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Ojaswee Das Mar 6
Our hands entwined. Your eyes lost in mine
My face, marginally looking down
when you distract me from the night sublime.

Your fingers pressing tighter against  mine
your focus unwavering from my eyes.
Hinting the love you were trying to put forth,
you put behind one of the two strands of hair,  that had
perfectly framed my face.

Now, that I had pledged myself to you
You effortlessly pour the three words into the night

You say
“I love you “
I only smile.

Masquerading my racing heartbeat
I put behind the other loose strand of my hair.
Your gaze unagitatingly still fixed at me
I am aware you’re anticipating a reply.

But what could I possibly say?
The customary “I love you too”?
Darling, I say that to you everyday
In ways, you never knew.
Ojaswee Das Feb 24
The Mademoiselle I saw in the sea
Her dress impersonating the rhythm of the air
Her messy mahogany hair impersonating the rhythm of the dress.

The waves had their own cadence
just like how her tresses would cover her all of her face but her eyes
the waves would cover all of her body but her face
She was pretty tall. Even for the waves. Out of their reach.

She had the fingers of an artist. Shy and beautiful.
And every time they made way through her hair to her ears
Her beauty unfolded a little more.

Contemplating the sunset, she’d wrap her arms around her shoulders
I realized it isn’t everyday that you behold such magic when
the glowing sun, a crisp circle in the ****** sky
revealed a path in the meek waves that led directly to her

Impulses to take the initiative, capering all over me without fail
Though completely stupefied by her beauty, I could still remember every detail
Whether it was her eyes that gazed upon the horizon
or her toes that twitched under the water owing to the cold.

The interspace between us. A little extra than I asked for
Her silhouette against the subduing sky. I knew I was falling for her
Dear Mademoiselle I saw in the sea
Though enamored by all, you’re something more to me.
Mademoiselle I saw in the sea, I fancy you to set me free
Mademoiselle I saw in the sea, agree to receive my apology.
Wasn’t undaunted enough to talk to you then,
but I bespeak if I ever see you again
Mademoiselle I saw in the sea, I wouldn’t just let you be
Mademoiselle I saw in the sea, I’d tell you
I’d tell you, you feel like home to me.
Mademoiselle, I saw in the sea, i’m not lying when I say I misseth thee
Ojaswee Das Feb 18
How beautiful did it all feel like
When you fabricated your doting self

Each time I gently pushed all my hair, behind my ears,
only to confront the zephyr from your rose like lips,
I failed to espy the thorns it bore.

Each time I’d smile to a crisp lie
Overlooking the fact that you had done it again,
You’d always do it “one more time”
And I’d always unsee the paradigm.

How beautiful did it all feel like when you perceived me as personage
Worthy of your attention
Worthy to have a claim on some 5 seconds of your life
Which you floundered to call mine otherwise

You were just busy. I dispelled my doubts
but you do love me. And its you I couldn’t do without

Each time I am pushed to pacify my kernel
I invent this story of how everything you do,

Is so that one day, you can see me
burgeon into a beautiful  flower
Never did I know you’d pick me
to impress another bossom, that very hour

Sometimes I hinted the stray in you
But, when had I ever learnt, to put enough trust into myself.
So each time you told me you wanted to stay
I’d let you. I’d let you in, and I’d tell myself, come what may
You’re the person I love, today, tomorrow and everyday

How beautiful did it all feel like
When I refuted the presence of your masquerade
When each time you’d destroy me with a different raid
and I still liked to believe you’d be there to aid

You are just busy. I dispell my doubts.
But you do love me. And its you I can’t do without.
Ojaswee Das Feb 7
What you didn't realize
was that you were a conqueror of fate
Having me ravished to the highest magnitude
you still pretended like you had no clue
A counterfeit image of
trust issues
Playfully taunting
but I was also hurting.
For I didn't covet you
to have doubts
Or descry the demur I doubted to dismiss.
But it's true
That somewhere betwixt the precariousness
I had relinquished my all
my heart; my soul
to you
without yet having been acquainted
with more than just the night
Without yet having been acquainted
With only you in plain sight
Your scintillating eyes
holding to the fact
that
I ought to conjecture
The earth is flat
.
.
.
You grin like a Cheshire Cat.
Ojaswee Das Jan 13
You know,
I want to fall in love
Have sth to hold on
Like actually feel
for somebody else I guess

Be a part of something,
a part of someone,
and share...

Give and get.

Have heart beats in sync.

You know,
Like live in a kind of utopia.
Maybe sometimes suffer on the way,
but only to see us heal.
Beautifully and Wholly
Together. Always.

I want to have memories to laugh at;
eyes to look at;
and a familiar tinge to remember-
every time the air prances into my curls.

