Just a second
A simple drop of rain
The drop of a grain of sand
The blink of an eye
There is nothing quicker
Metal cold as death
Sound of stampede in the chest
The sweet release
Nothing faster than death
Death at the pull of a trigger
Free myself from the burdens of life
If only simple were oh so easy.
I saw you in fall
Red shirt, black leggings and black shoes
I saw you in winter
Black sweater, blue jeans and black shoes
No matter when i saw you, you smiled
A beautiful crystal smile
No matter the night i can always hear your voice
No matter the situation, I always smile at your laugh
No matter what
I can say, a kiss was always just a kiss
Till the day I kissed you.
Till the day you deceived
The day you used
The day I hung my head in shame
Till the day I kissed you, became the most regretable day.
It was the first
Love was in the air
The sensation of her creamy
pressed against my own
Body to body
Heart to heart
I love her with all I can
I'd give life away for her if I
oh the sensation so blissful
The sensation so inviting
It was our first
It was the first I could not enjoy
All for the words
No strings attached...
I smoke weed just like you.
Money gives me greed just like you.
Cocaine makes me wonder just like you.
My parents kicked me out when i was 17 just like you.
I died inside when i turned 13 just like you.
I saw life for what it was a 7 just like you.
I want to die everyday just like you.
I think about killing myself just ljke you.
I don't like money just like you.
I love the moon just like you.
I love the idea of love just like you.
Most important im not alone, just like you.
Is it left?
Is it right?
Is it there among the trees of oak?
Is it before the crystal waters of the sea?
Please madam is it among the country road?
Is it there? Among the safeguard of the lighthouse?
Is it here where I stand?
Here? Am I to be lost in this center of blindness?
Center of confusion?
It must be among light
Doomed among demons?
Here among the darkest center of earth?
Why this treacherous land?
Among the ashes of once beautiful land
dwelling upon the light of life
A simple sight lost from these clouded eyes
Doomed to die upon the familiar sadness this cage holds.
I held the whip.
I smiled upon my prey
Chained in front of me
Wishing I did not exist
Whipping them mercilessly
It was fun in the past
I see my errors
The poor people i have hurt
Staring upon myself
Seeing only scars that i left others
Wishing I could simply turn the world around
Now the time has come
Chained to the ground
With a whip crafted of false love
Held by my "true love"
Blinded by "true love"
Pain never entered my mind
But it cannot deceive my eye.
Chained, I will find my way
To escape these shackles
My "true love" will not hold me in the abuse of false love.
How do I rise each morning?
How do I smile each day?
How do you not see I've died?
How can I love her?
How can I smile at her?
How? When its all empty emotions?
How Can I be this manipulative?
How can I be Full when I know nothing of myself?
How can I smile, when I know not how to love myself?
How can I?
Can you tell me?
If I beg?
Out of desperation would you pity me?
Help me live, Help me smile with true happiness