I am rational and you are wild,
I tell you what you want to hear but your fluttering gives away my lies,
You dive into the ocean before checking the depth , I tell you to be careful , to look before you jump
Your faith is blind , your love unconditional,  my faith is conditional, my love a calculation
I protect your vulnerabilities, you see no reason for protection
I lead and then follow , lead and follow,
Like an endless game of tag, that only has two players .

I could cry at the broken or choose to feel grateful for the doors that have opened because you let go.
I could hold on , fight to gain control over the uncontrollable or I could surrender gracefully.
I could choose to hold anger, instead I feel nothing but love for the heart that let go long before mine.
You didn't choose to stop loving me, but I have a choice of how I’ll move forward from here.
You never meant to hurt me, so why would I say something to cause you pain?
Your love left, mine stayed.
With love belongs grace and gratitude.
I know my heart won’t heal if I push the blame onto yours.
You were kind with your words, I will be kind through my pain, graceful despite the fight raging within, and grateful for the moments we shared instead of greedy for the ones we never will.

Every time the wind blows I can hear it calling to me.
Telling me of the wilderness that it holds and the adventures that it promises.
Every time  the Wind blows I can feel it tugging at my free soul urging me to be truthful.
Every time the wind blows I can smell the wild ocean that lays just beyond.
Every time the winds blows I can hear the song that it sings to me, and the laughter of it's never ending joy.
Every time the wind blows, a butterfly flutters past my face, whispering, it's time.

He speaks to me of courage and strength, of warriors and great men,
I speak to him of the courage and strength that it takes to show his vulnerabilities, of warriors that fight for peace, of men who use their greatness for equality.
He wakes in the morning ready to take on the world, his armer shinning and strong, his walls of protection surrounding him.
I urge him to stay in bed, just a little longer, so that when he rises, his armer stays in his dreams and his walls exist only in his nightmares,
He pain is in the past, in the fears of the future, both non existent in this moment, and yet this moment is not his.
I whisper to him, to let it go, let it be, to be present.
He hears me, he understands, yet without feeling there is no truth to understanding, and knowing will never be his,
I let him be, this fight is his.
He knows I am there and I know that he will be brave enough.

Do you dust the seat off that separates us from being strangers or will you sit on the other side of the room pretending not to see me? 
Will you smile showing teeth or will your greeting be a painful one on your part ? 
Should I stand and give you a hug or will your muscles tighten and your face distort at the nearing of my body to yours? 
Will your voice be high and light and full of the energy that says " my life is great, I am happy, I am in control, always in control" 
Will I still hear the quiver at the end of your speech that has never once convinced me that you are truly all of what you claim to be ? 
Or, will I fall for your charade this time, for the first time, because that seat that you may or may not sit in has been dusty for too long. It's been yours since you left although I've never told you. 
I should of but would you have listened? 
Your not the only one with speech prepared for moments like these that screams " I am happier then you and don't you forget it ". 
We are the same you and I, Since 5 years old. The differences are that my speech has never been spoken and I fail to count the amount of times I've heard yours.
Your seat has been saved, your embrace longed for, your smile imagined. 
What separates us is far more then a dusty old seat, and yet if you only sat down, just for a second…

It comes out of nowhere, on a beautiful sunny day.
It creeps up on me silently when I am busy in hectic every day matters.
It dumps itself on me, on grey rainy mornings and follows me out the door and through the crowded streets.
It hides behind my smile, and fights to concur my quivering voice.
I used to be ashamed of it.
I used to be frightened that it would never leave me alone.
Now, I know its a wake up call,
A call to be kinder with myself,
To slow down and breathe more deeply,
Its about knowing how to climb out of the darkness when I cannot see the light.

"And so ...." said the moon to the sun "I need you just as you need me and yet we can never be together for long.
Sometimes in those early mornings, where you rise before I go to sleep I am lucky enough to get a glimpse of your beauty and the way you shine your light.
I always dream of staying, of being with you side by side but even though your beauty is magnificent, I can only exist in its shadows.
I sleep while you shine and while I shine you sleep and when the time comes for you to say goodnight, as the horizon turns from yellow to orange to red and purple you exit the day just as majestically as you entered.
It is my turn now to glow and light up this world, in the way that I know how.
You and me, we are needed" said the moon to the sun as he watched her with wonder and love and the knowledge that one could not exist without the other.

Tired eyes staring at your sleeping face , afraid that when you wake you won't look at me the way you used to.
My tired eyes , filled with silently overflowing tears and the yearning to reach out and touch your porcelain skin.
Eyes , that are witnessing this perfect picture of peace , so beautiful it makes my heart ache , so rare that I dare not reach out and put a hand on the arch of your exposed back, for fear of never seeing again.
My eyes, which never meant harm in witnessing the vulnerability of your soul.
Lesson learned, a secret which I will speak of but only in the privacy of my own mind .
The words on repeat , I love you , I love you , I love you .
You held me last night for the briefest of moments , when your mind forgot and your body remembered .
My eyes opened for one fleeting moment, awake in my sleeping state, long enough for me to recognise the bittersweet significance of the moment .
My eyes,that are now fighting to stay open, to stay focused, to stay present in this moment that, will pass me by if I only dare blink.

Today I am shredding the skin of yesterday, as I move into the new energy of this moment
I feel vulnerable,
Naked
A sea of endless possibilities stretching out in front of me,
Urging me to dive in,
to be Brave enough ,
to step forward in my nakedness,
I want to stand on the mountains towering above my head and shout out the pain that no longer serves me,
But as I sit here in my stillness,
One moment easing softly into the next,
I feel the mountain bow down to meet my vulnerability and the ocean whispering quietly that it will wait.
"Take your time" it says as the tide slowly edges closer to kiss my bare toes.

May life on this earth carry you on its wings through its storm,
May it let you drift on its gentle breeze,
May it nurture you like a mother her child,
May it caress you like a lover holds another,
May it open your eyes to the beauty that is all around,
May it fulfil you, spreading through your body like the warm glow of the sun,
May it be yours, your adventure, your journey of freedom and unforgettable beauty,
May it let you grow, give you roots and allow you to fly,
May it show you how to dance in the rain and swim in the deepest Ocean,
May it let your heart find unconditional love, within itself, within another,
May it give you pure bliss, peaceful moments and an endless song of laugher,
May it be the journey that leaves the most colourful tattoos on your soul.

A day, an hour, this moment.
Nothing is ever the same as it was, nothing will never be the same again.
As the wind blows through the trees, whistling gently, you are swaying with the energy of change.
Evolution is the ticking of time, the seconds as they rhythmically and faithful carry on, no matter what.
As the sun rises, a new day begins, as it sets, it leaves the promise of tomorrow laying softly on your pillow.
Your soul knows the song the world is singing, humming along quietly, even if you cannot hear.
I have seen your fear, but you have no reason to be afraid. You are a second of time that will keep on ticking. You are the wind in the trees, the sun on your pillow.
your soul knows.