"bffs" poems
the hardest thing i do as a disabled person
is not
"fight my disability"
we were never at war with one another
like me, it just wants to exist
and so i let it
to some extent
i’ll never “become my disability”
yet i don’t believe it’s a bad thing either
i’ve come to realise that he’s become a part of me
as he’s helped shape my thinking
and maybe even my personality a little bit
i owe all my stubbornness to him
nah
i don’t fight my disability
we’re bffs
the hardest thing i do as a disabled person
is not
"get up every day"
though for a while, i thought it was
getting up is easy
facing the world?
getting easier
i used to blush at the thought of getting a wheelchair
i’d bury my face in my knees and cover my ears with my hands, thinking that if i couldn’t see it or hear it, i wouldn’t need it
i cared too much of what society would see me as
not “normal teenage girl”
"sad confined possibly a teenage girl?"
normal is overrated
and to be honest?
so is society
the hardest thing i do as a disabled person
is not
pretending i’m okay with mainstreaming
dear teachers, “mainstreaming” was never in my vocabulary
pretending?
pfft dear teachers, this is 100% real contentment
IEPs got some getting used to but after 16 years of endless doctors appointments, people in white sterile coats, plastic latex gloves poking, prodding demanding things of me
"mainstreaming"
won’t ever exist in my vocabulary
i know i’m smart
and i know i can do it
so don’t you DARE cry at my graduation
it’d be pretty pathetic if i believed in myself more than you do
the hardest thing i do as a disabled person
is
accepting the realities
i don’t know when i’ll take my last step
i don’t know when my muscles will give out for good
i know that every day i won’t know what’s right in front of me
i know that i’ll never be able to run another mile in my life
and i know that i won’t ever stop dreaming about the things i wish i could do
would love to do
won’t ever do
might do
one day
Dec 28, 2014
Dec 28, 2014 at 10:50 PM UTC
Take my hand, friend
just for a sec-
let's leave this ****** land of
SATs, PSATs, APs,
and college admission essays and guidance counselors
and homework and pop quizzes and exams and whatever else-
behind.
Let's be two again.
Let's make Pringle-chip-duck faces
and grin with orange peel smiles-
I'll paint my nails yellow and we'll read Dr. Seuss with British accents
in the dimming light of the old
falling-down fort of pillows and blankets (that's almost too small for us)
Let's pretend
Let's pretend
Let's pretend
That we've never seen the glowing screen of
televisions, computers, IPods,
that we haven't spent weeks wearing down our thumbs on text messages.
Let's forget fights over boys that weren't even all that hot.
Let's sit in my yard and eat raw cookie dough behind my momma's back
And make too-sweet fresh lemonade, and blow dandelions
(into other neighbor's yards, of course)
Spray garden hoses at each other
and laugh and scream and giggle and make mud-pies.
Let's make twenty different secret handshakes,
Eat wild raspberries and hide sticky fingers
And pinky promise- again and again- BFFs forever.
Let's lose ourselves in the bliss of childhood
just one more time- please.
Just in case Peter Pan decides to visit.
Aug 6, 2010
Aug 6, 2010 at 7:40 PM UTC
When I was trembling
You held me
When I was falling
You supported me
When I was crying
You wiped my tears
When I was scared
You shared my fears
When I was low
You held me high
When I was lying
Flat on ground
You raised me up
To the level of sky
You stood for me
When no one else did
You cuddled me
As if I were a kid
When nights were dark
And the days were tough
To strengthen me
Your support was enough
But I forgot you
When the days were brighter
My selfishness made
Our friendship lighter
I feel so sorry
For letting you go
I am such a hog
Still forgive me though
You are the one with the bigger heart
Now please come back and hug me again
I have had my share of misery
And no more I can handle this pain
I beg your forgiveness
I cry in repentance
Please return my friend
And end my sentence
Mar 29, 2018
Mar 29, 2018 at 12:18 PM UTC
you are so annoying...
you are so complicated..
you bring drama to my life..
you laugh at me...
you laugh with me...
you know all bout my crushes...
you know all bout my life every single detail..
you make me smile...
you irritate me..
you are my "philosophic talker"
you my ******** taker"
you give all wrong advises..
you scream at me with CAPITAL LETTERS..!! :)
you make me smile with all the "awwww..."
you are with me day and night..!!
and wen u get upset with me nothings all right..!! :(
even if people call us "lesbians" I DON'T CARE..!!!
because i know we have our share of crushes...lovers and admirers...that v both only know of..!!! :)
you have seen me in my bad..u have seen me in my best..
you have seen me going "tomboy " to "girly" for a guy..!! :)
you criticize me...i abuse you...and that is what makes us Best Friends Forever..!!!
i know i have ******* you royally..!! i know i have irritated you no end..!! thank you for bearing it all...thank you for standing by me!! thank you for taking my **** and lastly...thank you for STICKING AROUND AND LISTENING TO ME..!!!!!
