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Apr 2016 · 626
you are so wrong
Gabriel Roa Apr 2016
I've tried to warn you
again
and again
about

those times you say
your hair is ugly
because it doesn't glow
as you'd like to

or you are as uninteresting
as a grain of salt
dropped in the water
of a cosmic ocean

or your gritty knees
aren't lovely because
they aren't soft enough
to sleep over them

or your eyes aren't shining
because you feel
you are empty
as if nothing matters

I've tried to warn you,
the dearest of my moons,
that you are
so wrong.

I find you,
let's see,
fascinating,
glowing,

chaotic,
enigmatic,
magic,
soft,

lov­ely,
ephemeral,
yet,
so unforgettable

I find
your hair
dancing
with your shoulders

to some music
that
was really
acute

yes, I find it
so amusing
I could stare you
for hours

(no matter
how much
your hair
'isn't glowing')

I say, I can connect with your veins
and navigate
through
all your inner galaxies,

in constant expansion,
with their entropy
walking around
in the park of life

and I believe
it is
so wonderful
I can't believe my eyes.

I could get lost in your skin
every time
you get
asleep,

because
Radiohead isn't enough
to make me feel
like a lost song

if I'm not lost
around you,
then,
why am I lost?

and, yet,
your eyes
are a mystery
waiting

for the rain
to come
and wash you away,
and wash mankind away

that's why,
my darling,
I keep insisting
that

you
are
so
wrong.
for her.
Apr 2016 · 848
luna
Gabriel Roa Apr 2016
.                he sid                  
.         o un astro volá          
.       til naufragando so      
.      bre tus ex          cusas,
.     una presa                de
.    tu sinerg                     í
.   a, un nebulo
.   so intento de
.   viaje marino
.   que claudicó
.   sin más. he
.    intentado                   s
.     obrevolar                 tu
.      s estrellas              una
.       y otra vez, y nunca
.         pude. he querido,
.              si, y te he

querido,
pero no,
no he podido dejarte.
a little spanish visual poem here
Apr 2016 · 452
chaoticc-
Gabriel Roa Apr 2016
guess who's here?

anxiety's here!

let me take your heart
and make it
beat
s l o w l y
           w
          o
r        l
e     s
  a  
   l y
    l

          a n       d

it will make you collapse!

liketherewasafuckingblackholeinsideofyou

andthennothi­ngmakesANYsense
b e cccccccccause-

things went chaotic! quickly
            
a       I    
  n  
    d

want to-

-disappear!?

don't believe me,

I'm just

******


but

I have to keep breathing

as if

nothing is happening

can I?

should I?

I don't really know but oh God I wish I could know anything of anything at all

and I wish I wouldn't have to keep writing this statements about

desiring an uncertain death that

doesn't come.
sorry for this, I know it's something not-really-good, but I'm feeling really chaotic right now.
Apr 2016 · 331
Untitled
Gabriel Roa Apr 2016
I can't stop this business of ******* missing you
and I'd still hold your hands
and kiss your little veins with my soul
and hold you into my arms so tight

and it's ruining my life believing that
I can't run away from this
I can't stop feeling lonely if you're not around
I can't hold my pieces together again

I can't believe how much I loved you
and that's ****** up because you didn't
and now that you run away
and you're not around, it's my fate

and I believe it's just unfair
I can't run away from your crazy kitten smile
I can't do it same way you did
I can't and it's so painful that
I can't
Mar 2016 · 449
fake
Gabriel Roa Mar 2016
oh no not again
not another big-crunch
not another bad night
no please no

I'll try to
oh for ****'s sake
I forgot the word
and i still try to act

like if i know english and
im a faylure and i doesnt
wanna to be alive  
any less any more

im just caouthic and
my chests hurt and
id feel better
being another people

ill try not to die
but if i fail i
i just promise i
wont be sorry at all
feeling quite a lot chaotic right now
Mar 2016 · 1.1k
I didn't ask for you
Gabriel Roa Mar 2016
I didn't ask for you.

It was you who,
shining, came to me,
and told me to draw a pineapple.

It was your laugh that
made me smile so much,
from star to star.

It was you, and only
your voice what gave me reasons
to keep going in life.

Now you aren't here.*

Your shining isn't nearby,
and I look for you in space,
I can't find your lips.

Your eyes aren't around,
so there's no mirrors
to look myself into.

Your heart isn't glowing
at my heart, not anymore,
and I don't know what to do.

*No, I don't know what to do.
uh
Mar 2016 · 512
man
Gabriel Roa Mar 2016
man
man, she used to hold me
like a hurt child,
and tell me that everything
would be so okay,

man, she loved me so far,
and when my darkest,
she took my heart away
with a single kiss of her mouth

man, she punched my pain
and make me feel flowers,
like I was in love
of her beautiful smile

man, she is still everything,
I don't want to let her go
or make her unhappy,
not anymore, not that

but, dude, she is flying,
and I was just some weight
she kept carrying
without making any sense
hm, I guess this is based on "'Tis a Pity She Was a *****", by David Bowie
Feb 2016 · 1.3k
how to make me feel better:
Gabriel Roa Feb 2016
1) read me a poem

2) sing me a Radiohead song

3) talk to me about that time you ate that pizza by your own and how funny it was to see other people's reaction

4) hug me

5) tell me everything's gonna pass and everything's gonna be alright

6) play with me

7) take me out to play guitar and jam with weird and gilly and the spiders from mars

8) make me see the moon

9) help me breathing

10) tell me to make a list of things that make me feel better

11) talk to me with your bare voice

12) show me that photo of us that you loved so much you couldn't stop staring at

13) love me

14) be with me at my darkest

15) help me sleep without nightmares

16) let me see your eyes

17) show me your disc/book collection

18) talk to me about your mommy

19) play hide and seek with me

20) make me a list of the foods you don't like

21) read my bad sad depressing poetry

22) acaríciame la nuca y perdóname por no saber cómo se dice en inglés

23) remember with me those moments you really liked

24) be patient

25) be careful, but not that much careful

26) excuse my ocd about space and counting your inner stars

27) arrópame y discúlpame de nuevo por ser tan ignorante con el inglés

28) wait for me

29) say hi!, literally hi!

