Tears fall heavier than ever

Each seems to be made of lead

Dense weights holding immense amounts of agony kept in my soul

So I release one by one so I can be light again

"Could you name a shortcoming of yours?"
       and I stutter- I stop
after nights of practice
mindless rehearsing
this should not be the question
that turns me to a boulder
hurls me off the cliff
so I shatter
while bystanders thank their lucky stars they weren't hit
I've named thousands thanks to you
but now
the pain has muted me
"I am shy"
it's a lie

There are a million ways,
A person you love,
Can break your heart.

Don’t say you should’ve took that chance with me years ago-years later down the road.

Don’t ask for my food when I asked you “what you want” & you said nothing in the drive thru.

Don’t come crying to me when you regret not taking that opportunity for yourself to become something great than what you were before.

Don’t reach out for help when we both know you messed up & thought you moved on to something better.

Don’t assume I mess with multiple women as if I’m a player. I know I’m cute, however;  That’s not my style.

Don’t tell me how to run my household. Otherwise step up, put a ring on this finger, & help me pay these bills .

Don’t tell me I sleep a lot. I know that. First of all, I’m going back to sleep.

Don’t call me out of the blue asking how I’m doing when you decided to ghosted me.

Don’t congratulate me when you never supported my dream & thought I couldn’t  do it with very little money.

Don’t speak my accomplishments in a text message when behind closed doors,  you couldn’t do it face-to-face, public, nor on social media.

Don't touch my hair nor my paper

Don't give me excuses. Give me success with a team of young legends that want to build a foundation. No fake people around that cause headaches with bruises

Don’t have me pray for you when you didn’t pray with me at the dinner table.

Don’t ever think you have the upper hand in fighting me. It’s a brutality if you try to cross me.

Don’t tell me how to write when you never picked up a pin & paper. Sitting there countless of hours staring at the wall trying to figure out what to say.

Don’t think you can talk to me any kind of way & think I won’t react to your stupidity. You better watch your tongue.