A lifelong search for love


I have spent a lifetime searching for love;
The only thing I found was a love that was false.
I need another chance to show I am good enough;
I am tired of false love disguised as lust.


I will keep searching for her,
Because she is my destination.
The only one who can save me;
The only one who can take me to Heaven.


I love, love; I need her touch,
But if her love is temporary it will never be enough.
I have done all I could to be the one to give her love;
But she didn’t want it, she didn’t earn it, so she is now gone.


Onto the next search for the next lover in line.
Who knows?  Maybe this time I will find Ms. Right.
If I am lucky in love I could find what I am looking for;
But unfortunately I know this search is long and hard
And it will not happen overnight.


(C)2016 Aa Harvey. All Rights Reserved.

don’t let me leave
don’t let me walk away
because I want to stay
my heart belongs to you

my mouth will shut
my mind will try to forget
I feel they want me dead
with you I have life to live

I tie myself away
I lock the door behind me
I throw away the key
only where you can find it

I only trust your love
I wonder if you will follow
this dark cloud of sorrow
to hold me tight again

the demons will fight
they won’t let go of my hand
they believe me as ******
until your light blinds the room

no one would face them
no one cared to sacrifice
showing me a paradise
that grows behind the clouds

now there’s your silhouette
that I witness in my dreams
that quiets my screams
singing my spirit to rest

when my eyes flutter open
now there’s your smile
inviting me to stay awhile
reminding me my paradise
is one I shall create

It felt like lifetimes ago but I remember everything. I remember you. Mostly how you were always searching for something. Like the first time you placed your head on my chest. How you traced circles on my skin like my heart was saturn, you made me feel like I was the universe.

Cyber Kids R Us!

Your Facebook took over my Myspace..
I had to Tag you on my Tagged Place.
Your so Tagged.
I Googled you and was wide eyed to my surprise..
I found you world wide web styled.
I found you had gleefully Twittered beautifully.
I searched you on Instagram.  
And like dang Peeps on your page going ham.
And on Skype! Your tag line is so hype.
So your on my laptop. Owwee Bop bop!
I can even touch you on Imvu.
So owee baby @Yahoo..
Let me stop Twittering this thing.
Instagram @ Instagram strings.
Its making me google eyed.
Has my Facebook all hooked.
You have places and video's I ain't even looked.
It's like your my new Candy Crush game.
I'm all lit by your social media fame.
Yet I'm the Unheard girl lame.
But I wanna dine in your Cafe
or play on your Poker holdem staff.
Being your follower is such fun.
Add me to your Snapchat.
I'd be so down with that.
I am so here to Comment you've peeked such interest.
Gosh I made you a collection in my Pinterest.
But its a shame how I over looked your Youtube.
I feel a bit *******.
Anywho..
Your such a Gift I need ya to know.
Long as we don't end up on Bill Cunningham show.
we can stay surfing on this web thing anywhere we go.
Oh I'm not a virus...
Just a cyber Kids R Us...

By selinasharday the HeavensRosepoet.
aka Heavens.Ebony.Rose #H.E.R
All rights reserved..S.A.M
if you repost plz post with credits to Author. Me!

Madness


Think of me walking through an empty field…
Staring at the sun, staring into the blue;
Searching for you.
In a sky so empty of anything with such beauty;
This life has no mysteries left to be revealed.


Rain, rain; go away.
Come again another day.
Bring with you her love and I will happily stay;
Come back empty handed and I shall leave you to your happiness
And I will never be seen again.


In a room of broken mirrors, I am happy at last.
Now I can see my mind clearly; it is full of cracks.
There lies my mind; because of the lies, it is shattered.
Chasing madness, chasing memories; chasing pavements.
I have been battered.
Bruised by love again and never truly healed;
I walk amongst the poppies, lost inside this field.


I went out of my mind and found religion;
I guess I needed something I could dive right into.
I wondered if I would ever again be fixed;
Once shy, forever bitten.
A dog barks, a farmer farms and the cow goes moo.


Searching for answers;
Searching for sanity.
Searching for anybody who can help me;
Searching for a remedy.


(C)2016 Aa Harvey. All Rights Reserved.

Marriage


We should go on a date; I won’t be late.
Then you should go drinking with your mates.
Tell them to meet you at eight.
If that night you meet somebody else,
Then you decide you want to be with me,
We could maybe make it last six months,
If we are very lucky.


But if you get drunk and decide I am the one,
That you truly want to be with;
Then I will love you for a lifetime.
Maybe one day would could raise our kids,
To believe in love, just like we did…this time.


I only need one love;
That is all I am searching for.
There are many doors we could go through,
Many choices to make before,
I decide and you decide if we have found the truth.


I wish you all the best with your search;
I hope you find somebody who makes you feel loved.
I sincerely say I want you to be happy;
You uncertainly say, you would like a family, maybe.
I hope you find whatever you are searching for;
I want to find true love with you, for good.
I want a woman I adore.


If you choose me,
Then I choose you too.
The choice is yours…
My choice is,
I do.


(C)2017 Aa Harvey. All Rights Reserved.

Searching


I fly through my mind looking for the perfect picture,
But all the images I create are saved for later.
A memory of a film that does not go with this poem;
A thought about a thing, that does not belong in this verse.
So fast I go through my picture perfect slide-show;
No time to go back and remember her.


Just forwards, onward, towards the right words;
No backward step into the unknown.
Just on through those thoughts that I call the not needed,
The never thought of
And the never known.


A limit of time is controlling my adventure,
So now even faster I advance, seeing pictures inside pictures
And further down into my soul I go,
In search of an image made from the artist inside.
In search of hope in this place I call my mind;
The perfect image I am yet to find...


Throw paper to the floor, run through many a varied door,
The end is my goal; it is what I came here for
And then at last I find what I need…
A typewriter on a table,
A comfortable seat,
In a room without distractions,
I can make use of the pictures I have seen
And as I begin to write, I think to myself…
Was this all just a dream?


(C)2017 Aa Harvey. All Rights Reserved.