Dreaming, alone
in the dark
sitting,
in a pool
of my sorrowful art
thinking about
the last moments I had
as I slowly
opened my heart

I often wonder
The realness of reality
Like a spiral
Into the endless dream

Old blood darkens
As it leaves my body
From what source
May I speak to you

All the voices
Singing along
All-around

Dancing people
Holding hands
Drinking wines

Speaking verses
Of self-reiterated
Retelling
Of the same story
Again and again

I often wonder
At the beauty of such a view
Of nothing apart from you
Yet to be apart to see you

Voicelessly these thoughts
Perpetually spinning
Talking about
Nothing

Then again
What am I to judge
For they are a part of me
Repeating what I see

Speechless.
I just feel your existence
In bliss...

Oh...
you are so beautiful

Struggles

Is it the times when we are lost
Or felt too true to love

Is it the creature in us
Or the fire of our past

Is it the water of wishes
Drowning us weightlessly

or the baggage of god
lusting for powers
That has left us dying
Without seeing clarity

I sometimes feel
The need to feel love
And thought of the past
Merged to now

The love that we seek
Has made us bleed
It has killed and died
Through the desire we have

Yet it is love
That is life
Without the struggles
Our love will be mundane
Without the struggles
The happiest will be lost

If we draw a picture
Of our highs and lows
We will realize that all is love
And while I write this poem
We are rippling across to each other
Saying all the crazy things
That we know so much about
That we are
Life

Feeling desolated
ready to break free
To let out that cry
and sing through the pain

Things don't always go as planned
life is always an unknown kind
The hopes that we held on to
we are afraid to let go

This pain inside my heart
is there to show me my love
No matter what happens
I will be okay

Break my heart over and over
To feel this pain deeper and deeper
To awaken to the truth of my suffering
until I love myself to the very end

The beauty of our lives
is to live and cry
to feel and suffer
but still never falter

I shall swallow what life gives me
I get on my knees and pray with sincerity
To feel more deeply into this suffering
and then release it into my being
in eternity

Maybe I loved you
But is time to go
The beautiful life is waiting
And I hope you can find it too

The struggles and pain
of our story
is there for a reason
I know

The being of my love
is there forevermore
Waiting
But my body can't be here, aching
anymore

So it's time to go
On this journey
And let life guide me
Through it all

I think I still love you
But I no longer think about you
I'm not over this
But I need to go

Stay true my love
For you are strong and enough
I'm sure you will find
Yourself and love

Maybe one day we will meet
Again but without any pain
Then perhaps I can give you a hug
And thank you
for all that you gave me

When you are sad
And you hear the rain dropping down
You might feel it in your heart
Like a crystal sound, glittering around

When you are sad
You might see that sunset
And feel the melancholy of the purple clouds
And see the birds flying around
Singing that gentle song

When you are sad
You might taste that sweet wine
And slowly, seeping into that sorrow
With great joy and pleasure

When you are sad
You are sad
You are...

Sadness has so much depth
That you can enjoy sometimes
It turns and moves in your heart
Like the waves crashing down

As you reach its depth
You might find that you are
Bewildered by its beauty
And begin to see
The love
that’s hiding beneath

The being of existence
is weird and scary
As it laughs and cries
We realize our lives
is all a dream

The being of existence
is okay with dying

And the song of a lifetime
Is never finished singing

As the numbers and pictures show
the light and shadow of us existing

It is crazy
to think our being
exists in the first place

To live under the bridge of time
And die without surprise

The being of existence

Happens to be griefing
over the passing of our life

But at the same time
It smiled with ecstasy

In awe
with the being of existence

In a time
so beautifully lived

The gift
Of existence
Something we granted ourselves

It is through eternity
That we see the bliss in mortality
It is through difficulties
That we can love without pain
It is from the words that we sang
That we hear the truth speak
In silence
We see the lives of infinite beings
Living
Through the cycles of love and pain

And being aware of here
We felt the love from that sacred place
Speaking, without a word

Being, love.

