairs
Night born sadness

Fist clenched
Arm torn
Head turned
The forest went dark
One or two moments
Your breath leads the way
Ghosts made present
Firework fog
Magnificent display
Tell me once more
What it was like
You held close for the beat
With my heart lead astray
Ashes near the ground
Wondering what became of her
To stop them
In a panic
So sacred
We will meet beneath the lights again
And I'll turn for you
Do anything to understand
This soiled mind
**** your pure intentions
Take everyone alone
Somewhere along
Better chance
But willingly terrified
I lay down
Music bursting through the seams
Smoke near the shadow of your face
The lights illuminated
One last time
Never leave
Let me be what I want

It's past midnight now
So I know you should have gone home
But you wait
To reside by the beach
In my thoughts
You've crossed over yellow-lit streets
I've only just slipped past the gate
My phone held tightly in my grasp
You never call
My aunt and uncle
Leave the front door unlocked
I walk towards the guest bedroom
Past the great hall
The dimly lit artifacts
To stand there
Perceiving this bedroom
Seemingly in all white
Awaiting your call
Waiting for you
Staying awake that much longer
Feeling drowsy to your image
Please
Say you've found your peace in this day

At night
With clasped hands
Near the ocean
Trembling
The wind on our backs
Melted smile
One memory made
One cancer cured
Two notes burned
And six letters kept
Hazel eyes
Be mine tonight

My memory
Used to be after eleven o'clock
No longer a loner
But with late night pool dives
And smoke and drinks
Shower conversations
Lingering emotions
Lost love
Fading voices
Be still
Complete

Felt like coming home
A heavy wake slain
Calm with pearl floors
Siren melodies
Air replaced by gasoline
Realizing a colder patience
Simple hold
A torn waiting
You burn a stained memory
But know this
I saw the light
On the day he died
Eyes open wide

Make my heart stir once more

Furthering a silicon sickness

Unreachable this time

Sworn from these graces so long ago

An immense melody scarring reflections

This too will haunt our past

Speaking with bruised wrists

All roads home are now erased

Mountains yielding permanence

Emerging with gorgeous anticipation

Shed their fallen attempts

For your eyes are not green

They were born from the most ancient of moss

Wrapped in a dripping globular of starlit jade

Yes this could be it
Final prose for a washed up lover
Harnessed pain
Night terrors
Paralyzed with memories
Of betrayal
Regret
So please hold me
But no matter
How much
I scream your name
You will not come back to me
I fear the worst
Is yet to come
Because you're still running
In my dreams

Whisked away in the night
And yes
The sights
Are blinding
And inclined to know their way
Rest
And breathe smoke
Once gone
Now returned with fervor
Your dance mixed with mist
Lights
Not withstanding
Leaning in
To whisper a vow
Given
And kept with such magic
Slow and still
Walk with me
Be not the same
With your eyes like wild-fire
Mine
With blazing child-like patience
Can you save me once more?

We can't remember our broken landscapes
A failure for another day
The portrait of how easy it is to sever chains
Now a picture lost
Handling these fortunes with damage
This is your disaster
A mansion's space filled with no stirs and burning timbers
Tonight thinking of torn moments
A weight with beautiful form
To focus on what is taken and what remains
To taint, that is our goal
Pink ***** running red
A green or blue fortune and its rust filled transfiguration
Cursed legacies
Not shameful but young
Slipping past collapse
For seasons of drownings
Hopeful and bare
Drown in the semi circles of her asymmetrical chest
Rest in a navel full of seed
Spilled in the vain context of a quickening fleeting love
Humanized anger lay naked
Core liquid
Lonely ground
Ecstasy burst
Infinite devour
Mother's sores heal
My own weep and lactate
A siren welcome
Sung and swayed
Reflections at a dark dawn

A rose appears
In heat I fall
Into chaos and a feral mixture
So close to pain
And smile
And to inhale
Inhale you
The touch beneath my flames
Oh I try, and do come undone
Dissolve