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"lamplit" poems
Corruption and Seduction, twins living in discordant harmony. Firstly, Corruption lives in a crowded home, in the lamplit living rooms and in the starched collars and sore legged dining halls.         Seduction lives in the attic, and ghosts from room to room, leaning on others as it passes, like an injured soldier.              Guiding into places seldom spoken of and rarely trod. She asked him how he could change his mind so quickly. I think his mind was never made in the first place. Be it Corruption or Seduction, they live as synonyms and antonyms. A promise broken, words thrown aside or forgotten, a trust crumbling to dust. Credit this, not to one or the other, but to both, working for each other to accomplish the objectives laid at their feet by the gods. Moments of weakness, burdened with fear and doubt, belong to this indecent pair.          Scoffed by most, yet intimately known to all, Corruption and Seduction manipulate and corrugate.
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Jun 11, 2018
Jun 11, 2018 at 1:23 PM UTC
Corruption and Seduction
Lines of coal take form, again and again, on this coldbound evening as blackened fingers and wear reveal prints typically unseen. Beautiful and unique and hurricane lightning tattooed yellowed paper. It was untouched, like the charcoal, for ages as it sat in the corner underneath the easel gathering dust and cobwebs. It seems that the spiders have had a plentiful harvest this autumn, what a shame to rid them of their feast this month. It'll be winter soon and they're going to need it. What creation is permissible by destruction? Any? None? Can I make up for it, I promise: I'll draw them a web and weave you into it. You and I and They: we'll all feast. We on Art and they on flesh. They'll never miss those material pleasures ever again. They'll never need to build or wait or **** or eat. We'll never need to either, not after this, this momentous occasion of focus and dedication when my arms and lamplit desk burn from satisfaction and our faces grimace at the completion of something so wonderful, on paper.
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Nov 1, 2012
Nov 1, 2012 at 10:44 PM UTC
On Creating Spiderwebs
The poet sits in lamplit gloom alone in ebb and flow how strange it seems to write of love but never feel it's glow A sigh, a lie, a broken heart, a kiss on untouched skin yet still this writers heart it sits uncharted deep within. The poet sits in lamplit gloom and stares at paper bare, then puts to it her broken heart and leaves it bleeding there.
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Jun 11, 2014
Jun 11, 2014 at 3:43 PM UTC
Lamplight
We the gentle Are meant for Sentimental For charcoal pencil thumb-smudged skies Over lamplit rented rooms on the Seine Moonlight gauzey glamoured eyes Grimy hands that write paint spin, throw clay, that grab our grandfather’s violin at all hours of the day and play. Mad with passion, starving, raving, gorged on lush love-struck life abundant, on rain-slicked splendor. We the gentle Bend toward each other in salvation as sunflowers turn inward in the absence of sunlight. Salvation. It’s all wrong We do not belong do not belong. Bloodletting stardust into the vents Hearts rent and free bleeding Feeding the over fed No page or paint, no violin No romance, no gods here But Death and Dread. We the gentle Get no roses but see red red red with arms outstretched, Fighting the tide Soft bodies open minds Not weak but kind Once fruit, now rind We aren’t meant for these times. Clear eyed and noncompliant, We who know the essence of Love Defiant, Truth in muck, truth in starlight, We feel the press on all ******* sides To run, to hide And instead sing, paint, play Write.
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Sep 17, 2025
Sep 17, 2025 at 7:31 AM UTC
Defiant
Snow falls. The sky is grey, and sullenly glares With purple lights in the canyoned street. The fiery sign on the dark tower wreathes and flares . . . The trodden grass in the park is covered with white, The streets grow silent beneath our feet . . . The city dreams, it forgets its past to-night. And one, from his high bright window looking down Over the enchanted whiteness of the town, Seeing through whirls of white the vague grey towers, Desires like this to forget what will not pass, The littered papers, the dust, the tarnished grass, Grey death, stale ugliness, and sodden hours. Deep in his heart old bells are beaten again, Slurred bells of grief and pain, Dull echoes of hideous times and poisonous places. He desires to drown in a cold white peace of snow. He desires to forget a million faces . . . In one room breathes a woman who dies of hunger. The clock ticks slowly and stops. And no one winds it. In one room fade grey violets in a vase. Snow flakes faintly hiss and melt on the window. In one room, minute by minute, the flutist plays The lamplit page of music, the tireless scales. His hands are trembling, his short breath fails. In one room, silently, lover looks upon lover, And thinks the air is fire. The drunkard swears and touches the harlot's heartstrings With the sudden hand of desire. And one goes late in the streets, and thinks of ****** And one lies staring, and thinks of death. And one, who has suffered, clenches her hands despairing, And holds her breath . . . Who are all these, who flow in the veins of the city, Coil and revolve and dream, Vanish or gleam? Some mount up to the brain and flower in fire. Some are destroyed; some die; some slowly stream. And the new are born who desire to destroy the old; And fires are kindled and quenched; and dreams are broken, And walls flung down . . . And the slow night whirls in snow over towers of dreamers, And whiteness hushes the town.
