I smoke weed just like you.
Money gives me greed just like you.
Cocaine makes me wonder just like you.
My parents kicked me out when i was 17 just like you.
I died inside when i turned 13 just like you.
I saw life for what it was a 7 just like you.
I want to die everyday just like you.
I think about killing myself just ljke you.
I don't like money just like you.
I love the moon just like you.
I love the idea of love just like you.
Most important im not alone, just like you.

For everyone younger than my 23 years that's ready to go i feel your pain.
Jose H Oct 29

Is it left?
Is it right?
Is it there among the trees of oak?
Is it before the crystal waters of the sea?

Please madam is it among the country road?
Is it there? Among the safeguard of the lighthouse?
Is it here where I stand?
Here? Am I to be lost in this center of blindness?
Center of confusion?

It must be among light
Doomed among demons?
Here among the darkest center of earth?
Why this treacherous land?

Among the ashes of once beautiful land
dwelling upon the light of life
A simple sight lost from these clouded eyes
Doomed to die upon the familiar sadness this cage holds.

Sometimes the spot you're in sucks and there just isn't a way out.
Jose H Oct 24

I held the whip.
I smiled upon my prey
Chained in front of me
Wishing I did not exist
Whipping them mercilessly
With lies
Empty promises
It was fun in the past

I see my errors
The poor people i have hurt
Staring upon myself
Seeing only scars that i left others
Wishing I could simply turn the world around

Now the time has come
Chained to the ground
Beaten mercilessly
With a whip crafted of false love
Held by my "true love"

Blinded by "true love"
Pain never entered my mind
But it cannot deceive my eye.
Chained, I will find my way
To escape these shackles
My "true love" will not hold me in the abuse of false love.

Jose H Oct 21

How do I rise each morning?
How do I smile each day?
How do you not see I've died?

How can I love her?
How can I smile at her?
How? When its all empty emotions?

How Can I be this manipulative?
How can I be Full when I know nothing of myself?
How can I smile, when I know not how to love myself?

How can I?
Can you tell me?

If I beg?
Out of desperation would you pity me?
Help me live, Help me smile with true happiness

Jose H Oct 18

In the summer nights
The owls see the world
The world, the simple eye can not
In simple eyes
Vision is distorted
Wrinkles of reality
Lines of insanity
All that the simple eye can not
With simple eyes
Reality is within the visionless.

Take it for what it is,  trust what you can't see. What's right in front of you could be a lie
  Oct 16 Jose H

Hold my hand
Or burn it completely before leaving it again

Kiss my lips
Or sew them forever before kissing someone else again

Take me in your arms
Or bind me with chains before walking away again

Look into my eyes
Or blindfold them before disappearing again

Wipe my tears
Or turn me emotionless before breaking my heart again

Give me some more memories
Or erase them completely before waving goodbye again

Let me live in your heart
Or don't let me live, kill me before murdering my soul again

Kill me when you decide to leave the next time
Because I will live with you or never live again.....

  Sep 29 Jose H

I saw you in winter,
and thought of tree branches feathered by starlight in poorly lit neighborhoods. A hearth where the more honest parts of myself, I am bared fetal, warmed upon, welcomed.

I saw you in spring,
and thought of long drives in the countryside in the rain. Ice cream melting from our chins dancing petrichor upon our toes, kissing by the sea shore.

I saw you in summer,
and thought of sleepy boathouses, uncovering ancient childhood treasures in the woods. A secret lake somewhere, the sky's reflection in promise, windy hilltops upon which to blame each other for the sunrise.

I saw you in autumn,
and thought of scarfs and cafes, city streets and sunsets where we watched each others breath escape. Apartment staircases where windchill hibernates, the world slowing down around us from your window.

The first time I saw You, I thought to myself, "I could live there."

Next page