30) be happy,

and I'll try to be happy with you.
/spanish lines because I don't really know why/
Feb 2016 · 277
l o s t
Gabriel Roa Feb 2016
I'm completely l o s t

between your legs
and my own thoughts
of being more
and feeling ****

I'm caught up
around the feeling of
you never coming back
and I cling to it

there's a whole universe
growing inside of me
but there's a black hole
of sadness swallowing it all

I don't wanna hear you or
your voice asking me
how am I, how do I feel,
because I feel cheated

I think I'm cracking up
and my home, oh God,
it isn't where it should be,
and I'm not where I should

I just sleep
and try
to feel better,
tomorrow.
feeling really really really down lately
Gabriel Roa Dec 2015
I know you are there.

I know you hurt me,
yet, I feel so quiet
when I'm in your arms.

I know your thought
is what haunts me
in every sleepless night.

I know I'll never stop
loving you,
and that's ****** up.

I know I won't feel your
love get back to me
as it should be.

I know that expecting
too much from someone
is the worst thing you can do.

I know, and it keeps hitting me
like your train
against my walls.

I know I'm weak,
but I wasn't made
to overstep this.

I know I'm lost,
and now,
sadly broken.

I know where we are,
and I guess I know
we are so far away.

I know we are galaxies,
falling apart
from each other.

I want us
to be
in collision course.

But we won't.

And the gap will grow,

and grow,

and grow.
and we'll never get back,

and the thought of you

never coming back

to me

haunts me

f o r e v e r
Dec 2015 · 531
/
Gabriel Roa Dec 2015
/
everything is so quiet
yet I feel
like I'm falling apart

                                          they said I'd hit the ground
                                                      so hard I could
                                                       barely survive

                                                        ­                    so falling wasn't enough pain
                                                            ­                                now hitting ground,
                                                         ­                        being around while not ok

                                                       I feel so lonely
                                                 and I'm still trying to
                                                            fi­gure out

how and why and
**** **** fuck f///
////////////
///uck

                                                    I've­ got no excuses
                                                         ­  and I know
                                                  cutting my legs hurts

                                                          ­                          and hitting my face hurts
                                                           ­                            and holding my breath
                                                          ­                         until I see darkness hurts

                                                 but nothing, nothing
                                                   matters at all now
                                                     that I just feel so

numb

                                                              erratic

                                                    ­                                                             *empty
just feeling weak
Dec 2015 · 642
homeless
Gabriel Roa Dec 2015
and I feel
like the homeless lover
without any Godot to wait
without any heart to care

and I feel
time goes on and on
and I have moved out
but I'm back where I don't belong

and I feel
that it goes on forever
looking for some eyes
to see myself into

and I feel
I could die any second
and nobody would remember
a little bit of my name

and I feel
this has gone too far
my hope has vanished
and for now

I just wait




and wait






and wait










*and wait
Dec 2015 · 476
Paris
Gabriel Roa Dec 2015
they say
Paris
is the most beautiful
in the rain

*I say
they've never
seen you
in the rain
(you, and your smile)
Dec 2015 · 932
d r e a m i n g
Gabriel Roa Dec 2015
I see you:
you're dreaming.

about what trees are you hanging?
over what seas are you flying?

why are your eyes so gracefully closed?
how does your lips press each other?

what music sounds inside your heart?
is it the same music we listen to the same moment?

right here,
on the aeroplane / over the sea

I know we are
I know you'll smile

I know your hair dancing to the wind
I know your crossed hands

I know the smell before your rain,
the one you left in stars

I know the music of your silence
or absence of life

I know your sleep
and even there, oh,

I guess I love you even more
than I have ever loved myself
~
Dec 2015 · 909
everything
Gabriel Roa Dec 2015
but she didn't know
I loved everything e v e r y t h i n g

her beautiful eyes,
disposed to look at other people
through the love she owned
to herself

her beautiful neck
and the way she feels all the love
passing from my fingers
to her veins

her beautiful hair
which moves graciously
along the air
she dances with

her beautiful chest
so warm,
you could take a nap
inside her

her beautiful lips
and the way she moved them
every time she was thinking
about her first love

her beautiful knees
and her infinite femur
which held her so long
even when she didn't want to

her beautiful clavicles
and how they stand there
waiting for the breeze
of an incoming morning

her beautiful nose
and how it keeps breathing
every time she fails
to convince herself to

her beautiful hands

oh God

I love her hands so much

and the way she moved them

and the way she touched her face

and the way she brushed her hair

and the way she did her makeup

and the way she listened to my voice

and the way she opens her heart

and the way she claims herself a mermaid

and the way she smiles like a little kitten

and the way she

oh, believe me,

I really really love how she

*tries to love herself
/to her/

— The End —