Carolina

Carolina Jul 2015

I have found the trail that will lead me back to you,
The further I walk, the more hopeful I become.
The heartache I feel to find an end
To realize that it will never fully lead to the gates of your new home.
That I will have to continue,
Searching for that way to be with you.
Once again I'm left to miss you.
I thought I had found the path
To the other side.

#death #lost #hopeful #you #miss #searching #letdown #after

Carolina Jul 2015

Eyes

You can look into her eyes and see the sky
You can look into her eyes and see yourself
Look beyond her eyes and you can see her soul
Look beyond her eyes and see her heart
Look through her eyes and see her pain
Look through her eyes and see her Joy
You can watch her story just by looking into her eyes

#self #life #eyes #pain #story #soul #sky #joy #look

Carolina Jul 2015

Unspoken

blacked out
tears flow

          Pain in her heart
          thoughts racing

                       child screams
                       Mother weeps

                                     Pain leaks
                                     blood falls.
                                                falls.
                                                falls.

she snaps back
frozen in confusion

         cold with dread
         what just happened?

                            looking with sorrow
                            new tears begin to form.

she doesn't understand how
its been all these years.

        why would she now
        for something so small.

                          It all just built up
                          all that small ******* ****.

Until it tore her down.
                            down.
                            down.

#cutting #depression #tears #cry #crying #out #cut #fighting #cutter #blacked

Carolina Jul 2015

Misery

I need to
I want to
I burn for the feeling
I cry to fill this void.
This hole.
The emptiness.
Where emptiness once was a heart.
To feel the steel
In my veins
to smell the rust
flow through my blood.
to watch a river of darkness.
dark
thick
red
blood
fall to my feet
to only watch the darkness creep
following down the lighted tunnel
to step further and further away
once foot at a time
one breath less
to make this last
hear those cries
hear the screams
see the tears
feel the pain
just to feel that steel slice
just to watch the blood fall
to see my skin stain
to end all this pain
please
just take my misery away.

#suicide #cutting #sad #depression #want #desire #death #cry #blood #cut

Carolina Jul 2015

Life As We Know It

Adventure out of your comfort
Live in the moment
Stop to take in
All of natures beauty
Only then will you see
There's more that waits
There's a light at the end
There is hope in every breath
There is time to spare
For life is to short
We never fully appreciate
The world where we live.

#peace #life #world #hope #breath #beauty #stop #down #moment #slow

Carolina Jul 2015

Once

Baby what are we becoming
It just feels like we're always running
Rolling through the motions everyday
I could lean in to hold you, or act like I don't even know you
seems like you could care less either way
What happened to that girl I use to know
Just want to be back to the way we were before.
The giggles the kisses and all the little things that showed.

#love #broken #sad #pain #why #old #died #baby #once

Carolina Jul 2015

Words`

With the right inspiration
I can write the world
I will bring the world to you
If that is what you wish me to do.
I will give you every word and any word
You could imagine with a simple stroke of this pen
But when it comes down to telling you
What it is i feel inside
Dont get your hopes up

I have never been one
to verbally express myself.
I was taught to keep it bottled
to write it on paper
To seal away the pain the joy and the glory.
I know I may not be the best
When it comes to this relationship
but I try like hell I really do...

I couldn't imagine to see you
with anyone else
I Just can never seem to say
what i want out loud
I can have it all perfect in my head
and with this pen
but when it comes out its just all wrong.

I'm sorry I cant be perfect
I'm sorry I get so Agitated

BUT I'm mad at myself
for never saying things right
I'm angered with myself
for not being able to express
I'm furious at myself
for not being able to explain
I'm foolish for not being able
to say the things that needed to be said.

But most of all I cry,
For watching you walk out of my life.

#poetry #words #sad #depression #anger #pain #misunderstood #writing #pen #grief