You’ll never truly understand what goes on in my mind
The spiraling that goes on inside
Empty and full all at the same time
When I close my eyes
All I hear are cries
Try to tell you but always stop
Climbing this mountain afraid to find what’s at the top

You’ll never understand what goes on in my brain
The voices that make me go insane
Every day  becoming the same
Can’t remember my name
The cycle continues
Never ending

You’ll understand what goes on behind the mask
The fake smile stuck there like a tack
The voices violent songs
Always on the attack
I try to stay strong
Only to prolong
The day where I will see all my wrongs


You’ll never understand what happens behind my words
To read between the lines
To find that “I’m fine”
Was always a lie
That “I’m okay”
Was just to keep you away

You’ll never understand why I do this
Letting myself get consumed by the abyss
But I have realized there is no way
To keep you at bay forever

dripping on my page
I can't take this pain
my eyes blur
I can't even see the page anymore
and the writing is doubled unrecognizable lines

I want to disappear.

It's easier for me
to die
than to try

but every time someone asks me if I'm fine,
I lie.

You promise her
the moon and the stars
And yet you show her
the thorns and blood

Heavy air and black clouds
Covered the lovely blue sky
Maybe the sky isn't lovely at all,
Just dust , smoke and dirt
Like your rotten heart.

Words old and stale,
Pollutants running through the vein
Not a dint of space , just breath of grief
Rotten world, people rotten
And your rotten heart.

Breath, breath and breath
Till you breath no more
No dream, no hope, no life no lies
No love anymore.

I live , you smile
I die , you'll smile the same
Got no space in your rotten heart
Just a pawn in your game.

Is it following you with eyes?
Or
Is it smiling at your name?
Or
Remaining silent?
Or
Sacrifice?
Or
Lie?