who is it that speaks to you when no one is around
when nothing in the world could ever satisfy a sound
it could be that a single word has lived inside of you
and hid itself from everything, protecting what is true  
we pull ourselves together by ignoring who we are
and look at all the faces we have worn to get this far
but don't you know what happens when you see yourself again
your character remembers who you are when you pretend
it may have taken longer for your senses to respond
than you could e'rve imagined it, the thought of holding on
the only things that matter now be clarity and time
you're given just enough of both to put away your pride

I was supposed to be working on a project
But my mind is adrift
Thinking of you and its logic

Tell me now, what is the denouement
Should I hang on or let it slip
Knowing that this will only take us
Nowhere,
But in circles and disarray

Happiness is
the warm feeling of seeing the one you love after a long time
the uncontrollable laughter you get around your friends
the smell of multiple candles lit at once
singing in the shower, rain, or even your room
a good book
a garden full of flowers
pursuing your goals
sitting under a shady tree in August
worshipping God
cuddling cute animals
holding hands
watching the sunset
watching the sunrise
drinking a cup of tea
traveling the world
Happiness is more than I can describe

Let me hold you here,
in my arms I hold you dear.

Let me kiss you neck,
Peck after adoring peck.

Let my love flow through my words,
make her see you were never hers.

Let me make love to you,
our eternal love sprawling through.

Let me take you into my hands,
Let me kiss you neck,
Let me adore very fiber of your being,
For all those nights we were apart,
Let me hold you closely,
forever here,
All I ask of you is to Let Me...

It should've taken me seconds
To unhook this rusting bracelet
It should've taken me seconds
To just take it off and let it go

But instead I took hours

Hours fiddling,
Trying
So desperately
To free myself from its grasp
Itching to get it off
Restless,
I sit, tugging
On the charms weighing me
Down by each passing second

I don't understand
It should've taken me seconds

But instead I took days

Days choking
On the charms that used to be
My wrist is scratched, broken
My hands are red, tired
Eyes focused and
Mind set
On letting go
of the one thing pulling me down

I want it off

So why
Why can't I do it

I don't understand
It should have taken me seconds

My chipped nails dig into your hand
and I say I'm sorry
but you tell me not to apologize
you tell me I can hold your hand as hard as I need to
you tell me it doesn’t hurt to feel loved like that

A promise not kept.
Why did I let you fall?

Miss you too,
But let me go!

I am so sorry my Love, so sorry as not saying goodbye.
You have waited so long for me,

If I knew, you loved me so,
I would have given your hand away,
Instead of holding on so tightly in the end!
To another who needed your strength.

Why I was so selfish? I did do not understand.

Why did I let you fall my friend?

I wish I lifted you back up to stand.

Now that you are coming to the end of the road of life,
Stop crying your tears for me,

We will soon be two souls let free!

Spend your last days,
enjoying life.

Stop crying for me,
There Is no true Love without jealousy.

Find someone to Love,
To set your soul free...

© 2014 Ronald J Chapman All Rights Reserved.

maybe one day
i won't have to wait for a call
glancing at the clock
as empty seconds pass by
because you'll be calling me
from the kitchen instead

maybe one day
i won't have to wonder
what our hands would feel like
intertwined
because we'd be too busy
not letting go

i'm still waiting for the day
that i won't have to write
poems about missing you,
wondering if you still love me
because you'll be lying next to me
whispering the hundreds of reasons
why you do