Mayhem
That is what I can
Describe my nightmares
But this took
The cake
When life long friends talk to
Me
Al the while her child
Was lured away
I couldn’t do anything about
It
Except cry.

Unloved Nightmares
I guess I understand how you can walk past me during the day and act like you're okay. You always felt the need to prove yourself, to look stronger than you were. It's what I admired about you. Yet, you flirt with other girls trying to make me jealous because of what we lost. Well, I am sorry baby. You threw me to the curb. Don't stand there pleading for my love when you were the one who left me in the dirt. I moved on from you and I do miss those little things we would do but, I don't need you boo.

I guess the sun was shining so bright before it made you too blind to see me. Now every night when you close your eyes, those nightmares leave you bleeding. You're wounded, hurt the same way I was. Now it's your turn to understand what it feels like to be unloved.

I have dreams involving ****** lately
Breathing heavy- blankets twisted- mind shaken

Forced to **** in a hyper-reality

Every fear I've ever had vividly reincarnated
All whom I love in these cotton clouds are attacked

It's my consciousness that has me fighting back

Is there something looming in the future?
That's got me- after weeks- aiming loaded guns

In the beginning I would wake up in a sweat
My eyes dripping wet- I'd run my heart beat till I'd awaken to have escaped
Now I kick in glass and chase shadows looming corners

I dont wait and actively search for the disorder

Sweet children snatched from my heavy arms- I push through
Till I'm nearly awake just to break the sleep chains

I dont wanna **** unless I'm asleep

For there reality can easily be just my nightmares

The place no one dares to go
A place filled with only sorrow
In the dark a monster creeps
That haunts you while you're asleep

Your mind is a dangerous place
One too scary to ever face
Don't ever be left all alone
With your mind's evil tone

In the dark depths of your head
While you're asleep in your bed
The creature tears at your brain
Until you're in constant pain

The monster still wreaking havoc
Is not upstairs or in the attic
Remember while you lay in bed
The Boogeyman is in your head

I remember,
The colour of your eyes,
How your smile forms
Or even how your cheeks turn red.

I know,
The sound of your laugh,
The rythm of your breathing
And the music your heart plays.

I know and still remember,
Your dreams and hopes
Scariest nightmares
And craziest thoughts.

How can i not call you home?

Blood stained eyes
Gaze upon innocents sleeping form,
Malevolent intent spoils the promise of blissful slumber.

Beauty immeasurable,
As naive eyes twitch with dreams of purity and grace.

Seething abhorrence guides twisted hands towards violent deeds.

Warm sweet breath exhales from un-kissed lips,
Wet with remembrance and anticipation
Of life’s wonders yet to be lived.

Horrifying screams from now waken eyes,
As an incestuous destruction of one’s self is committed
And the very soul of god is ripped from the now ruined vessel
Of what was once,
Innocent’s sleeping form.

You're the first person I've met
Who doesn't move their arm at night
You pulled me in and closed your eyes
Straight away fell asleep
There are no terrors in your nights
As certain as night brings slumber
The sun will rise again for you

If I could  have a thread of that security
It would be warmer than any blanket
I've wrapped my lonely self in

even sleep no longer provides relief
once a safe haven
from the restless, overactive
thoughts that never
subside
vivid
real
increasingly nightmarish

realism interspersed with subconscious fears
the clever subtlety of imagination
thoroughly intertwined, entangled
veiling the dubious line
no longer distinguishable
between reality?
dreamscape?

awake? or simply a false awakening?

I’m having nightmares in the daylight
An awakened mind is a curse
Eyes closed cause my sight’s better in darkness
But I’m scared to put those visions into free verse.

Like I’m lost somewhere in purgatory
All these demons with angelic faces
Got me late for my date with fate
struggling to stay in God’s good graces

This heart has known so much pain
But a soldier’s war is never over
Got me feeling like Constantine
always looking for death over my shoulder.

I had a choice and I swallowed the red pill
Chased the white rabbit out of the Matrix
But now I’m feeling more like Cypher
Wanting to make a deal with the agents

Because truth is a bitter pill to swallow
and they say that ignorance is bliss
but the breadcrumb trail leads to freedom
and I know there must be more to life than this.

I remember
A nightmare
That I had
Of my doppelgänger
Only she was wearing all black except for the head
She tried to cut me
Up with a kanata
How did I know she was
My doppelgänger
She was also part Tibetan
She looked like me
Exactly
She was my weakness
My fears
And everything dark.