In the car somewhere between all the laughter and singing,
it happened.

Everything changed.

He went from being a face in the crowd to a one man show.

The spotlights are all on him.

From a known friend to a familiar stranger.

One who makes me so nervous I can't stand it.

I no longer see the same person, his appearance is different.

I can't pretend anymore.

It's still fun and games,
but this underlying tension..

The too long gazes, sweaty palms and shaky words.

Heart's beating out my chest by hearing his name.

Seeing him makes my legs weak.

Acting like nothing around him is a challenge.

Yet I long for the next time.

All I can think about is you with her, are you with her?
That beautiful girl you've found..

Do you kiss her the way you kissed me?
Like the world was about to end..

Is she kissing your neck, inhaling your smell?
Just like I did..

Are you touching her the way you touched me?
Like your hands would catch fire if you didn't..

Do you have that spark in your eyes once again?
The one that made me fall for you so hard..

Are you promising her the future?
Like you did with me..

Are you building a kingdom?
The one we were supposed to..

I've been shot by a hundred bullets.
I've been kicked to the ground.
Left to bleed out.

But I've been in training.

I can hear your bullets from miles away.
Kick me and I'll kick harder.
Try to knock me down and I'll knock you out.

There's nothing left to bleed.

I was forgetting you.

But no, you wouldn't let me do that this time either.

Who would you be if I forgot about your existence?

No one. You're turning desperate.

Showing up to see if you can still play me.

The answer is No.

Parasites are meant to go extinct.

Don't let the guard down, don't let the guard down.

I'm already standing too close to the fire.

I can feel the heat and yet l can't back away.

What if it's not meant to burn me?

Frozen to the ground I stand, waiting.

Hoping the flames aren't meant for me.

You saw me.

I felt so exposed in your eyes.

You laughed, I saw that cute dimple and I felt myself falling.

Deeper and deeper with every heartbeat.

Rain was pouring as we ran, drunk and happy after a night out.

We layed close, so close.

Time passed, and yet it didn't.

It was just us, falling in and out of sleep in each others arms.

I looked into your blue eyes and I knew.

This is it, this is what I want.

I want you.

I heard your voice, and i heard home.

We speak the same language, a language no one else would understand.

Raised on the same streets, in different cities.

We just look at each other and smile.

In our chaotic world we've found peace.

Knowing we are home.