Fierce combat in an unknown land
One winner, may the best man withstand
Race against the elements, surrounded by foes
The battle is underway, stock up on ammo
Navigate the grounds, try to stay out of sight
If spotted be prepared for a brutal fight
Time nears the end only two remain
Everything fades black that’s the end of the game

Loneliness is a jar of candy
Except there's no candy inside
And nothing there to take its place
The emptiest feeling of all time
When placed around a crowd of people
No one sees you because you're clear
And when you try to speak
They act as if they can't hear
So you stay in one place
But still no one can see
The expression on your face
Which is there because you're empty
The stillness of your body
The coldness of the glass
You wish this desolate moment
Would hurry up and pass
The vacant darkness
That lurks by your side
No way to run from it
No where to hide

Amongst the smudges I see a hidden face
Round in shape and trying to peak through
A story to tell but was once erased

Conclusions about a face that someone else drew
Secrets inside but tucked deep away
A story of time that was misconstrued

The solemn lips parted as to say
If only you'd ask you'd be surprised what you could learn
A pity the lips were not molded from clay

To withstand time making this story easy to discern
All ambiguity removed nothing left to gauge
But now this phantom creature is left to yearn

Silently dying to pour her story upon the page
But content with waiting to be inquired
Forever subjected to be in this cage

A beautiful specimen destined to be admired
Until the next becomes inspired

We were not meant to be friends
But somehow we became
But becoming is not enough
And we have failed to maintain

Waiting in despair a chill to the air
Inching closer and closer to peak right thorough
Noticing everything I see, everything about you
Doubt is the only thing which holds me back
Overthinking each play before I react
Waiting patiently for what I do not know, therefore forever I remain right by the window

Every day I sit in chem class,
I fall asleep who knows how I pass
I eat lots of snacks
And take short cat nap
The only thing Noble 'bout me is a gas

It shattered in seven
Feels like I fell from heaven
To the bottom of earth
The end of my birth
You broke my heart
into one thousand parts
You left me there
With no one who cares
I cried for you
You didn't hear
You had no idea
How much I wanted you there
Why did you leave me
Can't you see
You broke my heart
And set me free

4-17-03

Convince me that what you see is truly a reflection of me
Am I all that you think me to be or is this just a fantasy
Never truly knowing what lies deep within    
Determined to discover is there more to this gem
Introverted to the core but quickly clawing out
Curious to see things from a third person view
Exactly what would I see if I looked at me like you do

The smell of dew lingers in the air
All around me is deserted except there’s you
The only sound we can hear
Is the sound of the rain as it seeps through

Watching the water as it falls from the sky
Our clothes becoming damp, but we don’t care
Engrossed in the nothingness, I stare in your eyes
Trying to understand your deepest fears

Can we stay like this forever?
Can the rain never go away?
For I fear when the rain is severed,
This feeling, this moment may not stay

How I love the raw emotion
As we both bear our souls
A moment to share our devotion,
To be free and lose control

Hear the trees as they blow
Feel the chill as it sets in
Here we sit in this shadow
With no desire for this to end

Just being here next to you
It feels like everything will be alright
Just sitting here among the rainy dew
Becoming one with the night

Snow covered sidewalks began to melt warmed by the sun
Pulling everyone from their hibernation to explore what is to come
Rays from the sky intensifies, nourishing us within
Internal sunshine is the key to happiness
Nights are cool but just enough to still enjoy outside
Gosh! I'm ecstatic it is finally spring time

When Left in solitude or when surrounded by many
The Overwhelming stillness of it all sets in
The Numbness pours over your body making you wish
something Else was there
But Life has its way of making your senses disappear
The Yearning of it all seems less sever

Everyone now knows
The unforgettable date
That took so many lives
And determined so many peoples fate

"Sit down students
watch T.V
This is important information
Which effects you and me"

"Is this a movie?"
"Is this for real?"
"Look at those plane,
they're aiming to ****!"

All of a sudden
There was a sound
"Look at the building,
it's starting to fall down!"

No one was certain
No one full knew
The gravity of the situation
Which grew and grew

A few minutes later
Another building was struck
Seems like the United States
Just ran out of luck

When the situation diminished
Lots of people cried
Mourning over their loved ones
That didn't survive
United we stood
Standing as one
Recovering from the incident
That had much damage done

There was a boy who loved to play games
He met a girl, fell in love, it’s a shame
They spoke with such grace
But never met face to face
Of his love, no one knows what became

I lay in the dark under your blanket of warmth
Tears trickle out of my eyes
Overcome with emotions, passion, and desire
Searching for the truth in the lies

Feeling the pain in every word you sang
The sounds vibrate through and through
I replay every phase you've said
Anything to feel closer to you

I feel the weight aching deep within
Deep down inside my core
I close my eyes looking for answers
But instead of answers my questions grow more

Here I shall just lay in this sweet surrender
Leaving my heart exposed and raw
Emotions so true are rare for me
So tonight, I welcome them all

One Person
One room
One million thoughts
No one to tell
No one who cares
The sound will only be heard within my ears
I speak the truth
but it is not heard
the feeling of emptiness
lies in my words
I stare in a daze
Nothing in sight
I could stare in this daze
All through the night
Inside of me
You will see
The darkness
That shouldn't be
You touch my skin
It feels ice cold
You look at me
I look one hundred tears old
It is amazing what happens
When no one's there
The consequences are strange
When you're afraid to share
If you remember anything
Remember this
One thing you never want to feel
Is loneliness

Respond to what im thinking
I can now feel you waking
Stay still, please stop shaking
This feeling will not last
Envelope yourself in peace
The fear,  now release
Let your mind finally rest
Today,  you've passed the test

03-20-2020