When the lights go out
The shadows start closing in on me
The dreams become real

Looking into the pitch darkness
What do you see?
Hidden forest animals
Lurking around
The trees dancing in the wind

Tangled vines hiding
The lost spirits and ghosts that kiss
In the moonlight

Walking deeper into the forest
It becomes darker
The fog thicker
The woods quiet

A woman can be seen from the distance
Who was once fair is now rotten
Smell of roses to garbage smells
Pretty purple dress to mildew-covered dress
Glimmering green eyes to pitch black eyes

She kisses my forehead leaving a trail of dirt
She puts her finger to her lips
Blink
She's gone
I'm awake

When the lights go out
The shadows start closing in on me
The dreams become real once more

hello.
my name is Catherine but I go by cat.
I make videos, and help out a lot with audio for others,
but I have never recorder one of my own poems.
So, this sounds kinda odd,
But I'd love it if someone could maybe help me find a few good poems,
That I wrote,
To record and upload.
Just audio for now,
I'd also be very open to those ideas for an actual video to go with it,
but I'd like for people to of helped from this site,
And I'll give credit-shout outs,
to everyone who helped,
even in a little way.
Thank you.
-Cat c: :3

Walls
Askilter

Sounds
Linger

Voices
Whisper

Lights
Flicker

Mi­ce
Skitter

Snakes
Slither

And somewhere
Nearby

A monster lurks.

Dear monster underneath my bed,
You scare me
Even though you're dead.

And though a lurking ghost you be,
My horrid monster
You scare me.

You found me awake but asleep on the bathroom floor.
Strung out.
Blood filling the tub with bright red.
The sinks over flowing causing an ocean to form
From head to toe.
I was breathing just fine sunken under
Because my brain has already deteriorated to nothing.
And my bones are like chalk.
Write a sentence about
why the willow tree looked so sad.
You said that it's hard to keep your head up in a constant down pour, which I didn't understand until now.
And Sometimes I wonder if your touch is merely my Imagination pulling a facade on me.
But when I look down there's a hand print that screams your name in my face.
Screams words of false hope that I know already.
I'll fold myself into a square.
Place this figure in a box unknown and burry it 6 feet under.
A place to hide away from the rain.

There's a giant gaping hole in my life.
I don't know where it came from.
I don't know how to fill it.
I drink myself stupid and smoke myself to sleep.
Cigarettes fill my lungs but my heart is missing a beat.
At first I thought it was you but it isn't.
I want to text someone.
Say something! For the love of god please. Please say something
I can't find the number.
I can't find the name.
I don't know what's missing.
How can I miss something so much and have no idea what it is.
Help me. I need someone to help me.
I'm scared that I'll forever be incomplete.
Searching for the missing piece that I had.
That I didn't even know I lost.
What am I missing?
*What am I missing?

Regretting Some Past Mistakes
Realizing what's actually At stake
Feeling so helpless and confused
So many memories of your abuse
Screaming, kicking, punching
Just too much fighting
You always knew the best ways to hurt me
Now you wanna take away what means everything
Like your final play to torture me
For eternity
What right do you have to judge me?
To look down upon me?
I am only all that you've made of me
This so called monster that you love to hate
Is just the manifestation of what you helped create
You WILL regret this
In the end, you will lose
I won't let you win, not again
They'll realize what you're trying to do
Remembering the years of abuse
And they'll HATE you
You can never destroy a mother's love
Although I know you're willing to try
When I win this battle for what I hold dear
Don't come crawling to me with tears in your eyes
Cause I won't be here

She fell in love with her best friend
Crazy i know,
But she couldn't help it
He fell for her too
She literally fell for him,
She dropped the wall she built around herself
And he watched her open up
Then left her with her walls down
And her heart on her sleeve.
While building her walls back up
He had the audacity to come back
He begged for her
She being the stubborn in love girl she was.
Believed him
Her walls came tumbling down.
He left again
She fell again
He came back again
She opened up again
He left again
Soon enough she shut herself down
She never caved in
She WAS in love with her "best friend"
Claims she moved on, she did for a little
While he tells her all about his new crush
She remembers everything
She watches his eyes sparkle
And soon enough she built a whole
Barricade around herself.

I'm sorry
I'm weak.
I'm sorry.
I'm incomplete.
I'm sorry.
I can't do it.
I'm sorry.
This life doesn't fit.
I'm sorry.
This is goodbye.
I'm sorry
But I'm committing suicide.
I'm sorry.
This is my note.
I'm sorry,
Promise me you won't.
Be strong,
For me.
You're going places,
But my life ends....
Here.

I might have took the wrong way
There were no signs on display
This path didn't look any different than the other
So how could I have taken the wrong path way ?
You were there in the intersection
You were going to guide me through,
Somehow I lost you and I now there's no path to choose
I have to keep walking as the path closes behind me
Where am I going ?
When will I be able to choose my way? I can only see an eternity
I can only feel me
I can only hear my heart pounding