LOVE YOU LOADS..!!!
P.S : We are not BFFs... WE ARE..
: Best Friend For Life Like Sisters And Always I Love You..!!!
Jan 26, 2013
Jan 26, 2013 at 10:55 AM UTC
Fight is light
A sight that’s bright
The reason why we didn’t even try
To freely fly from the jail of lie
Bad is good, good is bad, it’s true, though it can make you mad,
Make you feel down and sad
War is something that’s good yet bad
Sweetness and bitterness, good and bad, are all it had
War and peace, love and hate
Just, reason, critic and fate
It had just started but it seems like it has already begun
With that, our hearts were shoot by an air gun
Spring of love, flakes of blood
Frozen heart, warmth rushing through the flood
I can’t find the words to say goodbye
I tried, and that’s not a lie
Foresee what would happen
If you continue this thing till the end
And now it’s too late
For you to change your fate
I used to possess this strength
With no limitation of length
Waiting, expecting, loving, caring, and forgiving
I’ve done ages ago, but I swear not for a living
Those fruitful days with all of you
I’ve had doubts if some of it is false or true
But I’ve had enough
Patience was replaced by anger that you can’t stop
I’ll say it one more time
My heart was a candy and turned into a lime
Then it has rotten and turned bitter
It rained and our memories was just a litter
Everything was now a trash
My head exploded and my heart crashed
Was broken into pieces
By unfulfilled promises
Jun 17, 2018
Jun 17, 2018 at 8:38 AM UTC
Dearest Little Snot
While you are a dinosaur princess reigning supreme over the sandbox with your iron fist perfectly chipped glittery pink fingernails
I want to tell you a few things before you saunter off into adulthood…
the day you were born there was the most beautiful messy thunderstorm
the world cried tears of joy upon your arrival
that’s how I know
God does exist
dangling in the innocent sparkles of a child’s glance
speaking
to you
with each beat of your pumping heart
FYI
when life’s pain makes you want to retreat into the arm of the sofa with a lifetime movie and processed frozen sugar
throw that ***** arrows instead of tantrums
and never forget that you can indeed stop celestial bodies from obscuring your view of the sun
never forget that his world ultimately revolves around your shapely hips
don’t forget to taste the world with your heart open
and chew with your mouth shut
and taste everything and I mean everything
and if it tastes bad
try it again later
keep your dreams close to your heart in an ammunition belt strapped across your chest and be a warrior for your sunshine
but don’t worry about it when the sun don’t shine
because your sunshine will illuminate your dreams
and its okay
if
high school sweethearts don’t stay together forever
or
get back together after forever
to rekindle romances conceived in cafeterias or gym school dances when even a chaperone or Daddy can’t tear them apart
and sometimes the spiral notebook dreams of forever lovers and eternal BFFs never quite unfold from the tight origami wide ruled universes they were conceived at
Believe that
and fancy this you little snot
I’m always going to be bigger than you and smarter than you and win at punchbuggynopunchback
But you are greater than the power that created you
so don’t forget that.
Nov 27, 2012
Nov 27, 2012 at 10:28 PM UTC
Out of my head I've spun
& to think I've only just begun
Too much to do & see, I'm having too much fun
I'm not even close to being done
All my personalities are starting to shine
& NO, I'm not crazy, really I'm fine
My personalities are just a hobby of mine
They do their best to stay on their side of the line
A best friend to share the madness that I can't contain
Each days adventures create memories & more happiness we gain
Even through the craziest missions, still BFFs we remain
Our lives are exciting & fun, very far from plain
Remember, if you can, to take risks & laugh a lot
Don't be greedy, instead make the most & the best from what you've got
Never regret the things you've done, whether it was bad or not
Everything happens for a reason, just don't forget the lesson you were taught
Now that that has been said
& I've written enough with my colorful ink pens, of course never any pencil lead
My mind is finally a bit more quiet since I've cleared my head
By creating some interesting poems to someday be read!