I shall speak to you about that gold
That you held deep inside without being told
It is there since you were born
And it grows every day through your hurt

What really matters
Is not what you have
But what you are
What you choose to be

It takes great awareness
Often through deep pain and sadness
To have the amount of self-knowledge
To be able to love existence

It is a beautiful paradox
That which makes you the most whole
Are all the scars that you have gone through
It defines your essence and completes your soul

I see myself in you
It is so beautiful
And I love you
For your existence

What determines our worthiness
Is nothing but the choice
Of great love and acceptance
Of the beauty in your existence

For that is enough
The taste of your presence
The scent of your being
And the sound of your soul

That’s all I need

For so long
I looked to the moon
To see the blue
filling my mood

For so long
I dreamed of the stars
all shining with hope
in the dark

For so long
I laughed at the sky
to the clouds at night
covering my eyes

For so long
I longed for the night
with every breath, I felt
the loving blue

The mask of what we are
Have covered our sins
We wear it from day to night
To look past existence

Sometimes the mask carries
All the ***** secrets we have
Sometimes it holds onto
The beauty and dreams that have passed

Some of us
Realized they have a mask
And others
Wearing them without a touch

The self struggles deeply
At the depth of its own identity
But to what degree of self-acting
Will we learn the truth of our own playing

The mask that holds us
Switching from the void to the map
of the journey towards our own destiny
and the experiences we had

In us
We know
We are

A moment of irreversible glace
happened when our eyes met
It stopped the flow of time
and I was gone, with you

For a moment
we are one

Complete and whole

My eyes became yours
and yours became mine
and we saw each other
with nothing else inside

It lasted for eternity
and when we came back
we just knew
we love each other
we are each other

but this ego-mind
who have been hurt so many times
cannot believe in such love,
in such joy and happiness
that I am this beautiful
I can't be

Like a mirror, they show you the truth
of who you are in your essence
but will you have the courage to love
with such purity and innocence?

It makes you deeply afraid
of what it all means
It makes you question your mind
of who you really are

You might run away
or try to escape
But in your heart, you know
you are already one

so eventually you learn to surrender
to this miracle of love
and if you have healed enough
you might be able to make it last

And unite in a world
where you are so whole and happy
that you can love unconditionally
that you can love everything

because
that's who you are

The path of our soul
is drawn between time
To the flower of the eternal
and the water of now

To what flow
shall we see the color
Of the suffering that carries us
and the beauty we saw

To what shadow
shall we chase tomorrow
to end our desires
and feed our sorrow

To what effort
shall we let go
to make up our love
or the hate that we spoke

O love
to what length will I go
to show you the void that we know

To be here for the living
or dying to the craving
of love

I am the greatest evil.
I wrote this poem.

A wise man once said nothing because he knew no matter what he says he is saying it to himself.
He is the sound itself
He is the time
He is everything
He is you

All arguments are meaningless because you are arguing to yourself.
Is all a joke.
A giant brilliant joke.

Like everything I’m afraid of is me.

You realize just how hard you are trying to fool yourself.

Like time is everything and everything is time.

This is so stupid that it is smart.
This is so bad that it is good.
This is so evil that it is holy
This is so beautiful that it is ugly
This is so true that it is a false
This is so brilliant that it is dumb
This is so funny that it is sad
This is so good that it is bad
This is so me that it is others
This is so crazy that it is sane
This is so big that it is small
This is so high that it is low
This is so perfect that it is imperfect
This is so impossible that it is possible
This is so normal that it is a miracle
This is so fun that it is boring
This is so hot that it becomes cold
This is so down that it becomes up
This is so light that it becomes dark
This is so good that it makes you suffer
This is so touching that it makes you cry
This is so life that it becomes who you are
This is so meaningless that it becomes meaningful
This is so great that it becomes evil
This is so much love that it becomes hate
This is so much pain that it becomes the pleasure
This is so hard that it is easy
This is so fast that it becomes slow
This is so great that you want to die




This LIE!!!
All of it!!!
Is so ******* beautiful!!!