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The House Of Dust: Part 02: 11: Snow Falls. The Sky Is Grey, And Sullenly Glares
Snow falls. The sky is grey, and sullenly glares With purple lights in the canyoned street. The fiery sign on the dark tower wreathes and flares . . . The trodden grass in the park is covered with white, The streets grow silent beneath our feet . . . The city dreams, it forgets its past to-night. And one, from his high bright window looking down Over the enchanted whiteness of the town, Seeing through whirls of white the vague grey towers, Desires like this to forget what will not pass, The littered papers, the dust, the tarnished grass, Grey death, stale ugliness, and sodden hours. Deep in his heart old bells are beaten again, Slurred bells of grief and pain, Dull echoes of hideous times and poisonous places. He desires to drown in a cold white peace of snow. He desires to forget a million faces . . . In one room breathes a woman who dies of hunger. The clock ticks slowly and stops. And no one winds it. In one room fade grey violets in a vase. Snow flakes faintly hiss and melt on the window. In one room, minute by minute, the flutist plays The lamplit page of music, the tireless scales. His hands are trembling, his short breath fails. In one room, silently, lover looks upon lover, And thinks the air is fire. The drunkard swears and touches the harlot's heartstrings With the sudden hand of desire. And one goes late in the streets, and thinks of ****** And one lies staring, and thinks of death. And one, who has suffered, clenches her hands despairing, And holds her breath . . . Who are all these, who flow in the veins of the city, Coil and revolve and dream, Vanish or gleam? Some mount up to the brain and flower in fire. Some are destroyed; some die; some slowly stream. And the new are born who desire to destroy the old; And fires are kindled and quenched; and dreams are broken, And walls flung down . . . And the slow night whirls in snow over towers of dreamers, And whiteness hushes the town.
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A forward rush by the lamp in the gloom, And we clasped, and almost kissed; But she was not the woman whom I had promised to meet in the thawing brume On that harbour-bridge; nor was I he of her tryst. So loosening from me swift she said: “O why, why feign to be The one I had meant—to whom I have sped To fly with, being so sorrily wed,” ’Twas thus and thus that she upbraided me. My assignation had struck upon Some others’ like it, I found. And her lover rose on the night anon; And then her husband entered on The lamplit, snowflaked, sloppiness around. “Take her and welcome, man!” he cried: “I wash my hands of her. I’ll find me twice as good a bride!” —All this to me, whom he had eyed, Plainly, as his wife’s planned deliverer. And next the lover: “Little I knew, Madam, you had a third! Kissing here in my very view!” —Husband and lover then withdrew. I let them; and I told them not they erred. Why not? Well, there faced she and I— Two strangers who’d kissed, or near, Chancewise. To see stand weeping by A woman once embraced, will try The tension of a man the most austere. So it began; and I was young, She pretty, by the lamp, As flakes came waltzing down among The waves of her clinging hair, that hung Heavily on her temples, dark and damp. And there alone still stood we two; She once cast off for me, Or so it seemed: while night ondrew, Forcing a parley what should do We twain hearts caught in one catastrophe. In stranded souls a common strait Wakes latencies unknown, Whose impulse may precipitate A life-long leap. The hour was late, And there was the Jersey boat with its funnel agroan. “Is wary walking worth much pother?” It grunted, as still it stayed. “One pairing is as good as another Where is all venture! Take each other, And scrap the oaths that you have aforetime made.” —Of the four involved there walks but one On earth at this late day. And what of the chapter so begun? In that odd complex what was done? Well; happiness comes in full to none: Let peace lie on lulled lips: I will not say.
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The Contretemps
A forward rush by the lamp in the gloom, And we clasped, and almost kissed; But she was not the woman whom I had promised to meet in the thawing brume On that harbour-bridge; nor was I he of her tryst. So loosening from me swift she said: “O why, why feign to be The one I had meant—to whom I have sped To fly with, being so sorrily wed,” ’Twas thus and thus that she upbraided me. My assignation had struck upon Some others’ like it, I found. And her lover rose on the night anon; And then her husband entered on The lamplit, snowflaked, sloppiness around. “Take her and welcome, man!” he cried: “I wash my hands of her. I’ll find me twice as good a bride!” —All this to me, whom he had eyed, Plainly, as his wife’s planned deliverer. And next the lover: “Little I knew, Madam, you had a third! Kissing here in my very view!” —Husband and lover then withdrew. I let them; and I told them not they erred. Why not? Well, there faced she and I— Two strangers who’d kissed, or near, Chancewise. To see stand weeping by A woman once embraced, will try The tension of a man the most austere. So it began; and I was young, She pretty, by the lamp, As flakes came waltzing down among The waves of her clinging hair, that hung Heavily on her temples, dark and damp. And there alone still stood we two; She once cast off for me, Or so it seemed: while night ondrew, Forcing a parley what should do We twain hearts caught in one catastrophe. In stranded souls a common strait Wakes latencies unknown, Whose impulse may precipitate A life-long leap. The hour was late, And there was the Jersey boat with its funnel agroan. “Is wary walking worth much pother?” It grunted, as still it stayed. “One pairing is as good as another Where is all venture! Take each other, And scrap the oaths that you have aforetime made.” —Of the four involved there walks but one On earth at this late day. And what of the chapter so begun? In that odd complex what was done? Well; happiness comes in full to none: Let peace lie on lulled lips: I will not say.
