I'm afraid of the future, I'm afraid of the past.
I'm afraid that you don't think of me, I'm afraid that I'm on your mind.
I'm afraid that you like her, I'm afraid that you love me.
I'm afraid to be alone, I'm afraid of crowds.
I'm afraid to be happy, I'm afraid to be sad.
I'm afraid of you, I'm afraid of me.

This is what i deal with, all of my anxiety.

Music
Energizing, powerful
Rising, falling, inspiring
Speeding up my heartbeat
Song

Await amongst the clouds searching for whom to be,
I stand here now silently entrenched with what I see,
A vivid gaze I do afford though few and far between,
The slimming wealth of all those helped desperate to reconvene,

I wont pull away yet to find grounded truths I must,
The banks on offer within the vault tears rain through the lust,
I cling to those of faith without the strength for what to give,
Is it wrong to sing along yet forget the words to live.,

I shouldnt resent feelings for arent they me?,
A mistaken representation of my internal sea.

Though the messengers native tongue is without face,
the message is clear "you've fallen from grace".

The sensation avast of our reality,
I relinquish this dependence on sanity.

Please defend me in my cry against man,
And witness my fall into the depths again...

whispers in my ear,
without voices to be clear,
mistaken sounds afar,
I wonder who they are,

Whispers without manner,
Without purpose or valour,
Journeys to end,
Whispers again ...

I seek the sun light and the trickle of the rain,
I am fulfilled through the sweet nectars of fruits and flowers,
I run only from the dark of the night as it calls me into its majestic terrace amongst the stars.

I seek the moons shade and the warmth of a fire,
I am broken down into the depths of my *****,
I run only towards the light in the sky, as it calls me into its majestic terrace amongst the stars.

through earth and fire,
through water and trees,
No perils shall beckon me to my knees,

I seek joy I seek happy I seek light,
I seek nothing less than what is infinite,
and yet without hands I cant grasp it,
and without feet I cant stand still.

Set the table
Bring the food
All the menu
Isn't it nice how we sit here?
Isn't it pretty how we are all together for once?
Seems so
But it is not
Missing seats
For members who are not allowed to come
Or won't come because of past mistakes and disagreements
Smile nicely
Help cleaning up
Cheers
Happy Birthday!
Shouldn't it be a nice day?
Well it should
But memories come up all the time
There shouldn't be a moment of piece
You re not allowed to be completely happy
Its a trap like always
Don't be weak
If you manage after all to come home
You can wait for your one
Although he has its priorities
And you will never be part of them
Even its your birthday
Grab a movie
Inspire yourself
Its about you
Not the others
Happy Birthday to yourself

I am but only a lowly feather
Drifting through life, caught by the wind
Searching for love
That simple affection

I am but a dove
Fragile and weak
Softhearted, kind spirit
One day it will be seen

I am but a swan
Graceful and sweet
I give it my all
My every heart beat

I am but a hummingbird
Large heart beats fast
Looking for love
To numb the pain of the past

He was but only a lonely human
Drifting through life, caught by the lust
Searching for games
Girls to play

He was but a wolf
Looking for sheep
Preying on innocence
Until he would bite too deep

He was but a bear
Liked to eat
Would ask them to cook
So he could sleep

He was but a chameleon
Blending in with each
Making them feel safe
Like the connection was deep

He was but a lion
I was but a lamb
I fell in love with the lion
He fell in love with the lamb
But he bit me
And as I bled
He couldn’t believe what he had did
I confessed my love
He didn’t walk away
But after I died
He found his new game