Drowned in frustration
Aggressive, contagious
A single thought lights up my flame
I rip off these tears
Involuntary impatience
Shaking, I succumb to my rage

Broken sensations
Ferocious and anxious
Any moment can ignite every pain
I let out a scream
As these mad hallucinations
Push me right back into this cage

I disguise well

An angelic whisper, black wings unfold
Malevolent under a violent spell

As I reveal my true nature to control

My sanctuary, this world of written words
On my tongue, a serrated blade, but
Never could I have the luxurious pressure
So laced with poison every move I make
These three words in disarray
End every attempt to stay, so I
Run so faraway

I deny that I am another one of this life's broken victims
But I am mildly catatonic, and so painfully aware
Of these cyclic, periodic, contrasting symptoms
That leave me alone with psychotic intentions
And gasping for air

As the fire within rages on, self decimation uncontrolled
My body shudders with released tension as my true colors unfold
Reminding me of unanswered questions and horror stories I hold
Will I blossom or blow up in this growing blackhole I've come to call home

I've decided to unleash what is now fully grown
A hushed monster I've hidden so well
No longer able to fight against its hunger
A creature unwell, deep under the icy gaze of a strengthening spell
Through to the underground beneath the grains of hell I let go of my old self
Exposed, I watch as the last mask shatters, rapidly decays
Finally awakened, I can hear the screams of my captured, fractured heart
And the crackle of a familiar flame
I turn to face it, and it was then I knew from the start
That this time there would be no chance of this chaotic trance
Fading away
Or falling apart

Overcome by my own honesty
Ravenous, I am the fire that is starving
This vicious release, an undeniable greed
To burn every wall that had been guarding
This sweet destruction from renewing me

A chaos of rupturing desires in every direction
Once so invisible...I was the quiet, silent wind
But in this moment I'm an ocean of seven wicked emotions
Now bending to the whim of my hunger for him

In sporadic, spectacular fashion
I will not deny this feral passion
With a single glance at my burning reflection
I've shattered the illusion of a missing connection

Satiated is my soul, awake, alive
I come forward with my eyes alight
This moment here was perfectly timed
With the sunshine reflecting full tonight

I follow the moon, the stars, the sea
Wave upon wave breathes life into me
The balance of far lands and dreams
I was once the wolf who took the leap
A guardian of cosmic mystery

Into waters bright and clear
Such transformation happens here
Now I know the truth, in tears
Gaia loves all starseeds dear

A seed was planted, this I know
For the moon once told me so
In its attempt to fight the sun
But now they are forever one

Let the flow continue now
I heed the call, I hear the sound
Awaken before our light goes out
There is no room for doubt

Drop your worries, release your sighs
From your heart, this special night
I'll race you to the end of time
And howl now, our wilds' cry

Watch our soul spread out, spread wide
Now my sweet one, be alive
One last breath and now we dive
Into the deep, we glide, we rise

Becoming part of an eternal tide
And so she whispered to the sky
A wish so deep, so sweet, so kind
"I will still be yours...
If you will be mine"

I am the illuminated one
The light at the end of this road
I am the inspired one
Holding tightly to truths that are whole
I am the strong river flow
Unleashing my power, and when the wind blows
I am the unstoppable one
The chaotic whirlwind bringing changes unknown
I am the loving one
Reminding those who fear to let it all go
I am the understanding one
Whispering secrets to those that are closed
That they are the only ones
Who can stop these old growths
From swallowing their hearts whole
I am the one
The messenger holding your wishes close
Defending our right to grow
I am a soul
A complete part of the whole
I am the ancient warrior of old
Reminding our foes
You are the awakening one
As their illusion comes to a close

Consumed by the diversity of one infinite reason to live
She's under the wave of a thousand pains, but the desire to breathe, it's
So much stronger than the need to no longer be, and then suddenly
All at once she's on fire, flying higher, one breathing, eclectic queen
Everything her eyes fall upon is healing, and becoming something
Her wings spread as her beliefs begin to mend, and the future once again becomes promising
This world is continuing to fall apart and she's growing through its heart
But the moment she blossoms will be the day our universe restarts
To continue to expand your horizon, you only have to be honest
Open and caring, loving and daring, let your passions fly and find solace
In the chaos of time and space, there is hidden poetry here and she hopes someday they will find wholeness.

Some of us learn the first time
And some learn by frequent repetition
So what I would like to find
Are more tolerant participants
That are willing to be consistent
When conversing with a mind
That is needing patient assistance
And with a little extra time
We can eliminate resistance
And as one, realign
With our unified mission

There are miracles happening right before our eyes
Small ones, teeny ones, they come in every size
And they are not to be passed off as nothing!

Like when your soulmate saw you for the first time
And made you believe in love at first sight
Or how butterflies deep within you took flight
When that car raced past, right through a stoplight
Barely missing you because a plane made you look up at the sky
And your clouded mind wakes up for half a second to say, hey!
What WAS that? Coincidence? Fate? Wait!
But then you are habitually convinced you're just lucky and continue to wade
Through crowds of no one, and you have forgotten to realize
How a miracle from the sky, literally, just passed you by
And you didn't even wave.

And how time is an illusion at best
Because when your excitement is at its highest
It's like it doesn't actually exist
Not even for one second
Understand that living fully in the present
Is your only real option
The rest is pure ignorance you are responsible for
I know it's mostly caution
Your heart has been torn by equally closed minds who wished they could see how you so enjoy playing with light
They scolded you for being too interested in the small things, in life
Like it's some sort of crime to be in love with colors at night.

We know lightning is just static and so suddenly it's not supposed to be interesting
Because we can explain it away, we consider it nothing
This is so sad I would cry... if I wasn't so happy
Thinking about how beautiful lightning is
Do you follow me?

Realize that nothing is what it seems until your narrow realities and your suspended belief in impossibilities can finally collide
And run down the side of your subconscious mind
Pooling around you into one big puddle of life
Made of the magical, the unexplainable, and this may seem unrelateable...
But go look in the mirror at the spectacle
That is you
A stand alone miracle.

Diamond blue dancer
Spinning faster and faster
Creating a whirlwind of love in your wake
Diamond blue dancer
Becoming a master
Of every moment you choose to create