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Nights like this Nights like shining starbursts in black abyss When sweaty palms arise not from fear But butterflies ten thousandfold And the taste of her lips on yours on a lamplit January road Still lingers come daybreak Those are the nights I stick around for
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Jan 11, 2015
Jan 11, 2015 at 12:59 PM UTC
Spark
SHY indecision moves- pulling waves unfurling her- mute under slow drift- she considers coy eyes or none at all DISTRACTIONS multiple kinds of rush to keep steady– multiple rushes to make numb– multiples fractioned attention– all this to feel it fit to breathe– to feel fit for getting– ONE STEP AHEAD in its own language her visage stills- softens the gaze full unto his need YOU FIRST the inclination–his yearning–sparked and executed en pointe sa vie–précise– BLUSH of dropping knives– the delicacy– reminding her of uncertainty pending smiles  cheekbones raised– his and hers– A GOOD DAY maidened features spool delicate rhythms evoke love songs from her palate and her face– he paints it–   dressed in light– PURSUIT his attempt–this requires heart– rewires nerves- creates a caution and her lamplit orbs- doe-like- stirring in vein– VIBE across heads are more heads under sense-arrest but just two pairs of eyes connecting brown to black  throughout entwining want-threads– the myriad–oblivation– GUILTY upon her neck thoughts exhale upon the choleric- suddenly the sanguine- upon a thought– her neck– one– two– many–
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Nov 21, 2011
Nov 21, 2011 at 1:05 PM UTC
Love Lights
Books to the library photos to family. Paint cans and lumber from renovations years ago. Most of the furniture including the piano. Fastest way to do this is rent a dumpster. On the internet nothing’s permanent. I like that. Photosynthesis, evaporation as if your spirit disappears when the sun appears. It’s a burden lifted not to have to persevere. Edits for clarity and brevity. One owes the reader a respite from the tonnage of fructifying English. To drown one’s book is devoutly to be wished. Coupla trumpets, big comfy couch, four beds and dressers and the contents of closets. Tools we don’t use, surge protectors and chargers, lawn and patio accoutrements, table settings for ten. Lamplit underground, the stray branch, synchronized chaos, a red fez. One canary, map of Antarctica, three deaf little otoliths, six or seven sybils. Extra salt and pepper shakers, sharpies and crayons, a printer and a scanner, the Bible and Koran. Kaput calculators and computers, subscriptions and prescriptions, a host of vitamins and the ghosts of ancestors. Time itself but not nature. Wealth and most of culture but not my health. That I’ll keep, and sleep—practice for perfect rest.
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Mar 19, 2024
Mar 19, 2024 at 6:54 AM UTC
Gotta Go
As I walked through the lamplit gardens, On the thin white crust of snow, So intensely was I thinking of my misfortune, So clearly were my eyes fixed On the face of this grief which has come to me, That I did not notice the beautiful pale colouring Of lamplight on the snow; Nor the interlaced long blue shadows of trees; And yet these things were there, And the white lamps, and the orange lamps, and the lamps of lilac were there, As I have seen them so often before; As they will be so often again Long after my grief is forgotten. And still, though I know this, and say this, it cannot console me.
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Improvisations: Light And Snow: 11
I can’t draw you with words, but the color of your eyes can be aptly describes with the hues of cornflower and Persian blue. The sketches of your laughter cannot be drawn or seen, but the drawers in my head can be pulled out and see, your smile repeats itself! Time spent with you will fly away in the wind but by the lamplit flow of words my minutes spent on you will stick to these pages and dry into constantly blooming memories. So my dear, even when you’re far away bent over the nuances of a fishing hook, this little notebook will hold the scraps of time I’ve kept pressed inside preserving the moments like cats in formaldehyde.
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Mar 27, 2015
Mar 27, 2015 at 11:17 PM UTC
The Smoothie Ruiner
il colosseo roma in leather-scented dusk grips the night, marble hand on woman's thigh; these evening breaths are half-lit by awning lights and candle-flame laughter. waiters serve wanderers searching for home under the light of the half-moon – they don't tell us that these shores have too much mystery for us. some homelands are sun-steeped histories cradling darling secrets between ancient bricks, ancient tombs.   the amalfi coast whispers seashell lullabies to the old-souled man plying whiskers of melodies out of his tin-flute, traipsing in a pit-patter down the sandy road leading to the ocean beach. he watches drowsy-eyed windows blink pulses on the beach – they caress us to sleep in lulls and crescents.   the florentine memories are all mine - bacchan dreams; how you turned my head away from the window, wrapped me in whiteness like newborn's skin. you, the child of a mountain spring where gods were born - the softness in your neck betrays this to the doves. heartbeat an adagio in old italy, heather scent stirring the air like eye of newt in witches' brew. love, your body like a holy city – lamplit streets between dusk and dawn leave little to the wishes of the heart.
