Try to explain a rhyme
To someone that can't hear

I tasted you,
but then I came to the realization
that paying for my demise
made me
a poor* ******* idiot.

type a poem
hit delete

try again
on repeat

final one
til defeat

posted it
uncomplete ...

a flower needs
sunshine
to survive
maybe some
water
to stay alive
add some fresh
air
she can thrive

a flower knows
where
she should go
and in due
time
she will grow
but do not
worry
time goes slow

a flower learns
who
she's meant to be
but still she
knows
its not easy
to live a
life
but only breathe

A moment of insanity
became the death
of everything I am

i thought safety and happiness came hand in hand
but turns out sanity still isn't my friend

maybe it’s the drugs
maybe it’s just how I feel

which is worse?
no-one or everyone
understanding
how it feels

I think that I am blessed with life.
This morning I woke up warm and safe,
with a kind man next to me to kiss on the face.

I have been granted the ability to work.
I have a welcoming space to earn a living,
with a wonderful boss who is kind and giving.

I still have the privilege to text my mother.
She is a sweet woman with a kind heart -
loves who I am even though our beliefs sometimes part.

But today I woke up and my heart still feels heavy.
I feel unworthy of this body I've been given,
and my mind overworks without my permission.

Depression does not care about my positive days.
Even though I am blessed I struggle with pain,
and constantly still I fight with this dreadful brain.

But day after day I will never give up.
For too many people are counting on me,
and encouraging that one day I shall be free.

So *******, Depression!
Today I woke up and continued to breathe
and while sometimes it's hard I have faith in me.

sunshine blinded me

and my words
v a n i s h e d
like that august air

To live
Oh, to live
is to be so afraid to die.

I’ve lost a part of me,
but I can’t remember why.

Past, present, future;
they’re all the same.

One more year,
same old game.

I still don’t know how
to express

This ever constant,
beating in my chest

A dark grey pulse

My heart
crossfaded with
love and loneliness

this body was build with autopilot,
so guess i'm worth more then I thought

How am I supposed to plan a future?
When, I don't even know
who the **** I am today.

It's hard to pause thoughts twirling
when lady earth just keeps on swirling.
Try to keep my head in the air,
but if I fall,
why should she care?

or does she just
feel their cry?

Never could ask
them why.

Just wait around
to dry.

Maybe next time,
she'll say
high.

today I feel like finding a bridge
and ending it all
blaring angry lyrics
scream "*******" as I fall

but in the silence
I find peace
and in the distance
we've felt release

in your bed
the sweetest of sleep
in your arms
the truest of peace
close my eyes
hear, please dream of me
darling,...
*I always do

Please don't take it
from me,
I have nothing else.
I simply need you to
acknowledge my existence.

(Happy) For a minute
(Sad) For a while
(Lonely) Till someone's near
(Depressed) Fake a smile
(Hyper) All has past
(Angry) Don't know why
(Void) I don't know
(Anxious) Time to cry
(Happy) Feeling better
(Mad) Maybe not
(Exited)Here we go
(Empty) Time to stop

I'm an angel in disguise
You just can't see past
The broken wings

HELP WANTED
Looking for a better weapon to fight this vulnerability

Please forgive my silence.

I don't know where to start.

My voice cannot project
the volume of my heart.

I tried to be as real as I could but,
somehow as I look around
My only friends are empty dolls with happy faces.
I'm just a girl
with nothing but plastic and
imaginary loves.
No better off then my little sister,
I hope never grows up.

~
s o f t stream
into
raging river
~~~
Is there
purpose
in
your path
?