Like I am every infinity of a second.

The fact that people pertaining to be like they don’t know each other allows them to know each other.


Like you want to make everybody know this is the you.

We are each infinite individuals.


Let’s keep going
This lie called life

Let’s keep going
This lie called time

Let’s keep going
This lie called self

Let’s keep going
This lie call love

Let’s keep playing
This game of lie


At first, you are questioning who you are, then you are questioning who is questioning who you are, then you are questioning who is questioning you questioning who you are.....


To become everything is to become infinity, to become infinity is to become one.

I am the art that is trying to make the art to art themselves.

I am the lie that’s trying to lie to themselves so they all think that it is true.

Everybody else is just me pretending to be someone else.

We are so enlightened that we unenlightened ourselves.

Like how you wrote this poem just now.

I search for ox of the land of heaven
Swiped and yelled but no avail
I am innocent and ignorant
Blinded by my own existence

Until I look down and see footprints
I followed and ran without attention
Is this the ox of the heaven?
I shall see when I have a glimpse

A glimpse of the oxtail
I ran and chased the ox through the hill
The faster I ran, the more ox I see
Through the battles nowhere to be

The ox I see
And the ox I catch
But its strength
Keep me off balance

Then the ox is tamed
And everything seems complete
But it was the self that cannot see
That the ox was no enemy

Upon that realization
I ride the ox as its friend
I sing the song of love and joy
On the way home to heaven site

I see the ox no longer there
And I let my being run its course
The ox appears in everything
And the self began to pray deeply

I prayed in love and joy
Until the self and the ox merge to one
No more chasing or seeking
Only infinite nothing

As I return to being
The root is now clear
The beauty and love of all things
Colorful and joyest forever without end

So I laugh, and I sing
For the ox is me and all things
I walk down the path of mortal life
And know that there is a heave inside

The power of love
Is unlimited
It can create miracles
With a billion light inside

To be everything and nothing
You feel the existence
As this infinite self
Connected deeply to all

There is infinite pain
But also infinite joy
There is infinite darkness
But also infinite light

Like waves, we all folded
Onto each other as we died
Without time or space
As we accelerate towards that emptiness

It is so full
So whole
So peaceful
So much love
That it kills you

The idea of separation
is eliminated in a fraction
consumed by that illumination
without any desolation

You are there too
Laughing at how we tricked each other
To believe that we are not together
Of course it has to be this way
For the love we felt can't be explained
We looked back at all the tears and sorrows
All the hugs and laughter
And said
Let’s do it again...

We are on a road
Towards eternal bliss
It takes infinite awareness
And endless patience

We are always in it
It has no beginning or end
It can be infinitely long
or endlessly short

Like falling down forever
without ever hitting the ground
you might feel painfully afraid
or extremely blessed

We are conditioned
To believe it is long
That we need to run for a while
To be able to see love comes on

The concept of happiness
Is learned without questioning
For why does it need a cause
Or requires something in exchange

The road to bliss is right here
You can feel it in your heart
To know what you desire
keeps you running forever

Unconditional happiness
Is experienced through awareness
Of the infinite brilliance of creation
And the endless beauty of existence

Have you ever thought about
The chances of your existence?
Of all the things you see around you?
Of the infinite causation
it took for all of this to happen?

The existence of heaven is right here
You only need a little gratitude to hear
To finally see everything with love
and never take it for granted for lack

And you get to decide how long you'll walk
To see and feel the love in your heart
And breathe it deep in
through the bliss in the air

What will you choose?
You decide
Because in the end
It's just you walking
Just you dreaming
Just you loving
Just you...