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Jan 23, 2017
Jan 23, 2017 at 7:51 PM UTC
l'italia
Up high black walls, up sombre terraces, Clinging like luminous birds to the sides of cliffs, The yellow lights went climbing towards the sky. From high black walls, gleaming vaguely with rain, Each yellow light looked down like a golden eye. They trembled from coign to coign, and tower to tower, Along high terraces quicker than dream they flew. And some of them steadily glowed, and some soon vanished, And some strange shadows threw. And behind them all the ghosts of thoughts went moving, Restlessly moving in each lamplit room, From chair to mirror, from mirror to fire; From some, the light was scarcely more than a gloom: From some, a dazzling desire. And there was one, beneath black eaves, who thought, Combing with lifted arms her golden hair, Of the lover who hurried towards her through the night; And there was one who dreamed of a sudden death As she blew out her light. And there was one who turned from clamoring streets, And walked in lamplit gardens among black trees, And looked at the windy sky, And thought with terror how stones and roots would freeze And birds in the dead boughs cry . . . And she hurried back, as snow fell, mixed with rain, To mingle among the crowds again, To jostle beneath blue lamps along the street; And lost herself in the warm bright coiling dream, With a sound of murmuring voices and shuffling feet. And one, from his high bright window looking down On luminous chasms that cleft the basalt town, Hearing a sea-like murmur rise, Desired to leave his dream, descend from the tower, And drown in waves of shouts and laughter and cries.
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The House Of Dust: Part 01: 04: Up High Black Walls, Up Sombre Terraces
Up high black walls, up sombre terraces, Clinging like luminous birds to the sides of cliffs, The yellow lights went climbing towards the sky. From high black walls, gleaming vaguely with rain, Each yellow light looked down like a golden eye. They trembled from coign to coign, and tower to tower, Along high terraces quicker than dream they flew. And some of them steadily glowed, and some soon vanished, And some strange shadows threw. And behind them all the ghosts of thoughts went moving, Restlessly moving in each lamplit room, From chair to mirror, from mirror to fire; From some, the light was scarcely more than a gloom: From some, a dazzling desire. And there was one, beneath black eaves, who thought, Combing with lifted arms her golden hair, Of the lover who hurried towards her through the night; And there was one who dreamed of a sudden death As she blew out her light. And there was one who turned from clamoring streets, And walked in lamplit gardens among black trees, And looked at the windy sky, And thought with terror how stones and roots would freeze And birds in the dead boughs cry . . . And she hurried back, as snow fell, mixed with rain, To mingle among the crowds again, To jostle beneath blue lamps along the street; And lost herself in the warm bright coiling dream, With a sound of murmuring voices and shuffling feet. And one, from his high bright window looking down On luminous chasms that cleft the basalt town, Hearing a sea-like murmur rise, Desired to leave his dream, descend from the tower, And drown in waves of shouts and laughter and cries.
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As evening falls, And the yellow lights leap one by one Along high walls; And along black streets that glisten as if with rain, The muted city seems Like one in a restless sleep, who lies and dreams Of vague desires, and memories, and half-forgotten pain . . . Along dark veins, like lights the quick dreams run, Flash, are extinguished, flash again, To mingle and glow at last in the enormous brain And die away . . . As evening falls, A dream dissolves these insubstantial walls,-- A myriad secretly gliding lights lie bare . . . The lovers rise, the harlot combs her hair, The dead man's face grows blue in the dizzy lamplight, The watchman climbs the stair . . . The bank defaulter leers at a chaos of figures, And runs among them, and is beaten down; The sick man coughs and hears the chisels ringing; The tired clown Sees the enormous crowd, a million faces, Motionless in their places, Ready to laugh, and seize, and crush and tear . . . The dancer smooths her hair, Laces her golden slippers, and runs through the door To dance once more, Hearing swift music like an enchantment rise, Feeling the praise of a thousand eyes. As darkness falls The walls grow luminous and warm, the walls Tremble and glow with the lives within them moving, Moving like music, secret and rich and warm. How shall we live tonight? Where shall we turn? To what new light or darkness yearn? A thousand winding stairs lead down before us; And one by one in myriads we descend By lamplit flowered walls, long balustrades, Through half-lit halls which reach no end.
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The House Of Dust: Part 03: 01: As Evening Falls
As evening falls, And the yellow lights leap one by one Along high walls; And along black streets that glisten as if with rain, The muted city seems Like one in a restless sleep, who lies and dreams Of vague desires, and memories, and half-forgotten pain . . . Along dark veins, like lights the quick dreams run, Flash, are extinguished, flash again, To mingle and glow at last in the enormous brain And die away . . . As evening falls, A dream dissolves these insubstantial walls,-- A myriad secretly gliding lights lie bare . . . The lovers rise, the harlot combs her hair, The dead man's face grows blue in the dizzy lamplight, The watchman climbs the stair . . . The bank defaulter leers at a chaos of figures, And runs among them, and is beaten down; The sick man coughs and hears the chisels ringing; The tired clown Sees the enormous crowd, a million faces, Motionless in their places, Ready to laugh, and seize, and crush and tear . . . The dancer smooths her hair, Laces her golden slippers, and runs through the door To dance once more, Hearing swift music like an enchantment rise, Feeling the praise of a thousand eyes. As darkness falls The walls grow luminous and warm, the walls Tremble and glow with the lives within them moving, Moving like music, secret and rich and warm. How shall we live tonight? Where shall we turn? To what new light or darkness yearn? A thousand winding stairs lead down before us; And one by one in myriads we descend By lamplit flowered walls, long balustrades, Through half-lit halls which reach no end.
