He wears his darkness like a crown
i try to hide mine into the ground
His darkness when comes playing around,
my dug up **** wants to get out,
They play through the night
jumping off high cliffs,
But in the end
he and i
are left with bruised lips.

He has seen demons
and they still haunt him,
So he made himself a devil
from within

When scars run deep
Doubts run deeper

Its not you
Its me that i fear

You think i am perfect
I thought so too
I was blind, i just couldn't see
There is a world beyond me

You think the things that shine
Will light your world
But sometimes
The light can be a blur

You will see
When the light fades
Its not all the gold
That you think it is
Its not the light that starts from within
Its a cover , its a disguise
Because there are things
Behind the shine
I am trying to hide.

My mind twists and turns at night..
With words craving to rhyme.
They form themselves in a sentence.
They make me take a note
and a pretend .
that i am the one having the upper hand
but its the other way around
they tell me so
They tell me if i wont write them down
they will leave me and go
Its funny
i know

I have written too many


I wont tell you my feelings
I have told them
to many

If telling you and writing to you
would make you believe
I would write a book and read it to you..

But i know it wont be enough
I know it wont be true
Some of it will only be
So that i could make this look good

Good doesn't lasts
And so we wont too
But i know one thing
That you have made me better
That you have made me true

Those words have meaning because they are actually meant for you .
I wont show but i do care for you

I know you are hard to b with ..
I know i am not easy to understand..
But we will try and make this work
Until the pages of it all lasts..

Focus on one thing and the rest fades away.
And that's the first step i take to get away.
From you and the memories that try to make there way.
Through my mind , and my heart
all the way
they try to stay
I push them
They come back!
Staring me to back
from this crackhouse !
House that you and me build
Made of distance
And now guilt

There are so many things i want to say ..
So many words that want out
So many feelings
So many thoughts
Everything is clogged up ,threatening to spill out.
Words ringing in my head asking me to drink it down.
Knocking me off my feet ,trying to pull me down.
I look up and see a mocking face, challenging me to stand back up.
Daring me with a stare
How can i stand up back up
How can i fight , when you are on the enemy line

A hopeless laugh come up my mouth
But its a sob that escapes out.
I try to be brave
Then i see the face.
My strength comes crashing down.

I look around ,you cannot make me out
i want to survive
i am seeking you out.
but you are on the other side
turning around
tuning me out