May 8, 2014
May 8, 2014 at 3:45 PM UTC
KITTY
ZITTY
AND P-DITTY
WERE BFFS FOR LYFE
BUT THEN ONE DIED
AND WE ALL CRIED
THE WHOLE NIGHT LONG
BOO-HOO
Oct 11, 2013
Oct 11, 2013 at 2:10 AM UTC
First things first I'm at the beach. It's awesome, we're on a little island and it's all rich white people. Today me and my cousin walked barefoot through a marsh for 3 hours and I cut my toe and he sliced his foot open. We got chased by alligators and cops and I had fried alligator for dinner(it was great btw) and the best part of all of this is that the last girl that cheated on me is texting me and she is all for being friends yet she can't see why I'm not all into the idea of bffs after I found out she'd been ******* some German kid named Elmo. He's a ****** too, but hey I'm a super huge ******* anyways so it's expected. She keeps saying me and This girl will be a cute couple. How do I politely tell her to **** a fat one. It's midnight and she won't stop texting me *** does she want. She said something happened at a party the night after she met my parents.... Waiting to know what she says is kinda gut wrenching. She said she did it because the guy was nice to her... The **** (my farts smell like alligator
Aug 2, 2014
Aug 2, 2014 at 12:12 AM UTC
you say you love the way I am
you say you love my uniqueness
but what you don't say
is what you tell other people
'she is such a 'bitch'
'I wish I never knew the fool'
'I wish I never transferred to this school
because I can't even stand her sight'
you know usually when someone tells
u something nice u say
'same to you'
the thing with this 'same to you'
is that I really wish that I
had never met you
I wish that you never transferred
**BUT the difference between us
is that I live in reality
people say what they want
although it hurts because I thought
you were my pal it doesn't affect me anymore
but on the other hand you spent an entire term
getting most of my new friends
thinking I'm a *****
its ok no biggy all this
is good -made me realize
that not every one is nice
I finally got up and smelled the coffee
thank God for 'BFFS'
Jan 2, 2015
Jan 2, 2015 at 8:31 PM UTC
I have had many people tell me,
"Goodbye."
I have had many people tell me,
"We will be friends forever! BFF's!"
BFFs are not real.
You are lying when you call someone your BFF because,
You don't know if they will stay with you.
I have known many people,
and had many friends.
But,
one tried to drown me in the second grade,
we haven't seen each other since.
One stole from me, attacked me, bullied me, and hated me,
I thought this was normal since I didn't have any other friends beside the girl before her and it took me a year to trust her, I made a wrong choice.
I still have trust issues.
Another person ruined a friendship between me and a boy,
she is now that boy's girlfriend and he left me.
I only have My Lady and my group of misfits.
I have said to many "Goodbyes."
I don't care anymore.
My heart.
Is done.
I don't trust anyone because of these people and more people.
I don't want to tell anyone "Goodbye."
I know how much it hurts.
I only have told someone "Goodbye." once.
Only once.
I am only not saying "Goodbye." To those, I love because they need me.
Dec 5, 2018
Dec 5, 2018 at 11:03 PM UTC
I was your admirer during college years
Discretely looking at you limping away
To your classes looking alone and aloof
One afternoon at the canteen, I blocked your path
You blurted something while I stepped back
Your words made me feel giddy and restless!
You graduated first and I grew up also
And I thought I forgot my silly crush on you
Until I saw you limping inside a mall - - -
There were romantic comedy movies in my head
I, the heroine and you the Hero - imperfect pairs
Strangers at the university and ended as one - -
But you had a girl friend, my friends announced
I smiled while looking at you limping away again
My prince was at last taken by someone else - - -
Today I learned from my BFFs that you are gone
An accident yesterday and proclaimed as DOA
You're so young at early 30s and I - - - sigh- - - - -
One of my regrets in life is not telling you about me
That I existed somewhere in your timeline on earth
I wanted to confess and yet was afraid and now this
I admire you secretly and now I cry quietly
Sadly, we only exchanged two words in this lifetime
It was at the canteen when I blocked your path
You said, "Excuse Me!" and I just stood there speechless.
Nov 5, 2018
Nov 5, 2018 at 3:37 AM UTC
I know you want my blessing.
No ******* way!
Should i box up what I feel and smile?
Become bffs with your new girl?
I can't forget you that easily,
You who made sweet love to me.
You stole my heart the first time you smiled at me.
That sweet alluring smile that teased me to come out of my shell.
I was lost before you started to love me back.
You gave me everything and asked for twice that.
I can't walk away from us,
As easily as from a pet.
You were my life.
I want you gone,
I will not be happy for you.
May 10, 2013
May 10, 2013 at 7:31 AM UTC
it was at the age of twenty one
where I learnt that people change
it was at the age of twenty one
where I bid goodbye to my youth
it was at the age of twenty one
where I realize that my BFFs are acting strange
it was at the age of twenty one
where I learnt the truth
that this year
I'm celebrating my birthday alone
Mar 19, 2018
Mar 19, 2018 at 11:01 AM UTC
My foot has landed
on an unknown pebble
of information;
it rolls underfoot and
I tilt back with
a blinding blast
of panic.