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The snow floats down upon us, mingled with rain . . . It eddies around pale lilac lamps, and falls Down golden-windowed walls. We were all born of flesh, in a flare of pain, We do not remember the red roots whence we rose, But we know that we rose and walked, that after a while We shall lie down again. The snow floats down upon us, we turn, we turn, Through gorges filled with light we sound and flow . . . One is struck down and hurt, we crowd about him, We bear him away, gaze after his listless body; But whether he lives or dies we do not know. One of us sings in the street, and we listen to him; The words ring over us like vague bells of sorrow. He sings of a house he lived in long ago. It is strange; this house of dust was the house I lived in; The house you lived in, the house that all of us know. And coiling slowly about him, and laughing at him, And throwing him pennies, we bear away A mournful echo of other times and places, And follow a dream . . . a dream that will not stay. Down long broad flights of lamplit stairs we flow; Noisy, in scattered waves, crowding and shouting; In broken slow cascades. The gardens extend before us . . . We spread out swiftly; Trees are above us, and darkness. The canyon fades . . . And we recall, with a gleaming stab of sadness, Vaguely and incoherently, some dream Of a world we came from, a world of sun-blue hills . . . A black wood whispers around us, green eyes gleam; Someone cries in the forest, and someone kills. We flow to the east, to the white-lined shivering sea; We reach to the west, where the whirling sun went down; We close our eyes to music in bright cafees. We diverge from clamorous streets to streets that are silent. We loaf where the wind-spilled fountain plays. And, growing tired, we turn aside at last, Remember our secret selves, seek out our towers, Lay weary hands on the banisters, and climb; Climbing, each, to his little four-square dream Of love or lust or beauty or death or crime.
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The House Of Dust: Part 01: 05: The Snow Floats Down Upon Us, Mingled With Rain
The snow floats down upon us, mingled with rain . . . It eddies around pale lilac lamps, and falls Down golden-windowed walls. We were all born of flesh, in a flare of pain, We do not remember the red roots whence we rose, But we know that we rose and walked, that after a while We shall lie down again. The snow floats down upon us, we turn, we turn, Through gorges filled with light we sound and flow . . . One is struck down and hurt, we crowd about him, We bear him away, gaze after his listless body; But whether he lives or dies we do not know. One of us sings in the street, and we listen to him; The words ring over us like vague bells of sorrow. He sings of a house he lived in long ago. It is strange; this house of dust was the house I lived in; The house you lived in, the house that all of us know. And coiling slowly about him, and laughing at him, And throwing him pennies, we bear away A mournful echo of other times and places, And follow a dream . . . a dream that will not stay. Down long broad flights of lamplit stairs we flow; Noisy, in scattered waves, crowding and shouting; In broken slow cascades. The gardens extend before us . . . We spread out swiftly; Trees are above us, and darkness. The canyon fades . . . And we recall, with a gleaming stab of sadness, Vaguely and incoherently, some dream Of a world we came from, a world of sun-blue hills . . . A black wood whispers around us, green eyes gleam; Someone cries in the forest, and someone kills. We flow to the east, to the white-lined shivering sea; We reach to the west, where the whirling sun went down; We close our eyes to music in bright cafees. We diverge from clamorous streets to streets that are silent. We loaf where the wind-spilled fountain plays. And, growing tired, we turn aside at last, Remember our secret selves, seek out our towers, Lay weary hands on the banisters, and climb; Climbing, each, to his little four-square dream Of love or lust or beauty or death or crime.
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The lamplit page is turned, the dream forgotten; The music changes tone, you wake, remember Deep worlds you lived before,--deep worlds hereafter Of leaf on falling leaf, music on music, Rain and sorrow and wind and dust and laughter. Helen was late and Miriam came too soon. Joseph was dead, his wife and children starving. Elaine was married and soon to have a child. You dreamed last night of fiddler-crabs with fiddles; They played a buzzing melody, and you smiled. To-morrow--what? And what of yesterday? Through soundless labyrinths of dream you pass, Through many doors to the one door of all. Soon as it's opened we shall hear a music: Or see a skeleton fall . . . We walk with you. Where is it that you lead us? We climb the muffled stairs beneath high lanterns. We descend again. We ***** through darkened cells. You say: this darkness, here, will slowly **** me. It creeps and weighs upon me . . . Is full of bells. This is the thing remembered I would forget-- No matter where I go, how soft I tread, This windy gesture menaces me with death. Fatigue! it says, and points its finger at me; Touches my throat and stops my breath. My fans--my jewels--the portrait of my husband-- The torn certificate for my daughter's grave-- These are but mortal seconds in immortal time. They brush me, fade away: like drops of water. They signify no crime. Let us retrace our steps: I have deceived you: Nothing is here I could not frankly tell you: No hint of guilt, or faithlessness, or threat. Dreams--they are madness. Staring eyes--illusion. Let us return, hear music, and forget . . .