I want that ******; that caress;
Feel completely moved  from within
and realize ,
what I'd been missing out on
all this time.

I fancy being the person
who can laugh alone by mere reminiscence.
Gaze at a profile for years
and still not loose the fondness

The adrenaline rush,
The vulnerability,
The addiction,
The susceptibility,
The endearment....
thats what I crave.

You know,
It doesn't have to be the right person
and doesn't have to last forever.
I just want to believe it will.

For once in all these years,
I just want to savour,
how it feels to feel.

Get lost in something,
in someone,
forever
And still yearn for more.

Have a thirst.
and see it quench
by nothing else
but the meagre presence of a person.

Like actually be able to enjoy the rain,
be able to saunter in thoughts,
be able to relate the lyrics of a song,
and even when things go wrong,
still have someone to keep you strong.

I want to have something to think about
when I wake up,
and  have someone come for me
when I don't .

Just be there for someone
and keep confessing to them,
that the only thing that binds me together
is their "ugliness charm" :))

You know,
I want to be mainstream for once
Have love to murmur between kisses.

Not think about anything else,
Except for togetherness.

Be inseparable for once.

Doesn't have to last forever
but I have a squeaky clean ache for it.

Just for once,
I want to smile from completely within
because someone glows to me.

"Today more than yesterday"
"Forever and always"
So as to say.

You know,
I want to be one of those-
cliche typical romantic couples from a movie.
Lost in each other,
only to find each other.

The only  difference
I wouldn't be acting.

I want to confront a room that lit up
just by someones entry.
Feel contended to the brim
just by someones feel.

Like actually not feel hollow for once,
and yet trigger a rhythm when knocked.

Be the someone, in someones life.
Hold hands and frolic,
as a single eternal supernova.

I know reality
and I know it doesn't work that way
but just for once
and only once,
I want to believe
I belong.
Ojaswee Das Oct 2018
Dear you,
you cried
I know you know
But I want you to know that I know too

Then, all I did was stare
I watched you till you died
But there was  nothing I could really do
For all I do is lie

Ive always lied to you. And I still will
Don’t ask me to change
I’m no human, know no humankind
I have a rage
this monster inside me
and I’m not leaving that behind

You live, I survive
You die, I survive
You’re mortality, I’m eternity
You’re humanity I’m absurdity
You’re conformity, I’m insanity
You’re serenity, I’m enormity
We’ll Never be the same

Co-existence is not an option
The love-hate has to end
And that is why
My demon chose to descend

I ripped you into pieces
Showed you that you were dead
made you realize that you’re weak
Throttled you till the end

Finally,
You’re no longer here
You won’t be there either

although thats what I wanted
but why is it that I still care


I am free. I am alone
I have won. I am broke
I’m the victor. I am the victim
I am the laugh. I am the joke


I chase. I hide
I’m free. I’m tied
I killed. I died
I now know
You were mine.
Ojaswee Das Oct 2018
Hi,                      
This is me
I'm lost
Not literally
But also not “not literally “

I don’t know how to explain
I've always been lost
So “always” that now
I’ve stopped waiting to be found

What do you do when
being home doesn’t feel at home
being alone is no where close to peace
and being seen is seen as trouble

When you see the clattering teeth
behind every smile;
The evil red behind every eye
and the ***** in every handshake…

You STOP!
You stop soliciting
You stop
You want no more
You’ve had enough
But instead of stopping them
YOU stop

Because thats what you’ve always been taught

Everyday you ask
You ask yourself
If everything thats happening around you is fair
The answer?
You know its NO
But you convince yourself
that you don’t know

Even after all that you have seen

When you were ahead of everyone else in the race
and no one could match your pace
Instead of letting you win
they asked you to stop

Or like they said “Wait “
for the ones behind
Don’t lead , Always follow
Because thats what it means
To be“Kind”

You wait
For someone else to do the same for you
To have your back
To push you
To the the finish line

But in vain
You were always the last
You had to be
After all, thats humanity

Although very cliche
I will still use this phrase here
You scream on the top of your lungs
but no one can hear

You’ve forgotten your own sound
the world’s hidden from your rhythm
You’ve learnt to talk in whispers
For having a voice is forbidden

You’re burning from your own heat
Not rage just heat
From the fever that is
When you realize
Thats the only warmth you’ve ever felt

But why?
What does this mean to them you ask
Why do they keep you behind
what is going on in their mind
Why can you not be one of a kind

Why is it that you are always last
Though better than the others
You’re still an outcast
beaten and harassed

You don’t know
Maybe you’ll never know
But thats what you will have to live with
You cannot go

You’ll have to lay
Right here
Stone cold
With nothing
to hold.
#lost #sad #deep #cry #depressing #why
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