I wanna give up.

I want to be wanted

I want to be chased

I want to run in circles

I want to make a figure 8

And you get used to it

So when I stop
It'll be unexpected

This arrival, a blessing
We teetered between the dozens of words, spilling forth while only revealing, the few.
A balance between witty banter or that avoidance of awkward

Just breathe
I tell myself again and again
To avoid tilting into over stepping
Whatever, THIS, right now is
I unexpectedly felt a warmth growing in my chest
A smirk of bliss graced my lips

I now remember on this bus ride
I used to look to the sky
see the clouds float by
now I keep my head to the ground
and I've been down
I've been down

I remember I used to keep my head in the clouds
and let my mind roam around
but sooner or later
you can no longer pretend
What's around, whats around
and it gets me down
it gets me down

But I'll still say I love you
I haven't lost hope in life just yet
and may we stay true
to the best that they can see in you
the best that they see in you

I bet if she looked at you in the same way

You'd offer up your heart to her

right out of your ******* chest

Gone are the feelings of yesterday
It really doesn't matter where I stay

Gone are the feelings of yesterday
No longer have to wonder what I will eat

Gone are the feelings of yesterday
But my first taste of love may still hurt me

Gone are the feelings of yesterday
And yet it feels as if I never made it to today

Sometimes your mind's stuck rewind
and play

Just try to grow....

I never look to the sky
I never admire natures wonders
I don't find the sweetness in a baby's laughter
or the reckless abandonment of fun with mans best friend
I sleep to this vision
I wake to it
I live to see it, while my breath is held
I yearn for it

Oh how much can the heart give?

How much can I express, before I no longer live?

Do you know how precious it is?

Oh my dove, the love I now have for your smile, my dear

Ive finally looked at the sky

Ive always wondered if I said it because it was said
"that's what you should say"

Sometimes I wonder if I really believed I would never change
when at the time, I didn't want to stay the same

I never noticed never noticed never
never noticed ever
I wish id known this wish I'd known this wish I'd known

On second thought
ignore all that I just said
I've caught Peter Parker fever
swimming through her air again

I'm not so sure of the end
But I vividly remember where it began
I knew of nothing
And then,you were there

....I'm...in...my....
Head

They say home is where the heart is
So I'm homeless, so I'm homeless
And they say don't think about it
But I'm broken, but I'm broken

Viewing from another angle
Trying to catch what I've missed
I need a friend
These thorns won't *****

And I'm back in my head.....

They say home is where the heart is
So I'm homeless, so I'm homeless
And they say don't think about it
But I'm broken, but I'm broken

Oh,what did I do...

Went to the doctor
For what I can't heal
Went to the carpenter
For what I can't build
Went to the church
For what prayer couldn't despell

I'm in my head.....again
This nightmare won't end
End of a sweet dream
As reality sets in.....

I don't feel as stable
as I make it out to be
I don't feel as solid
as I pretend to be
sometimes it feels like
just one word, one look, one touch
could break me
into a million pieces
and the thought of that
also feels me with an odd sense of peace
I already feel like a puzzle thats missing a piece
I'd pray to a god on me knees
if there was ever a sign to make me believe
that all this wasn't wishful thinking
Just hopeful make believe

Stripped down to the most basic of actions
Can my lips carry my every feeling
needs and wishes
Would you get all of that with just a kiss

If love was an ocean
then my tides just come in
and I'm just killing time
thinking of ways to make you mine....

And maybe I, maybe I could never love you the same
maybe it'd be a mistake to try again
but there's more to this
but there's more to this

If love was the moon
then it's just been eclipsed
and I'm just wasting time
thinking of ways to get you off my mind...

Without anchors, I'm swimming till I'm dying
well that doesn't make much sense
unless you could feel the way I'm feeling

And if love was a wrist
I've just reached the bone
and I'm just killing time
thinking of ways to go on....

I'll be crawling into so many holes
looking for a place to call home
still nothing is the same
as when I was in your space

And if love was a heart
yours is so far gone
and I'm just wasting time
thinking of ways, thinking of ways
to be rid of mine

Hey why don't you come this way
Don't mind the mess in my room
It's only to match the state of my head

Disarray feels like home to me
My life's a mess
And it feels like home to me

You can come a little closer
I won't bite, unless that's what you want
And it's on your mind
kinda like mine

How long have I been dead
It's a little sad how I desire this dance
How long have I been empty
It's a little sad how you're here with me

Can't you see I'm searching for my purpose
I'm a lost cause

Just a little chaos
I noticed I'm looking for a bit of fun
and oh so many will run
they don't get you
Although in a way I do

The mind is a storm
of feelings and words
I'm a captain braving the storm
they told me it's not worth it

And maybe it isn't
but I just want a bit of fun

I've stared into the abyss
for so many years
it took refuge in my heart

My mind faces a battle that's timeless
its hard to face a foe
that looks out at you

from within

I laugh
I laugh until I feel
I won't break anymore
And then I laugh some more.

Those whispered words flow
out into the atmosphere
when you speak
Fading
spoken as a truth
that was never ever here

You're okay
You're okay
How many times
have I heard
that

How long will it be till you realize
I never once believed in the lie you'd tell

I've seen enough of this place
all I want is home
I am done debating theories
of heaven
so tired of this hell
some hope has kept me waiting
it's time to break it's spell

Unless, you sing your song again
how many times have I come around after listening to your sound...?

It's been going on for a decade now.

I don't speak about it
but it's there
A little darkness that I'd rather not share

I don't like it
but you know
it's been living with me for so long

Little darkness why don't you go
I don't wanna live with you any more
Little darkness why can't you go
it might make me feel like I'll make it home

I wanna smile
I wanna smile
I wanna feel good for a little while
I wanna smile
I wanna smile
I wanna feel alright for a little while

Every single day
A life fades away
And every time I read an article
I wonder if one day someone will read my name.

Not a thing written in months
my muse has left me
like a scent in the wind
something simply sweet
has abandoned me

In my lonesome, I hear whispered lines and words
but as I turn to hear these lovely things they flee, escaping me
Woe is me, woe is me

Alone with simply sweet fleeing things

My soul weeps

Maybe if you knew
How this mind works
Like I do

Maybe you'd run for the hills
and maybe you'd engage for the thrills
Maybe.... Only if you knew

Until my face eased back
from the form of a smile
due to a memory
of you.
I never would have believed
it could happen,
even if you told me.

Lay awake and sing along to the songs you like to sing
Hit repeat

Feel a sting, unexpectedly
Which it makes you think
about how such a beautiful thing
fell and crumbled at your feet

Looking in a mirror
I can only blame the one looking back at me
I need to sleep, I need to sleep
But Im too scared
to dream

I don't wish to have you back
Only to feel that same lightheartedness, without the weight of the world on my shoulders
because someone special
was
just
here

Numerous things
It isn't like I can list them as they come to me
Just picking one thing is like picking specific strands
out of a bundle of hay
You are the way
You are the way
You are the way
I pictured love to be