in the dark, in the depth
he is prowling where she wept.
in the sun, in the sky
she's trying hard not to cry.
his life was taken, she is shaken
he left not much, in her waking.
*I cannot see, I cannot do
what is left for me to lose?
I've lost my love, lost my life
I cannot bear to fight this fight.
I wish to go, I wish to die,
end this life and say goodbye.
I'll see you soon, up in heaven
and if I don't it'll be my hell.
If I see you and we're together,
then I'll say that all is well.

watching my world come crashing down
causing turmoil all around
the world is never as it seems
feeling the pain fade as it bleeds
like a dagger to my heart
wishing there had never been a start
to these feelings that i feel
this pain these thought i believed were real
this is what i keep inside
looking away trying to bide
time to hide all my tears
wiping away all my fears
that are right there in my eyes
but you're too busy with goodbyes
not noticing how i want to die
and with my last breath i whisper goodbye
my love you will never know
how i felt when we stood toe to toe
whispering secrets and murmuring teases
seductive yet secretive it always pleases
you helped me to feel alive
and now i feel like i have died.

Tired of these games,
tired of the plays,
I'm hanging up my jersey
and walking off this field.
I'm not gonna wait and see,
how it all goes down,
I'm leaving it to chance,
the rest is up to you.
what you see
is what you get
step in line and
make your bet.
they can try
and bring me down,
against all odds
I'll get around;
the fakes and
all the passes.
just watch them
try to stop me.
I'm at the starting line,
I'm ready, I'm set, let's go.

i'm sorry i couldn't;
that i let you down
and broke your spirit -
left you out alone.
i'm not sorry i left;
stopped believing your lies
and playing your games
we were long overdue
a much needed goodbye.

can't find my way back home
I'm walking out here on my own.
life's a long and windy road
it's heavy and tiring carrying this load
I see you standing there along the way,
reaching for you, hopes just at bay.
I've walked alone sad and blue
this weary road is tried and true
fought my way through thick and thin
I'm searching and praying,
you're begging, let me in.
feelings, emotions are swirling around
confusion surrounds me
and I can't find the ground.
I fall astray, lost in the wind
forgive me baby for I have sinned.
I've given up and let you go,
chosen a path no one else would follow,
chosen a road no one could love,
become this person void of all love.
all hope is lost
I look to the sky,
and see you there,
helping me to fly.

I already feel sick, thinking of seeing you,
spending the night with you
and not even being able to really be with you
3 months still to go.
but I really want to go, and I can't let you hold me back
you're always holding me back,
from trusting, from loving from falling
3 months still to go.
what will I feel, what will I say, will I be able to read you
like you've always been able to read me.
I want to touch you, my body craves you
but I know you're not mine for the taking.
3 months still to go
they ask me if I can do this, I smile and say yes
yet I've never been more unsure in my life.
you were my person, you were my happiness
and you left me so empty, how could I ever move on...
3 months still to go...

Mirror mirror on the wall.
Watch me watch me while I fall;
and when the dark encloses me,
make it end, let me be.

I've worn this cross for far too long,
I've read this book, sung this song.
My life, to him I gladly gave
and he took my heart down to his grave.

But with him my soul cannot lie;
my wings were bound,
yet I was meant to fly.
I'll stumble through, try to fill this space,
from when you left me alone in this hellish place.

i heard what you told me
but i saw your eyes...
then i read what you wrote
and now i wish mine were blind.

"I'm just trying to care"
I've never have words cut so deep before,
you used to tell me you loved me,
how I was the best thing that happened to you,
but now all I get is a I'm trying to care?

words like that are why I don't let people in
why I exist on this planet all by myself,
guarded, locked up, silent
because you shouldn't have to try,
not if you actually loved me.

No need to thank me
That's what he said
But I wanted to
- that was a lie.
I didn't just want to thank you
I wanted to run and scream and tell the world your praises
Why?
You made me smile
When I was starting to forget what it looked like.

