I feel guilty
For not feeling grief.
The sadness just isn't in me.
How can I feel for a life
I never truly knew?
Yet you seem like the only one
I ever really knew.

A family that's been struck
With the endings of a generation.
The knots of our roots
Are being tied slowly with the years.
All we can do is shed tears,
And hope we won't feel fear.

Sooner or later
The names will be unknown.

We'll fade away
Together,
In each other's arms.
No one will remember us
Or be alarmed.

So no need for goodbyes
Or see-you-soons
Because it's just us
Lost in one another's heart.

The stitch will always break,
That which keeps me sane.
"I need you to walk away,
Please, for my own sake,"
I will always say,
But understand that I need you,
I need you for
You're my sanity's glue.
But it's something
You already knew,
Words I hid from
Becoming the truth.

A story told
Through different eyes.
If only I could say that
I wouldn't cry,
But it's like walking through
A room with a broken light,
Looking for the shrouded switch
Hoping that I won't
Break the stitch
Which is holding me together.

You're like the sea-
Unexplored is your mind,
Just like the world you see.

You try to hide
The secrets you hope to keep,
But I'm here for you.

That's something
I hope you BELIEVE.

Poor me a cup
Of my own disaster.
I'll choke on it,
Yet I'll drink faster.
I'm trying to gasp for air
as my lungs fill
And you're there standing
With a blank stare.

Why won't you help me?
Do you like me at your feet?
The vulnerability
Glistening in my eyes
Is all you ever loved to see
As I'm drowning on the floor,
Or should I say
The sea.

The sea has always
Put me at ease;
The midnight light shining
On the sea
As the memories forgotten
Glisten as they do in dreams.

But I can't forget
The dreams about you.
The love we had,
washed away like the sand,
Make my heavy heart
Weigh me down like an anchor.

But at least
I'll drown at ease
Beneath our midnight dreams.