Fear is something we run from.
We run so very fast but some people are left behind to be overcome with fear.
I will go back for them and make sure they are all pulled out of their trance.
I will make sure they don't let go of the rope that life is.
I will catch them if they start to fall.
I fight for those who can't or just won't.
I don't give up.
I lie to face my fears.
So if you need to, lie, ******* lie if you have to.
We are not rocks stuck in one place not to move or improve.
We are like the air,
The water.
We flow freely in our own direction.
Don't let people force you one way.
I don't care if you say,
"Oh, they are just saying that."
Or
"That's a lie."
What I am saying is not a lie!
I have been down the road that you are on right now!
There is a light at the end of a tunnel.
That light that guides you at the end of the tunnel is the people who care!
Care!
They
Love
You!
Listen, face your fears don't let them by and lie.
Remember lie if you need too.

What's next, then?
Suicide or Madness?

Observable words
turning in circles
perfectly working
affirmed in impermanence

Serpents within swirls
swerve in the verve
curvature burned irksome
turbidity skinned earnest

Journal pearls quirked
turpentine turbulence
since worries serve nervousness
the cure in spurts of churlishness

if one day u would ever leave me, know that u will always be in my heart.

i won’t forget u like other people do.  i wouldn’t delete the messages and memories we made. pictures we took that once captured happy moments which fade.

u made me happy when i was at my lowest. u fixed the broken pieces.

it was shattered glass but u picked it up with ur bare hands, not being afraid u would be scarred.

thanks for helping me up
thanks for not giving up
thanks for thinking that there was still hope for us

i loved you.

“Lool, maybe I could come whisk you away”
He quipped

Be serious! I’d love to
A date, on a date with you,
Nothing too serious, of course.
Maybe lunch, dinner and discourse.
I’d love to watch you laugh over a meal!

....delete

Well, if you’re serious we could fix
Something. I think I like you and it’d be nice
To meet. Let’s do something, Maybe ice cream?
Rufus and bees? Or a movie?

...delete

“Lool, big head”
... Enter.

“Hehe” – he goes.

This word of wander,
Not as easy to do
As it may be to ponder

One life full of dreams
Another filled with distraction,
Makes it hard to choose teams,
Without choosing destruction

Go where the money is?
And risk losing myself?
Or go with my heart,
My passion,
My desire,
And ask, ‘What if?’

But ‘What if?’ I will ask regardless...

Either path will leave me with wonders-
But which to follow?
If I go with one,
I may become hollow...
If I go with the other,
My bank account may be swallowed...

Can one do both?
Or does authenticity risk fading?

Distraction... Destruction...

Focus. Decide.

To try is to decide.
To know is to have done.
To love is to know.

Do I know what I love?
Do I know what I want?

Try. Decide. Focus.