#vulnerable poems on Hello Poetry

Adelina Marie Aug 2014

the game

for months i wondered
what you saw in me,
for i was not perfect nor
was i beautiful like your
exes had been.
but they left you when you
drank and cheated on you as
soon as you fell in love.
i could never dream of
leaving you when you
needed me most.
the dating "game" does not apply to me, for
my relationships are not levels in
a flash 2D scroller.
i date to fall in love and
i fall in love to be able
to breathe again.
i don't smoke, but i'm coughing up
bad experiences like tar.
don't make me regret
leaving my lungs
vulnerable again.

#love #need #relationships #dating #games #smoking #game #vulnerable #lungs

J A M Aug 2014

My Thoughts

I don't mean to inundate you
With the writing of my thoughts
When you're drowning
In you're own
But inside myself
I am vulnerable and delicate
With nowhere to roam
I have endless compassion
And a very sympathetic ear
If you want to talk to me
I am always here.

#thoughts #drowning #vulnerable #ear #sympathetic

Morgyn Harris Aug 2014

Vulnerable

My virginity was stolen from me at the age of fifteen
No longer innocent, just impure and unclean
A few years later, thinking I was in love
I fell easily into him, believing he was the one
Giving him all of me, all the little pieces
Opening up and sharing all my secrets
But I was abandoned once again
Leaving me more broken in the end
Countless nights trying to drink the pain away
What's wrong with me? No one seems to stay
No future anymore, no goals or happy life plans
Just being used and so many one night stands
Vulnerable to anyone who shows me any interest
I please them and then they make themselves so distant
Every night I know I'm being used and then forgotten
But I keep failing myself, falling for lies then feeling rotten
I'm trapped in my past and the ship continues to sail
I want to land on the ground and break free, but all my efforts fail
But still I refuse to give up shining hope
I'm choosing to leave my past and escape this sorrowful *****
This story is one I used to fear to share
But my past no longer defines me for one day it will end a fairytale

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#love #sad #life #hate #happy #story #**** #vulnerable #fairytales

Spencer Dennison Aug 2014

Masks

It's funny how
we, as people,
wear our faces like masks,
and then act surprised
when we don't find someone
who loves us for what is beneath.

I often feel naked
like a sword without a sheathe.
I walk around with my heart
drumming in my temples.
Always being aware of exactly
where my hands are at any given place
at any given time.

There is about as much strength in me
as there is citrus in lime stone.
It's all an illusion.
Because somewhere along the path,
I convinced myself that the strong
don't suffer the same as the weak.
The next thing I learned in life
is that suffering is a language
that we all speak.

So I wore my face like a mask,
brows carved downward into an expression
of barely concealed anger.
I tied my courage into a knot each day
like a kamikaze pilot's headband,
and somehow, in my own clueless way,
acted surprised when nobody bothered to
peel back my mask
and see the scared child within.

#depression #anger #scared #past #strength #vulnerable #vulnerability #therapy #poetic

lX0st Jul 2014

Ironic

They say God is the most important being,
But don't they realize
He's the one
That sends us to Hell?
And don't people understand
That by teaching someone to shoot,
They become vulnerable?
Dramatic irony.
Maybe we should be
More versed in Shakespeare
Than in the Bible.
Maybe then
I wouldn't have so many bullet holes
In my back.

#hell #hurt #beaten #bible #vulnerable #scarred #ironic #irony #shakespeare

NitaAnn Jul 2014

I am unraveling...

I have been unable to cope at night the past couple of weeks. Unable to do anything that resembles healthy.  I am angry and lashing out at everyone I love. The little girl whines and cries; then ****** angry girl lashes out because she cannot take the crying. Then the unfeeling/super independent one screams that she needs NO ONE, and we would all be better off if everyone would just go away! For good!

The torture at night is often unbearable. The little girl cries because it hurts so bad, physically hurts, and it is agonizing and beyond painful. And the terror is real to her and is happening all over again. The apprehension of waiting in the dark, alone and scared...part of her praying he will not come and another part of her wishing he would just hurry up and get it over with so she can go to sleep and escape. Why prolong the inevitable. It is going to happen, so just get it over with! Just do it already!

                                       What does that mean?
  Does that mean she is bad because she was wishing he would do it?
                        Does that mean she wanted him to do it?

And now she is crying. We all hear her. She is scared. Get it over with already! Just do it! It is going to happen so just do it now! She will not stop until someone hurts her. Because that is how it has always been. She cannot fall asleep until it is 'over with'.

So ****** angry girl hates everyone because for awhile she felt safe, and the little girl was safe and promises were made that nobody would hurt her anymore. So why is she hurting now? Nobody can keep her safe anymore. And she does let him hurt her. After promises were made and the little girl believed. Nobody keeps their promises.

I try to tell myself it will be okay. I try to rationalize all the different feelings. I try to get all of these girls to work together as a team, rather than the constant fighting and struggling. But I am not currently strong enough.

                 I am as far from okay as the Earth is from the Sun.

Why does everybody lie? I do not understand. Maybe it is because they think the little girl is bad too. She wanted him to do it. She wished he would do it. She deserved what she got.

I am waiting for someone to tell me that I can let myself feel helpless, vulnerable and that they will not hurt me or let others hurt me.

#helpless #lies #abuse #crying #fighting #vulnerable #hurting #struggling #survivor #unraveling

Unknown Jul 2014

Shields Broken

I built my walls thinking I could never be hurt. I thought I could walk through life never getting hurt but never learning to love. One day you came all sad eyed and broken needing love. I let you in and you blossomed and I blossomed with you. I let you in and I will never let you out.

#love #happy #i #together #to #forever #vulnerable #finally #learned