Isn't it so sad that I try so hard
just so you'd see me;
recognize me;
but in the end,
i'll never be the one;
i'll never be her.

i miss you
i miss what we had
even if it was unclear
even if it was never special
i miss you
and i wonder
what we could have been
even if there was never an us

you can't just tell me
that you wrote something for me
and then
tell me you have someone new

but who am i
to seek for something
or someone
that isn't even mine

trust me when i say;
i'm in love with you

each and every passing day
you never fail to make me realize
how im such a disappointment
and how she's better than me
and how i can never live up to your expectations

each and every passing day
you make me want to hate myself
more than i ever do

because each and every passing day
you make me feel
that i am not worth it.

at the back of my mind...
i'm still hoping..
waiting.

i feel so stupid
for even thinking
that you and i
might stand a chance

but i feel even more stupid
for thinking
that you could change

I am tired of waiting
For you to text me first
For you to say good night
For you to say "i love you"

For once, I'll be the first
To say good bye.

he's someone i can never begin to explain
this we have is something new
but at the same time something real
i can never begin to explain
but i can say
he's something
he's something worth it

it is in this moment
when i just want to speed up
minutes turning into hours
days turning into months
months turning into years
because im too tired
too helpless
too afraid

love is like
holding a pen
and writing your own story
delivering out the best lines
giving the idea of the best scenes
sometimes making your mistakes
trying to erase your errors
covering them up
even wanting to tear the page off
doing everything to make them right
that is love
love is your story
no matter how good
or bad
the chapter may be
love is worth reading

it's annoying when you get hurt
because being hurt means pain
and what's worse is knowing
that you can only be hurt
by the ones you love

you never get tired, don't you?
never losing patience when we are being immature
never yelling when we become unreasonable
never getting tired of being the light of our home
you never get tired.
and i can never thank you enough
for not giving up
for not getting tired.

i love you, mom.

i have been figuring life
for 19 years
and still i ain't got no clue
how to live with the *******
how to survive the **** ups
how to deal with life's crap

why am i
being blamed for something
i didn't do?

when is it going to stop
being my fault?

why is it
always me
who takes the fall?

when will i
put myself
back together?

will i still
be able to?

Love came to conquer;
Love came to win.
Death came to take
What love had built.

i seem to have forgotten
how you make me feel
with just one text
my lips form a smile
my heart skips a beat

this is the feeling
i never want to forget
ever again.

There are moments in life when I don't have any idea what I am doing anymore.
It's like my all of my days are bound to start and end the same way.
And I keep asking myself,
When will my world start spinning the other way around?
When will the changes begin?
I'm sick of having to do my daily routines.
I'm sick of everything that makes my life ordinary.
I'm tired and I just want to feel something new.

When I look at you
I see myself.
Like I’m staring at my own reflection.
When you speak,
I hear my voice.
Like it was taped to be heard.
When you dance,
I see my own movements.
Like it was rehearsed from the beginning.
The difference;
When you talk,
People listen.
When I smile,
People go away.
We are the same
In almost every angle.
But different
In any aspect possible.

Remember that time,
When you told me to close my eyes?
I did.
But, when I opened them,
You were gone.
Just gone.

How many heart breaks
And fall downs;
And bad influences;
And wrong paths;
Do you have to take?
Or do you have to do?
For you to realize,
That you deserve so much more
Than what you are getting.

Billions of people around the world;
I must be very lucky.
To have met someone like you.
But I guess,
Not lucky enough
For you to love me back.

I have found myself
Looking right back at you.
I knew, in that moment,
I realized
I love you.

I could have sworn
All of it was nothing.
But then,
You smiled at me,
And everything that I thought
I knew,
It went fading.

I really do not know why,
But you can make me smile.
A smile that I hope
Would last forever.
A smile that I pray
Would bring us together.