I can't breathe. The air is extricated from my lungs by their vacant, judgemental stares and their obscene words litter my skin like the paint that splattered my pink flesh as I tried to paint you a picture of what this feels like.
No amount of water could cleanse the feeling of the tense atmosphere that clouds my vision as if I were a wingless airplane flying on a foggy night, but I'm not a flight you want to take home tonight.
And I know you see my straightened back as another entity proceeds 2 feet too close into my personalaized hell.
Turn away. Pretend you don't see anything.
For acknowledging my social anxiety doesn't relieve me.
I sat in the kitchen floor and traced it's outline every touch felt like a wrong-doing every glance felt like a stab wound.
He loves me and he keeps me strong. He's just trying to toughen me up He wants me to be bold. He wants me to kiss him and do strange things that i'm not okay with He wants me to dye my hair and wear pearls.
He loves me.
He did on accident. I promise. He won't do it again. I have faith in him. I have faith in us. He put's the I in pain but he puts the pain in me. In my eye, in my heart on my *******
Beauty What if a Mark was Listening And a Paul was Simply Grace A Tesla Tiger Angels Wings To Take us into Space
And Musics Life A Dance Divine With Thee I turn to Arms Now Mine Our Love Unheld By All but This Our Time so Sacred Only Bliss
This Travel Real Beyond all Known For You I SHOW My Wings Now Grown
A Woman For a Man CLAIM Man within this Flesh A Heart for Woman 's touch as Well Our Rhythm's Love A Calling Bell I ask our Soul If this is True It says to me Done Unto You
I said no in the kitchen Standing When you tried to put Your lips on mine
I lie on the bed As my ability to move Or even speak leaves me Then here you come And you sit right On top of me
Hands in places They don't belong You lift my limp arm And place it around you As if it's a romantic gesture Or even my choice Then you kiss my lips Despite my no With my eyes closed
My pants are in your way You remove them I lie there Body limp Eyes still closed
I'm able to move An inch out of the way When you try to do The unthinkable thing Not once But three times
So you settle for What you could get Which was everything else As my body was limp
Eyes open just enough To stare my anger Into your soul I know you felt it As you sat between my feet When you were finished with me Relieve yourself then use my sink And then I sleep And then you leave
"Let me walk you home Let me keep you safe Its dangerous out there I wouldn't want you to get *****"
