If you felt it too , why didn't you speak ? Did you feel scared ? was it just me who panicked ? Perhaps you'd gotten so good at hiding it , that by the end it meant nothing , a deep fear , a confusion unknown .
If you felt it too , you should've spoke . Made me see what you felt , no matter how intense , I would've understood , perhaps even agreed . But now it's too late and the feelings are fading .
You know... sometimes I just want to be understood. But most of the time I'm ignored and misunderstood. I just want people to read me like an open book, maybe its because I'm prideful, but I end up keeping it all to myself. I'm so doubtful of the people around me, I call you friend but I question if its OK to open up to you.. friend. Too many shattered friendships, broken trust and broken hearts. A life where relationships are turmoil, when things are falling apart, I know other things are falling into place. Sometimes you just need space to figure things out you know? But stay too long and it can be self destructive, emotionally and physically. People say I shouldn't worry about the past, but that's where I learnt the most valuable lessons and sadly, a lot of people take that for granted. Blood stained history built what has become our destiny now. Good or bad, I'm just glad to look back and appreciate what I know now. If someone opens up to you, just know that you have earned their respect. Appreciate every aspect of it, because once you lose it, it could be gone forever.
A productive day I went to a film screening Fun, but I'm so drained
I'm so fricking tired right now. And I gotta be in early tomorrow. Well, I'm off to bed! Thank you so much for 237 followers! Im sorry I'm so inactive, the course is so demanding. As the weeks go, its getting harder and harder...I really appreciate it though! Be back soon! Lyn ***