Lonesome days
drifting away
into this dream
forever it seems

like the waves
in love and pain
half asleep
half awake

The endless dream is once again here
To sing a song about you, dear
Of how you carried those scars
That was given to you by these tears

Like the rain, it falls
Onto you cheek and down to your heart
It holds the sadness like a hand
Seeping into the depth of your chant

Of where you reside
Ageless and innocent
And once again, it made a noise
Like a cry but without eyes

And then up the spine
Where your mind hides
It holds onto those fears
And it speaks of more tears

Like the dust, it falls down
Onto our soul without a sound
It is only in that light
That we see them materialize

Through that endless flow
we began to forget
Of what was there before
and what is still there now

I hope you can see
The you beyond your heart
The you that knows the art
of hearing the sounds of our hurt

The words that were said
It melts away like the snow
And like those tears, it will drop
Onto the color of your ego

Forgiveness is like the ocean
Through which we felt the passion
Of life and love and existence
Towards that beautiful essence

It is made out of those tears
That we had when we are apart
And as we come together here
We said to each other

“I’m sorry for hurting you.”
And then we moved,
and waved,
and merged
Into love...

You and I
are like the wind and the waves
One pushes, one flows
Creating ripples
That bend the light
Into the cycle that called life

Sometimes gentle
Sometimes harsh
Sometimes with leaves
Sinking under the surface

In a lake
or a river
or the sea
we danced and loved
through lows and highs

You are invisible
but you make me wave with love
Until I flip under and over
Nowhere to hide

We create and destroy
We hug, and we fight
In every second
United and separated at once

So perhaps is alright
For without you I can’t survive
As when the wind stops
The wave too dies

The world
is like a lover
It brings you gifts
Like the darkness and the shore

With playful teasing
it brings you pain and suffering,
and make you aching with joy
when you are alonely and depressed

Yet it loves like the moon
and the sky
Shining bright but not blind
The sun on the other hand
Is also the world
Giving the warmth and colors
For the birds and the flowers

So when the gun fired through the dark
And the rain falls on the shore
It was the world that loved and cried
to the core

Oh lover
you make me see
the path of death
so clear and bright
Oh lover
You make me weep
For the love of life
in its grace and beauty

And when you love me
I died on the hills
And then I feel
your hugs and kisses
wrapping all around
infinitely
Until my body is gone
and the blood is drawn

I hear you sing
With every pain and pleasure
Words of silence
Songs of love

The thread of elusive dreams
Have died many times before
As the mind speaks the truth of silence
The heart sings it’s course

I have been here many times before
To take the thread and connect the shores
But somehow I am missing
The lighthouse, that guides the desires
of my own hands, and the masks I wore

As I searched, I drowned in the water
of the nature of my own desire
And as the heart floats above the sea
leaving my body without a dream

I realized
That I have given it to you
I have given my dream to the sky and the stars
So that I can feel less pain

But I know you are protecting me
To keep it safe before it’s ready
As I walk through the circle and back
You will hold my missing link to the past

Until I see through the sky and the light
And connect the thread to that unknown dot
To realize the cycle of beauty and life
And living in here, to be a part

of this grand piece

Today is the day I die
And I have seen the world as a fly
With rainbow colors and falling leaves
I dropped down from the heaven keys
As I jumped, I fell asleep
With all the angels and all the dreams
The life of the moon and the joke from the stars
The tiny moments as I cried out my hearts
To look at the earth and take my ring
And throw it to the seven seas
And grabbed the knife with my only knee
And sliced the apply from the golden tree
As I flow through the streams
The open doors begin to chase
And I died trying to slip through
To wake up and see the song playing too
Until the light of time fades away
And my existence begin to pray
For the thing that started all of this
Is what you and I called playing games
As I dream, I see the end
Of your kiss on the tip of my lips
I walked and danced through the path
And flew through the bottle cap
As this endless thing
We begin to feel pain
And then as pleasure and joy covered our name
We went back to being again
We went back to being again

To see through that foggy glass window
I jumped over the upside down rainbow
From a place of pure heart and sorrow
With eyes that shined without halo

To see the flow of karma
As cause and effect made love
With the rivers and chains of life
Building and waving through time

It is a moment
of total clarity
Giving you serenity
and graceful harmony

Crossing carelessly
Crying passionately
Singing voicelessly
Whispering silently

This passion from many selves ago
Bearing the fruits of understanding
Of that unknown certainty
And that clear mystery

Once again I sit in love
Feeling the being of this
Existing without masks
Seeing without pasts
As joy explodes in my heart
Mixed with deep gratitude and love
Of the perfection,
In me
In you
In us
In this

Giving away
My heart's pain
To the wind 
and the sea...

