I want to liberate myself
From the pain you have caused me.
Although, I don’t want to blame you
It’s the sad truth of what you have done.

You left behind a woman
Who would have given you life.
You left behind a woman
Who would have given you a family.

Maybe that woman
Wasn’t what you wanted
At that very exact moment,
But she’s exactly what you’ll need

When you’re growing old and alone.
A woman to hold you, mend you
Love you and care for you.
That woman was me.

Now I’m gone and I no longer exist.

n.n

You tell me you love me
And I want to believe
But how could this be
When everything I do to help you
Seems to punish me?
I'll never be good enough.
I've known this my whole life.
But I thought maybe that changed
The day you made me your wife.
But I'm still alone.
Sitting in an empty house
Waiting for you to come home.
Let's see what we shout about now.

Our love has been broken
And I want to mend it
But every time I try
We just both get defensive.
I'm at a loss
I really don't know what to do.
How can I show you my love
When you don't even want me to?
My heart hurts daily
And I dont share it anymore.
I see the light in your eyes die
As soon as you walk through the door.

If it's me that's stolen your shine
Please tell me
You are the brightest of all the stars
And no one deserves to take that.
Have I been trying too hard?
And I've just made it worse.
I dont want to watch our love fade
Or roll away in a hearse.
I need us to be us again,
For the sake of being in love.
But how do we do that
When we fight so hard to be unloved?

I wait to see you again,
for my heart goes with you,
you are the star of my life,
the dream that I will always wish for it to be true,
Is to marry you.

Please don’t forget,
I love you,
I stand because I love you.
never give up,
never give in,
and wait for me,
baby love.

For every heart bit
of my heart,
I hear your name,
my love for you is strong,
And I will never forget the test of your lips
and your smooth skin.

Your words,
that always tell me ,
I can,
and never to give up.
Baby love
you are the diesel of my life,
You are the wonderful part of my life,
You are the flowers
that makes my life meaning full.
without you am dry,
and better dead,
for I can’t live
without you,

Without you
I will have to give up
all my dreams
for you are the roots of everything.
I can’t sleep without a thought of you,
I can’t smile
without knowing you are safe,
I may be a man
but I need you more than a man needing a woman.

Like a bird
I whisper a melody into your heart, “wait for me”
like a baby
looking into your eye
I find happiness, “smile with me”
like a pillow
I wait for you to sleep on my chest, “am waiting”
like a cloud
I wish to go
Where you go, “till the end”
like a star in the night
I hope you see me. “for I see you”

My love,
My angel,
My sweet heart,
The waves of the ocean
will never stop me from loving you,
The storm and thunder of the day
will never make me
give up waiting for you.

Loneliness burns me like magma in the core,
Missing you freezes me like sleeping in snow,
My voice and my tears
are thunder and rain.

I know the day
will come when
I will sleep beside you,
When I call you my wife,
Baby love.

i am nothing if
not just my mistakes,
with bones.

i will wear a cheap suit
to your dinner party
and hit on your wife
by accident.

sorry.
im just so tired of pretending
id rather just be.
Confident
Sad.
Arrogant.
Alone.

when you are those things
you just are.
and when you want to be
youre just toxic.

i am green.
with poison and absence
of anything someone would call
normal life experience.  
i cant tell *** from tequila
but i will drink them both
if offered.

i thought i found
heaven on the queensway,
it was really just a cable boy,
who wants to make music.

Commitment to another so commonly thrown away.
For what? So you can still live like a college student.
Dedicated years of your life to one person.
Just to decide after making it official.
This wasn't what you wanted.

While one heart is broken and trying to move forward.
You party, dance, drink, take happy selfies.
No one knows what happened.
Just it did.
To someone who did their best to make you happy.

You turn around and throw it back.
You love the center stage.
I wonder if there will be regrets.
I sure do hope so.
When it's too late.