Up is down
and down is
horizontal as I
tumble down the
s --
t --
a --
i --
r --
s --
I've been so
p a i n s t a k i n g l y
climbing.
I land in a
knot of shock and grief
a mere
couple of steps from
the very bottom,
the very beginning.
Familiar
hurt, confusion, and anger
twist and turn
around me in
a smothering weave
that settles over
my senses.
I wish I didn't know this unwelcome cloak.
I wish I didn't have to know how to remove it, inch by inch.
I wish I didn't have to move past
midnight talks
and
midday laughs
and
frequent promises
to be
"BFFs".
I wish I didn't have to let you go.
Aug 16, 2017
Aug 16, 2017 at 5:18 PM UTC
We friends supposed to Be Friends Forever
But Forgot Forever
ended after death
Feb 26, 2019
Feb 26, 2019 at 4:38 PM UTC
remember the girl from BFFS?
well, school restarted two days ago
miss was asking if anyone had any new year resolutions
she(the girl) said that her's was to be nicer to people
and even I found that it was a very good resolution
I felt bad; thinking that she's a new person
so I tried to speak to her and all she did
was roll her eyes and softly but reluctantly responded
I didn't take it on and the today when I greeted
her in the morning she watched as if I was mad and then I
again greeted her and then she responded
as if she was thinking why is this girl talking to me
then she told my friend that she was in shock
I was in shock and I also felt a little stupid
because I actually thought that she changed
BUT I WAS WRONG
I kinda felt hurt also I felt like telling her
what I wanted to say but I did not want to get suspended
I REALLY COULDN'T BELIEVE HER
Jan 7, 2015
Jan 7, 2015 at 3:35 PM UTC
What makes best friends,
best friends?
There was a time
when I called
anyone
my best friend.
It was because
I liked them.
But,
I was stupid
naive.
I gave trust so easily.
I didn't know them
not well enough.
But I called them
my best friends.
And believed so.
Until
the truths unfold.
Slapping me on the face
knocking me to the ground
messed up my feelings and thoughts.
The feeling
'like'
wasn't mutual.
It was one-sided.
I wished I knew earlier
before I made a fool
out of myself, because of myself.
'BFFs'?
That is no longer a simple word.
That is no longer a term for everyone.
Anyone.
I didn't let time
shape the relationship.
I jumped to conclusions.
It was stupid
silly.
I wouldn't have known
what I know now
if I haven't
learned it the hard way.
I thank God
for those miserable times.
They taught me
what it meant
when you call someone
your 'BFF'.
I thought about it
and I realized
it's not that easy
being a best friend.
It needs time
time to shape the relationship.
Time to get to know each other.
Their flaws
strengths
hardships
feelings
and ways.
There must be
understanding.
Loving them
for who they are.
Also
being there
till the end of time.
Not leaving
but staying.
That's what best friends do.
That's what best friends are.
May 11, 2014
May 11, 2014 at 6:18 AM UTC
I’m the one at the lemonade stand.
“25 cents, 25 Cents, 25 CENTS!”
She calls with her friend,
Years younger (but they’re BFFs).
Running up and down the road,
Never making a single penny.
But that doesn’t matter to
The scrawny one with bleach blonde hair,
Tamed for once in two braids.
Usually it’s long and
She won’t even let you touch it with a brush.
And sunburned again—for the umpteenth time.
You can’t tame this girl.
She talks to animals
And speaks to the wind (her protector and friend).
She’s a princess
Running away from the evil queen and the crows,
The black sky devils, the queen’s spies.
Hiding when they come,
For they will recognize her singsong voice
And bright blue eyes.
She sings,
Dances,
SOARS above the clouds,
She is the sun, she owns the sky.
Making the world her perfect stage,
A rule breaker,
A trouble maker,
Who fancies herself a country girl.
Her sock never match
And her smile is wide.
Beautiful and
Unbreakable.
Nov 20, 2015
Nov 20, 2015 at 8:42 PM UTC
Ten and counting..
Ten years in the making
That’s how our friendship is binding
A sister in no relation at all
And a friend you can always call
Old times, sunrise before our class
And the sunset that lies above us
Waiting for you to go out by morning
And still waits for you to get in at evening
With all the bffs that have ended
Our friendship will never be neglected
God has given me a friend
And so thus my love and care to send
Nov 29, 2017
Nov 29, 2017 at 9:29 PM UTC