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Unknown Jul 2014
You can say you know me
Every little idiosyncrasy, habit and ritual
That you see me do

You can say you know me
Based on the demographic
Of the people I am with

You can say you know me
Because you have watched me cry
And heard me yell in anger

You can say you know me
Because you gave birth to me
Because you created my existence

But until you can say
"I held you rocked you fed you,
sang to you hugged you loved you"

Then you will never know me
But I know you, mother...
a m a n d a Jun 2014
(this is how i know)


alone
my time
to let it flow
words always
h o v e r i n g
phrases emerging
wanting attention
wanting the ink
the graphite
the 000111
eyes
eyes
eyes
and
brains
brains
brains
not sure how
it gets in me
but aware of its escape
and i could sit here
for the rest of my life
in this breeze
in these greens
*in this flow.
17th Jun 2014
As the stars falls
As we began to fall
The piano starts to play
I want to play you
All the beautiful songs you should know
I want to tell you
All the beautiful things you should know

I like the being cold
And if it's hard to find
I can see it in your eyes

*oh
17th Jun 2014
It's like you're reading my mind
It's like I'm standing there
Next to you
You make me feel like I'm almost dying
You're my favorite left-handed creep
You're wasting my time
You're filling my life with words
Words of things I could never know
You're just ******* with my head
You're just ******* with my mind
You're just ******* with me
That's what I like best about you
I enjoy being destroyed by you
You were almost my lover
You were almost my love
Chalsey Wilder Jun 2014
How are you doing?
Me?
Well if I told you the truth you'd be ready to leave
You, sorry I haven't called
But you never would have answered anyway
You, yeah you
Why don't you call me for once?
Or did I just ignore your number because of its unfamiliarity?
Hm
You should call more often so that I can know it
Send me letters so that I may know your words

Well maybe
Maybe you shouldn't do these things
It'll only make me miss you more
And it'll just make you want to push or run away from me
I don't know what to say...
M Clement Jun 2014
I perused your pictures
I got rid of the one we had.
You knew that.

I do this thing, I realize,
Where I get homesick
For hearts that I thought were similar to mine

If we were really present,
In this reality that we call home,
I'd remember the heartache
the hurt
the harsh words
the pain
the misery
the mixups
the ***
the lackthereof

And I'd remember that the "you" I'm recalling
Is not you,
but in the quaintest reality,
the person I had hoped I was dating.

And I'm at this weird impasse,
staring at your pictures,
Realizing that I'm staring at a person
I never really knew,
and worse,
a person that never knew me.
I guess I feel it should be said that I'm still a ******; just an fyi.
Hannah Anderson May 2014
I wrote a poem for my biography to a special person about Adam, I thought you would like to read it.

Blue Heart

You were 18, so many years in front of you.
It felt like a dark eternity, you didn’t want to go.
I saw it in your sunken eyes.
The vacant stare and sad dark eyes.
I saw when you were sitting around the table prom night.
So much going around but you were too calm
too collected.
too inside your mind for us.
I knew that blank expression from experience
All too well.
You screamed for help
silent and loud
I reached for your hand
but you
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You were poised and calm
Broken but full of love.
All I wanted to do was help you.
you were standing still when the world went on
and it did go on, it did, without you.

When you were standing there at the edge
I wondered about you, all in my head.
We were short lived, a friendship that was fast.
You came, changed me, then you left.
it came and went in a flash.

I knew when no one else could guess.
you put it all on me, didn’t you.
but I was not cross with you.
Heartbroken, yes
scared, yes
alone, yes
mad, no


Your color was blue
Blue heart, blue veins
Blue is the color of our planet
from far far away
we wore it proud it was all for you,
a blue solemn silence.
and the world spun fast and
all the people hurried fast, real fast
and no one ever smiled.

You weren’t all there, in that head of yours.
dark and empty
you were sad but you lived like you would die
tomorrow
tomorrow came too soon and it was up to you.
it was always up to you.

Meeting you was bitter
you put me through stress, anxiety and heartache
you put me through shame and shock
All I wanted was you by my side,
and you there was not.

Meeting you was sweet
you gave me smiles and laughs,
good music and thoughts
you gave me a feeling of friendship and care.
All I wanted was you by my side,
but you were not there.

You were poised and calm,
you rubbed off on me.
I was hyped and excited
you called me “ADHD”


You drove an old red beater with water bottles everywhere,
with **** in the glove compartment.
but you didn’t care.
Your drove with sunglasses and the FM radio loud.
You drove in silence, thinking no doubt.


You loved the sun but you would hike for the shade
when we were together you took me away.
I didn’t think, I didn’t have nerves.
We talked about the world
We talked about life
You had a life you thought you didn’t deserve.

Whoever planted that seed
had some **** nerve
you wrote like me but I wrote for myself
you wrote for us when there’d be nothing else.

I knew when no one else could guess.
you put it all on me, didn’t you.
but I was not mad.
Heartbroken, yes
scared, yes
alone, yes
mad, no


When you were gone
I read
and
I read
i wanted to know exactly when
you felt what you felt.
You called me your jav friend
you called me your angel

You are up there watching over me
I yelled and screamed
I couldn’t breathe.

I shut them out,
I cursed at you.
I hated you
I cried for you


I only see you in my head
Dreaming once and a while of your smile,
of your eyes
but they are never dark
they are never sad
they are never empty
The vacant stare is not there.
your hair is a giant mess
and I freeze that moment right there.


You said you were alone
you said it was a secret
you asked me about my darkest
and you told me all your secrets
I have never been in that much peace knowing I kept you there
It felt like moments when it was hours and you were gone too **** soon.
tomorrow came too fast and it was up to you.
it was always up to you.

Now I wear a band on my wrist
and pray for your peace
that is all I have left,
but you mean so much to me.
I hope you are happy,
I hope your journey has ended
and you found what you wanted
My heart was once broken
but soon if all this is true
it will be mended.
This is about my friend who committed suicide on 5/19/13 the anniversary just passed and I wrote this for english.
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KA May 2014
The sharp point when the Gods line up the planets and the moment of knowing is crystallized forever. Nothing will ever be the same as all changed. The game rules removed as if they never were.
Listen to my voice in your ear.
Fly my love, you have wings.
Ironatmosphere May 2014
Will we know,
When we say goodbye,
That it is goodbye?
Or will it be just like any other day
Saying goodbye
Thinking I know
That I will see your face again
When I won’t
When I’ll never hear your voice again
And you’ll never hear mine
Will we know
When everything we are stops existing?
Will we know?
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