I live my life on the phone, listening to the never ending ringing and a prerecorded voicemail asking me to leave a message.
it's not even your voice, which is all I've been longing for
the twang in it, the way you say your name, the way you say mine, I miss you, I love you.
my body craves your touch but my soul craves your sound and the way it makes me feel.
five years ago it started and since then I've spent it waiting, always waiting,
waiting for you to love me like I have always loved you.

For years I stayed through his ****, a compulsive liar, selfish, demanding, always too serious
But i loved him all the same,
Now I stand alone, left in the cruelest way possible.
Ruined before, now ruined even more.
The drugs won him over and now the drugs help me cope.
I was lost with a road map.
Now even that's been burned and I can't see which way is up.
I guess I'll just keep staying, waiting on forever.

those days when you're too sad to write
yet you know writing is the only thing that could possibly fix you
and in that moment you wonder
what will become of you when you can write no more.

you left me.
you promised you wouldn't.
i didn't leave.
you made me promise to stay,
and so i did.
through the hurt and the pain
and the wishing for death's sweet release...
i stayed.
but i don't know where you went.

Sleepless,
Who would have ever thought someone so sleepy would be sleepless...
Yet laying here completely at ease and relaxed; that's what I am.
Because a second sleeping is a second I don't get to see your face,
Time where I could be telling you I love you
Kissing you, making you laugh.
So here I'll lay sleepless,
Watching you sleep
And wondering what's going on in that pretty little head of yours.
It's said you know you're in love when you can't fall asleep because reality is finally better than your dreams
You were my dream and I didn't even know it,
Now its my reality
So here I'll lay sleepless,
But forever happy,
In your arms.

There's something so beautifully melancholy about falling in love;
Knowing at the end there is only pain
and bravely trekking on anyways -
hoping it will be worth it in the end.
It could last years or months,
hours or only minutes -
Sometimes only seconds pass before a heart is shattered
and sometimes it seems like mere seconds
as a lifetime of love has come and gone.
Take in the moments while you can;
Worn out jeans and goofy faces,
all those hellos without goodbyes
and the way their eyes saw straight into your soul -
So that when faded paint is all that's left to remember
and the faint smell of cigarettes and **** is what tucks you in at night
you remember that these sacrifices are needed to make you feel alive.
Remember there wouldn't be good days without bad ones
and that you've survived so much before-
This too will soon just be another item on that list
Remember to keep living when there's nothing left to live for
and to love when the word's definition has been lost.
Remember, remember, remember -
to breathe when the skies fall around you
Because there is no high note in death,
no crescendo nor standing ovation,
no authors note nor sequel.
Remember to keep breathing.
You'll go mad but you'll pull through.
Learn to feel and love again,
find someone new to hold and give your heart to
knowing it will be smashed into a million pieces...
But I'd rather die a thousand deaths
before I never loved again.

yellow ribbons flying 'round
one by her heart tied and bound.
her love, he's sending off today
she's hoping, praying he could stay
a yellow ribbon she'll wear always
thinking of him with the passing days
knowing this could be their last goodbye,
"I dedicate this to you in case I do die.
my love you are my one and only
without you I'll be so lonely
we've been tried and tested through-n-through
before I leave please say I do."
she's praying for his safe return
relying on the courage that she's learned
each day he's gone her pain has grown,
a love like this she's never known.
I love you, I loved you, I'll love you forever
you've been there for me through whatever.
a flag's now flying in the sky,
reminding her of their last goodbye.

you're leaving and i don't know how to feel,
is it selfish for me to think of all i'll gain when you're gone?
or is it my way of trying to be okay with it all.

you're leaving and it *****,
i don't know a world without you in it
and i don't know if i ever want to.

you're leaving and i can't say goodbye,
the words won't seem to leave my lips
like if i just hold them in you won't go

you're leaving and i hope you find peace,
for cancer's a ***** and you've been so strong
but i can't wait for you to find rest.

I can feel me breaking
but my anger is holding me together.
You said you were on your way
that this time it would be forever.

You lied.

someone asked me out,
he could have been perfect...
but i said no;
i don't date, i have too much baggage
but that was a lie.
i see people all the time
i just don't see love,
not since the day you left
and took my heart with you...