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The House Of Dust: Part 03: 03: Haunted Chambers
The lamplit page is turned, the dream forgotten; The music changes tone, you wake, remember Deep worlds you lived before,--deep worlds hereafter Of leaf on falling leaf, music on music, Rain and sorrow and wind and dust and laughter. Helen was late and Miriam came too soon. Joseph was dead, his wife and children starving. Elaine was married and soon to have a child. You dreamed last night of fiddler-crabs with fiddles; They played a buzzing melody, and you smiled. To-morrow--what? And what of yesterday? Through soundless labyrinths of dream you pass, Through many doors to the one door of all. Soon as it's opened we shall hear a music: Or see a skeleton fall . . . We walk with you. Where is it that you lead us? We climb the muffled stairs beneath high lanterns. We descend again. We ***** through darkened cells. You say: this darkness, here, will slowly **** me. It creeps and weighs upon me . . . Is full of bells. This is the thing remembered I would forget-- No matter where I go, how soft I tread, This windy gesture menaces me with death. Fatigue! it says, and points its finger at me; Touches my throat and stops my breath. My fans--my jewels--the portrait of my husband-- The torn certificate for my daughter's grave-- These are but mortal seconds in immortal time. They brush me, fade away: like drops of water. They signify no crime. Let us retrace our steps: I have deceived you: Nothing is here I could not frankly tell you: No hint of guilt, or faithlessness, or threat. Dreams--they are madness. Staring eyes--illusion. Let us return, hear music, and forget . . .
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Sometimes I have good days, days where I am lead down the path of life with happiness holding my hand. But then there are the bad days. Days where I feel like I am being drug down to the depths by weights tied around my ankles by depressed hands and the idea that I will never be good enough. I am wandering down a lamplit street at night, kept company by insomnia and followed closely by depression who thought it necessary to bring along anxiety and loneliness. “It’s a choice to be this way, you just have to decide and will yourself to get better.” Like depression is merely a switch you left on when you hurried out of the house in the morning. “I’m sorry, it will get better, it’s okay, everything will be fine,” As if they think empty spaces inside can be filled by emptier words, Because they see the world through rose tinted glasses, and my lenses are broken and cracked. I want to get better, I have to get better but part of me is afraid of leaving my depression because it is the only understanding, the boyfriend I’ve always wanted, the only relationship I’ve ever had, always there so I am afraid of letting go. I don’t want to be more alone. Medications and self help books, tools trying to crack and sculpt the shell of my mind. Why aren’t they working? I don’t really know. “Well, maybe you just aren’t trying hard enough. Try harder.” I try so hard to think positive thoughts, to be a friend to myself, but the words echo uselessly in my head, bouncing around but they never stick. They are drowned out by the overpowering voice of negativity; you are lying. Happiness should be easy. All you have to do is pursue it. Well if happiness is something you can run to, then I am still learning to walk. Get up, dust yourself off, and try again. But I am getting weighed down, with every mistake, every failure, everything I’ve been told that really meant nothing but that I took extremely personally and thought about for days, it is heavy. They ask if anything is wrong. I say no. Because even if something is, I am at a loss as for why. I don’t even understand the tangled mess mind has become, but all I can do is try to untangle the knots. I am viewed as weak, a victim trapped in my own head and held hostage by my thoughts. But I am the own who pushes myself back up, I am the one who has to dry my tears, calm the panic attacks, and hug the broken and injured parts of myself back together. Can’t they understand that?
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Aug 26, 2015
Aug 26, 2015 at 10:58 PM UTC
Truth about Depression
Sometimes I have good days, days where I am lead down the path of life with happiness holding my hand. But then there are the bad days. Days where I feel like I am being drug down to the depths by weights tied around my ankles by depressed hands and the idea that I will never be good enough. I am wandering down a lamplit street at night, kept company by insomnia and followed closely by depression who thought it necessary to bring along anxiety and loneliness. “It’s a choice to be this way, you just have to decide and will yourself to get better.” Like depression is merely a switch you left on when you hurried out of the house in the morning. “I’m sorry, it will get better, it’s okay, everything will be fine,” As if they think empty spaces inside can be filled by emptier words, Because they see the world through rose tinted glasses, and my lenses are broken and cracked. I want to get better, I have to get better but part of me is afraid of leaving my depression because it is the only understanding, the boyfriend I’ve always wanted, the only relationship I’ve ever had, always there so I am afraid of letting go. I don’t want to be more alone. Medications and self help books, tools trying to crack and sculpt the shell of my mind. Why aren’t they working? I don’t really know. “Well, maybe you just aren’t trying hard enough. Try harder.” I try so hard to think positive thoughts, to be a friend to myself, but the words echo uselessly in my head, bouncing around but they never stick. They are drowned out by the overpowering voice of negativity; you are lying. Happiness should be easy. All you have to do is pursue it. Well if happiness is something you can run to, then I am still learning to walk. Get up, dust yourself off, and try again. But I am getting weighed down, with every mistake, every failure, everything I’ve been told that really meant nothing but that I took extremely personally and thought about for days, it is heavy. They ask if anything is wrong. I say no. Because even if something is, I am at a loss as for why. I don’t even understand the tangled mess mind has become, but all I can do is try to untangle the knots. I am viewed as weak, a victim trapped in my own head and held hostage by my thoughts. But I am the own who pushes myself back up, I am the one who has to dry my tears, calm the panic attacks, and hug the broken and injured parts of myself back together. Can’t they understand that?