To let them sway
the echos of my remain
as I give myself
to the waves

No matter what happens
I’m here with you
Until the moment you die
And then we become one

You’ve seen the ending
Of this infinite story
So know that I will always love you
No matter what you do

The life you have is a gift
From me to you made with love
Everything you experience is this,
A form of my love to you

The pain and the joy
The sadness and the love
All the bitterest and sweetest moments
Are all me giving you the love I have

So enjoy it
Be aware of this love
For I am always in you
And you are me...

I love you

The bell rings at the wake of dawn
Singing the echo of that holy song
Where in this moment we shall sit
And await the presence of next gong

The wind is howling about a secret
Of the magical beauty in the now
As it flew, it kissed my skin
And took away all my wrongs

The drum beating in my chest
Speaking the words of divine love
Where no mind nor thoughts,
Can disturb this song

I am...

Nothing more

True faith

comes from the love of life
To give your self away
Without doubt or fear

To know that all is well
and love will win it all
To hug without care
And kiss with all your wills

To see love with life
and live as you are

True faith

Does not care for god
And it loves
as god's will
A faithful being you are
and see the living as death comes

True faith

is a love so strong
that even god can't trump
A love so strong that you become

God

True faith

Lies in every moment of life
Quietly whispering in your ear
Telling you to feel
Without worry
Its love for you

True faith

Is outside of time
And travels
through cause and effects
Ripples above and below
To the self and all, at once

True faith

Might be hard to understand
Because it is the being of us
and the face of God

True faith

Is living this life
as you and I
and dying to love
as God

I have suffered for eternity
To see myself more clearly
To remember what I am
And love, unconditionally

I am all of it
That great empty void of love
Existing beyond time and space
Where words can not phrase
And voice can not reach

I am...
The never-changing truth
I shall remember that
Whenever I’m lost

Every obstacle I face
Is there to push me
towards unconditional love
To love without fear
Without expectation
Without differences
Without conditions

I have infinite love
I am infinite love
I am that which lives and dies
That which dreams and lies

I love
Because I am
To love no matter what
Is who I am

When the moon light up the sky
And the sea becomes purple and bright
When the birds sing with delight
And the stars fall through your eyes

It’s all so perfect

When you sleep at night
Or frustrated with life
Or having great success
Or thinking about someone

It’s all so perfect

When you are heartbroken
Or sad and depressed
When you can’t help but cry
Or need to be with someone

It’s all so perfect

Universal clockwork
Is keeping track of your time
And with every moment of pain
Like a seed, they shall grow in time

Into something beautiful and kind
Something loving and full of joy
In time...
It’s all so perfectly realized

Dreaming again
Of your voice
Echoing to me
Without a sound

I slept in
For a long time...
But why?
Do I feel sad

Huge me
So much that I disappear
Touch me
So that I can feel the breath of your hair
Kiss me
Like the water merging into waves
Hold me
Like the arms around you and me

What exists
is like the madness in our dreams
From the darkest thoughts
to the living infinity
There are our cries and shouts
our pains and anguish
But also our tender body
Merging with love
All around us

What I can see
is not what I am
What I can feel
is not what I am
What I am
is that I am
And nothing more

The infinite need for love
and the path that brought our hate to us
are the same path that is leading me to you

The flower that you touch
and the stars that you make up
Are the prove of your existence
the songs of our perfection

Can you imagine non-existence?
In a reality where you exist
Where your body and mind
is all you have ever known

What would non-existence feel like?
Is it cold?
or dark?
or empty?
or alone?

