Wake wake wake wake wake
confront confront confront confront
talk talk talk
ask ask
ponder

Wake wake wake wake wake
beg beg beg beg
think think think
contemplate contemplate
act

Wake wake wake wake wake
decide decide decide decide
tie tie tie
write write
regret

Nothing fills the curvature of my hand
like the cheek of that which
I poured all of my blandness
into.
For i know not the taste of my own heart
but take word
and believe that those who say it is
pure and simple and
unsociable
are right.
I don’t know what
i don’t know
so teach me
Take me and show me what it is
that your unsure and tense heart
wants from mine.
I don’t know anything except for
that i am yours
and You
are mine
I will tell you yes
and that your character’s nature is a bitter-
sweet coffee and my tongue will
pick out your saccharine
love

How?
How do I rise each morning?
How do I smile each day?
How do you not see I've died?

How can I love her?
How can I smile at her?
How? When its all empty emotions?

How Can I be this manipulative?
How can I be Full when I know nothing of myself?
How can I smile, when I know not how to love myself?

How can I?
Can you tell me?
Please?

If I beg?
Out of desperation would you pity me?
Help me live, Help me smile with true happiness

Hold me in your arms and just whisper
No sound just the sound of the candle flicker
It feels different this time
I don't feel like you're really mine

'I Love You' is just a big lie
You just want to see me beg and cry
I used to think it was fine
Until you took all my might and shine

You heard it through the grape vine
That I wasn't loyal
But it wasn't me this time
I can definitely see the signs

Teach me how to Kneel
Teach me discipline
Embarrassment.

Teach me martyrdom
tell me it means Nothing.

You can't be a martyr
if you only die
for yourself
you're not a god.

Tell Me I'm not a god
Tell me with your fists
with your spit.
your boot.

Teach me submission
take my pride in your palm
torture it until I am human.

Teach me guilt
Teach me ownership
of my sins. of myself
hold my chains
I need them like fire
needs water
reduce me to embers
when you start to boil
The bubbles are how I know
I've gone too high

I love watching your bubbles trickle in slowly
how quickly they spill over the lip of the kettle

Teach me with boiling water
Teach me with fire
teach me with fear.

I want to beg for it.
Please, make me beg for it.
my life.

if you make me beg for it.
I might want it again.

-Lyrix (BluJazz)

Just to touch your emotions
Just to know how you feel
Just to touch your emotions
Baby I'd beg I'd lie I'd steal
Baby I'd beg I'd lie I'd steal

Just to get some reaction
a little more closer I sigh
Just to get some reaction
Baby I'd love to see you smile
Baby I'd love to see you smile

Still I see you slippin'
Oh I see you slippin'
I see you slippin'  
away from me
I know that you
been slippin'
Oh I see you slippin'
I see you slippin'
away from me
There's no more laughter
only tears

Telephone is ringing
is there someone at all
When you answer
your screaming
I simply wanted to call
I simply wanted to call

Just remembered devotion
Just been thinkin' it through
Just remembered devotion
Whatever happened to you?
Whatever happened to you.

Still I see you slippin'
Oh I see you slippin'
I see you slippin'
away from me
I know that you
been slippin'
Oh I see you slippin'
I see you slippin'
away from me
There's no more laughter
only tears

Just to touch your emotions
Just to know how you feel
Just to touch your emotions
Baby I'd beg I'd lie I'd steal
Baby I'd beg I'd lie I'd steal

Baby I'd beg... I'd lie... I'd steal

-R.

(86)
-D