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Whispers of clouds brought to life From a child's observant hand, Tied firmly with twine To mine Are puddles now, Unfathomably deep and yet Impenetrable, As a windowpane in a lamplit room facing the glossy Liquid tar of the night, And sometimes I see the sky And sometimes I believe I can see the bottom And sometimes I see my own face staring back up at me, Tinted grey, Wrinkled by age or the tiny footsteps of waterbugs That have found solace in the stagnant water, And my eyes are glassy and unfocused And my nose is crooked, And I am tempted to take a tiny cup And drink from that tepid pool Dip by dip Until the water has drained And the bottom is no longer an elusive phantom Masked by a pallid imitation Of the life that breathes before it, And the waterbugs and their skittering legs Are all inside me Where they bounce around in my warm skin So I, Too, May remember how it feels to be alive, But the dirt under my fingernails And the husks peeling from my shoulders And the tendril roots anchoring downward from my toes Craft, In their chthonic shelter - A suffocating darkness of soil That strips the eyes and lungs of their familiar needs - Some lyric That sings of a new desire And an emanating warmth that reprimands my very body For being so naïve, To think that it May whither away Should the sun set on one Summer day's Dusky glow (So reminiscent of the afternoons Where you would grip my fingers and guide me through The ins and outs Of ravenous caterpillar holes Bitten into the leaves Of the alder trees, Never allowing me to forget How you despised their aberrant bodies, "Freaks of the natural world," And I would tell To closed-off ears Stories of transformation And the butterfly that fed On the ugliness of a fat insect And turned it into romance) So I abstain From my brackish libation And sit back, With my dusty hand, Burnt from the grip of the string, Pressed to my parched throat, My stale reflection retreating over the edge Of the pond, And, From my new perch, See, The sliver of the Moon, In her own reflection, A promise, Of the Sun that approaches on his handsome chariot, And wait, For the return of day And, A new face To wash Ashore in the tide.
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Mar 4, 2011
Mar 4, 2011 at 3:51 PM UTC
Untitled (Waterbugs)
Whispers of clouds brought to life From a child's observant hand, Tied firmly with twine To mine Are puddles now, Unfathomably deep and yet Impenetrable, As a windowpane in a lamplit room facing the glossy Liquid tar of the night, And sometimes I see the sky And sometimes I believe I can see the bottom And sometimes I see my own face staring back up at me, Tinted grey, Wrinkled by age or the tiny footsteps of waterbugs That have found solace in the stagnant water, And my eyes are glassy and unfocused And my nose is crooked, And I am tempted to take a tiny cup And drink from that tepid pool Dip by dip Until the water has drained And the bottom is no longer an elusive phantom Masked by a pallid imitation Of the life that breathes before it, And the waterbugs and their skittering legs Are all inside me Where they bounce around in my warm skin So I, Too, May remember how it feels to be alive, But the dirt under my fingernails And the husks peeling from my shoulders And the tendril roots anchoring downward from my toes Craft, In their chthonic shelter - A suffocating darkness of soil That strips the eyes and lungs of their familiar needs - Some lyric That sings of a new desire And an emanating warmth that reprimands my very body For being so naïve, To think that it May whither away Should the sun set on one Summer day's Dusky glow (So reminiscent of the afternoons Where you would grip my fingers and guide me through The ins and outs Of ravenous caterpillar holes Bitten into the leaves Of the alder trees, Never allowing me to forget How you despised their aberrant bodies, "Freaks of the natural world," And I would tell To closed-off ears Stories of transformation And the butterfly that fed On the ugliness of a fat insect And turned it into romance) So I abstain From my brackish libation And sit back, With my dusty hand, Burnt from the grip of the string, Pressed to my parched throat, My stale reflection retreating over the edge Of the pond, And, From my new perch, See, The sliver of the Moon, In her own reflection, A promise, Of the Sun that approaches on his handsome chariot, And wait, For the return of day And, A new face To wash Ashore in the tide.
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Kiss me cyberlight andromeda. Twist salt and sea to fluorescent foam. Her gaze can rubble rocks, sand sandstone, and grind granite. Lamplit soul where did you go? Cold clandestine callous kindness broke my beatdown bladed bleeding beating broken heart. Like the hot hollowness of furnace fire you lift white iron from my head. Steel the sterling silver sword song of sorrowful saints singing soft sonnets into sunless summers. such a silly sin we now suffer for. Forlorn lore long lost, like lighting lingering little and limp lashed against the locked lonely light of tinder embers and the soft glow of days end. Tomorrow torrents torment of tidlewaves, tornados, tempest. Thoughts of thorny thickets thrash thunderously turning tides of mind to thicker thoughts of trepidation. We sail on.
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Jul 2, 2019
Jul 2, 2019 at 10:53 PM UTC
Cyberlight andromeda
Crystal gleaming, blinding sight, I crawl, small seeming, though tall, I tried. So hard to stand in dark evolution, the solution claimed as stark; Yeah right. I need a change under the sun, But forest ranger is my part. So only night, lit by lamplight Conceives revolution in this Dark. What choice do I have? Which paths to take? Green stained machetes Dictate the stakes. Long for the sun, And long, we may, Alas, Must do with a lamplit day.
