As the bottle kisses my lips,
I tasted the bitterness like the words you told me.
As I look around in this club,
  I was hoping I could still see you again.
As I get drunk in the music, I asked myself,
"How can I erase you for today?"
And as I spend nights with strange faces,
It is still you that I look for in every man that I am with.

Secret.
Lips sealed.
Necking stirringly - hush.
Shadow of a doubt.
Decoy.

I saw that look on your face
I know you're worried
I know you feel bad for me
I don't want that
I don't want you to worry
I didn't want you to know
I never wanted you to know
I don't even do it anymore
You believed my excuse
You worry about what you say to me
I can hear it in your voice
I can see the nervous look in your eyes
I'm glad you pay attention to me
But you're doing it for the wrong reason
I want you to care
But not like this
I want you to be there
But not like this
I want you to love me
But you can't.

That person didn’t hurt you, your own expectations did.

War
with
Words;

you're yelling,
screaming;
it hurts.
This is what I call
a battlefield
creating wounds that may
never
heal.

It’s easy to hurt,
It’s hard to walk away
It’s easy to run
Harder to hide
It’s easy to hate you
Harder to fall in love

These tears are the soundtracks
To my good byes
So why is it
That when I’m crying
Only you can dry my eyes
We’re stronger than love
That’s why it hurts so deep
Eyes wide open
I wish you were next to me
I see you through the screen
And I want to touch your skin
Make you feel everything
You make me feel within
There’s a thin line
Between love and hate
You make me feel those
Every other day
It’ll be easier if you were
Right in front of my face
I guess that’s why we’re so apart
God has given us our fate
I know we’re not perfect
There’s a lot we could work on
We haven’t even finished the first page
There’s a whole volume of books
We still have to work on
I’ve never tried this hard to hold on
It’s always been easier to just leave
But I’m telling you I love us
I have way more tricks up our sleeves
There’s no one in this world I would rather
Work on myself with
You & I have this sudden karma
It’s what makes us go “Click”
I think too far
Instead of right what’s in my face
I always want seconds
Before I finish my first plate

I’ll choose you
Every single time
You are my one and only
You complete our true divine
I don’t wanna work on this
With anybody else
So let’s just bury these problems
And put them on a shelf


Xxxxxx❤️ - I love you