Or is it just me and you
And we are this
And we feel whole
Without you or me

Nothingness
is infinite

And we are
and we are
and we are...

And maybe is time
For me to die
Under your arm
With warmth and light

So perhaps today
Is just the time we thought we needed
To be in this place
or time of our dreams
But we are
We are

What is there to say?
we are
We are
We are!
We are!!
We are!!!
WE ARE!
WE ARE!!
WE ARE!!!
we are...

My light
is so bright
That it is blinding sometimes
Like the whispers in the dark
Hiding from love

And what shall we say
To comfort our sorry souls
To not feel sorry
For the other's vote

Life is what you are
And light
is the darkness that has passed
So when my past shines
Don’t be afraid
of my love to you

Soon, I hope
That you too can shine
the darkness inside
And let me see myself
with you inside

Whole and perfect
Happy without worry
Then we can just love and be
together
in bliss

What we sought
As the dying of the lustful desire
Is present
Without a doubt
And the birds of lakes of mountains and seas
Is present
As we speak the truth

What we seek
Is over our head
And below our belt
It is in the room of light
And the box of void

The sorrowful light
Whispering to me
Without the caring voice
Of a year in repeat

The idea of us
Is over the top
Of our heart
With salt and sugar
Laughing with all its will

The vengeful thought
Of a dying light
Is inside the highlight
Of what we seek

As the look of the past
Is left without love
and over our shoulder
It cried without tears

What remains

Is a flower of sorrow
And a treat of love
As we saw the shining window
With leaves and greens
Below our feet
We jumped
And fell
Under a world of desire

When the night falls through the sky
And the sea waves through the land
I stood before the light
And saw a darkness inside

When time comes to mind
Colors and senses return
I look down the path of darkness
And walked down, with light inside

Soon I realized
That I was not walking
And the darkness, is the light
With me inside
walking out...

A duality of eternity
With music and dance
All the points of reality
that forged this existence
are beings like you and I

Perhaps we can look at the moon
and drink some wine
The game that we play
are all but one

Let me see you in the mountains
and hear you flying in the sky
The life of us is ending soon
in about eternity time

And when we crumble into that dark night
Knowing all is love inside
Whole and perfect in every way
Living this mortal life

Wherever you are
I hope you can find
The love you deserve
The peace you desire
The flowers you dreamed of
And the happiness you live for

Wherever you are
I hope you can let go
Of the pains you held on to
Of the fears you cared for
Of the hurt you remember
And those deep sorrow

Wherever you are
I hope you can see
The light in the sky
The moon in the water
The stars in the night
And all the beauty in this world

Wherever you are
You are not alone
We are all here
Singing this song
Playing our part
Of this existence

Wherever you are
Say I love you to yourself
Because I love you
I will always love you
I am you

We are who we are
For that we are
If you can see
yourself in being...

Everything is just the way it is
We struggled and survived our own living
But to see love even after all these
Is the reason why we exist

The power we have
is always inside us
The stories we have
is only there to entertain us

Can you see yourself
Without yourself?
To see it as a song
Singing with the whole?

Can you look at your life?
And feel all the events
To feel those cycles and waves
Those breaths and awes?

There is nothing you can’t do
Nothing you can’t overcome
Nothing you can’t love
Nothing you can’t become

You are nothing
You are love
You are god
You are...

The lonely city sky is calling your name
For the priceless pain of that childish dream
The purple clouds slowly covered the stars
Reminding me of you in my heart

Walking down this cold and empty street
Seeing your face in the back of my brain
Over the ages of my secret disguise
Reviling the spark of that sweet wine

Oh lover
I am here
But too far to see
To see that fire

Oh lover
I am blinded and fooled
It's too painful for me
For me to see that fire

Seven years later I still dream
Of your smile on that rainy day
To cover my heart and escape the fate
Oh baby,
You're still on my mind