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Jun 27, 2014
Jun 27, 2014 at 12:16 AM UTC
A Lamp in the Night
It's been the longest time, my sweet, since both the two of us did meet; it is, I have to say, a treat to be a part of you again. And since the moon is getting low, I guess it's time for me to go - I'll be back if you want me though, to be a part of you again. I fear, my love, I must depart; I'm thankful for this brand new start, and (now without a broken heart) to be a part of you again. I missed you so when you were gone, but now it's my turn to go on, so farewell, dear, until anon; until we part anew again. *He left her on the lamplit doorstep, smiling, grateful, finally, for their reconciling. Then he paused and turned around again, full of questions he could not contain...* Pardon me for saying, miss; I only wish once more to kiss your loving, sacred lips. What bliss to be a part of you again.
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May 20, 2017
May 20, 2017 at 4:00 AM UTC
to be a part of you again
The House On The Hill Bleak, the naked windswept lanes, Lashing skin, unforgiving rains Drenching tatty, flapping drapes In a flurry of flightless capes. And aged eyes of darts and stares Catch new lovers unawares, Flitting from sky to window frame, Dashing with their hearts aflame. Inside, outside and under eaves, Upturned collars and soaken sleeves, Seeking shelter from heaven's spill, Beckoned by the house on the hill. Warmly wafts to welcome them With lamplit porch and lacey hem, Wry smiles and buttered toast, Courtesy of the resident ghost. Old lady, with your heart that bleeds, Dweller in your loveless needs, Lonely in your shadowy niche, What trickery will your soul unleash? Jealous shadows, creaking floors Opening windows and slamming doors, Trapped young hearts lay at your feet, To beat no more their wreckless beat. Seething, writhing, crimson drips, Sweetly tasted on bitter lips, Beside their lifeless essence rise With mouths aghast and fading eyes. The clock ticks, the hours pass, Silence befalls, in dreams, at last, No murderous widow, their lives, could take Nor break their hearts before they wake. Stretching limbs and sunkissed yawn A sigh of relief, a welcomed dawn, To wander life as wise old fools, To knock death's door before death calls. Frail, in cumbersome, aging skin, Where no more passion beats within A little old couple, with time to **** Make their home in the house on the hill. © RJVHorton2015
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Dec 26, 2015
Dec 26, 2015 at 7:54 AM UTC
The House On The Hill
Mama told you when you were young that people would treat you like a library, come and go as they please, sometimes leaving you a little more empty, sometimes curling up in a corner, immersed in you an ark, strong and safe, for some as they talk over you and leave two by two, fidgeting hands leaving gaps in your armoured rows of memories as they drag fingers along book spines unsettling old and stubborn dust in neat little lines. Sometimes they will come only to put you back on the shelf in order to move on to some brighter place. You see, your dim warm lights will comfort some and depress others, and that's alright, she said, some will risk it all to stay all night. Still, knowing this, you sit lamplit on the patio buttoned up with regret wine red lips pursed burden on both sleeves tired of the world already at twenty three. She never told you that torn pages and unfinished stories would bleed and hurt like real wounds that some visitors would leave you collapsing behind them, crumbling, folding, the threat of closure looming like an unsatisfactory ending-- she didn't tell you that libraries are also oceans stretching fields and cities burning crashing and fading into bittersweetness and balled fists she didn't warn you of plot twists like this or what to do when they arise your big moon eyes clouding over like a stormy night in front of living room lights that have turned their back on you or that sometimes peter pan at the window would have more luck than you at getting through people's frosted glass You have to learn your own fresh start you have your own paintbrush, you have your own heart, So, paint your insides, watch them dry under the new moon. That sinking feeling is just a new room, no bookshelves in it yet.
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Oct 14, 2017
Oct 14, 2017 at 7:06 AM UTC
The New Moon Library
Mama told you when you were young that people would treat you like a library, come and go as they please, sometimes leaving you a little more empty, sometimes curling up in a corner, immersed in you an ark, strong and safe, for some as they talk over you and leave two by two, fidgeting hands leaving gaps in your armoured rows of memories as they drag fingers along book spines unsettling old and stubborn dust in neat little lines. Sometimes they will come only to put you back on the shelf in order to move on to some brighter place. You see, your dim warm lights will comfort some and depress others, and that's alright, she said, some will risk it all to stay all night. Still, knowing this, you sit lamplit on the patio buttoned up with regret wine red lips pursed burden on both sleeves tired of the world already at twenty three. She never told you that torn pages and unfinished stories would bleed and hurt like real wounds that some visitors would leave you collapsing behind them, crumbling, folding, the threat of closure looming like an unsatisfactory ending-- she didn't tell you that libraries are also oceans stretching fields and cities burning crashing and fading into bittersweetness and balled fists she didn't warn you of plot twists like this or what to do when they arise your big moon eyes clouding over like a stormy night in front of living room lights that have turned their back on you or that sometimes peter pan at the window would have more luck than you at getting through people's frosted glass You have to learn your own fresh start you have your own paintbrush, you have your own heart, So, paint your insides, watch them dry under the new moon. That sinking feeling is just a new room, no bookshelves in it yet.
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