here i am
so fricking irritated
i cant get on
and i just want to play
so mojang LET ME ON
let me get on some server
or create my own world
i just want to build stuff
thank you
also if you have minecraft
and no longer play
please give me your account
thank you again
this is my rant for today
i know it isnt a poem

All the little turning wheels

Following the dotted lines

in a rush to get to cubicles

To type on tiny keys

Is it really logical

To see a meaning in it all

Isn't it worth so much more to be leaves

Upon trees

It made me bulletproof

Seeing you so aloof

And I'm trying not to take it so **** personally

And every-time I think it's clear

And we've risen past this atmosphere

You turn around & flip the script on me

You're far from near

Choose your words carefully before you begin

Standing watching the dripping tap over an empty sink

We are a beautiful crime scene.

when the day begins i taste salt
dreams turned into nightmares
can't tell between reality and sleep
at this point it's hard to care

misery is my loyal companion but
there's worry it's all in my mind
to feel all this but chaotic and wrong
don't want to accept that maybe i'm fine

saying i'm okay doesn't help
cause and effect can't be traced
so many variables of what could be bad
my own self is hard to face

the girl in the mirror is me but not
i barely recognize details
what if this is all my fault
how did i become so frail

in just one day
i think about so much
that i really
dont have time
to think at all.

I feel like a trinket
Put up on a shelf
Only to be admired
You can only look
But please it's not a toy
Only taken down
for a minute or two
Then back to the shelf I go
You can't imagine
the thoughts or the feelings
I may have
It's easier to just put me on a shelf
How is this better
Why am, I not to be enjoyed
I know quite alot
I got a great sense of humor
But this isn't funny
Now ya got me feeling like a trinket
Can't tell me it's ok
I just can't live this way
Sitting on a shelf
This I cannot do
© Jennifer Delong 9/28/18