Apparently


Apparently, I’m a woman’s man.  Apparently…
Apparently, I was her man.  Apparently…
Apparently, she gave a ****.  Apparently…
Apparently, I was her only man.  Apparently…


Apparently, we were in love.  Apparently…
Apparently, she didn’t touch other drugs.  Apparently…
Apparently, she was meant to be for real.  Apparently…
Apparently, I was good enough.  Apparently…


Apparently, she wasn’t a ****.  Apparently…
Apparently, she was good enough.  Apparently…
Apparently, she was beautiful.  Apparently…
Apparently, she was my girl.  Apparently…


Apparently, she wept real tears.  Apparently…
Apparently, we were going to be together for years.  Apparently…
Apparently, I should still give a ****.  Apparently…
Apparently, I never did.  Apparently…


Apparently, is just for me.  Apparently…
Apparently, is there for everyone to see.  Apparently…
Apparently, I loved you.  Apparently…
Apparently, you loved me too.  Apparently…

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The land that lies


Happy dancer, singing songs,
Knowing that the end will come;
But which is the end and which new beginnings?
Waiting on the end of the beginning, is this the beginning?
This all started a long, long time ago,
When I thought I was winning, but now I know.


Remove the light from around her;
It has no use in being my magnet.
Turn the music off, for I am empty
And she could only ever be tragic.
Dancing alone at the end of the night,
Crying in the morning as I lie.
She is only looking lost,
Whilst I am truly falling.
She has never even seen me,
She has not heard me calling.
She has never truly been searched for,
For I have no power to remove my walls.


Sad boy blues with water eyes,
Stares at happy dancer with such despise.
His dead eyes reveal no fury;
The hate is hidden, His jealousy forbidden,
But never silent, truly.


Maiden calling, watches them both and laughs.
She lives in her bubble head as she lies her way to bed
And all that she knows could be contained in a small paper bag.
Her mind could be printed onto the tiniest part of a pinhead,
If only she could remember to not forget;
Maybe she could be more than the worthless words never said.


These are the people at the bottom of the barrel.
Three for the price of none.
Take them and all those singing without knowing of Axl.
Take this rose to free my hands for the gun.
All these people seen through drunken eyes,
Bloodshot eyes see fools in disguise.
All that is left in this pit at night,
Is calling cards and fake profiles,
Lists of idiots with studied lies.
Unknown numbers for adulterous wives
And I am so tired…
I am so very tired.
So tired of people with crocodile cries in the night,
Over people who do not even matter,
So why do I lie?


Suicide is not a surprise when the truth is seen at last.
I have lived in your land of lies
And still you wonder why there is no turning back?
Once choice is made, love is no longer your slave,
For the beast has been released and is free.
Free to leave you behind, free to fly,
Free to find a place to hide
And when I am found there is no more left to say.
What more needs to be said to someone who walked away?


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Addiction


Looked down upon and thought less of;
Truthfully I couldn’t give a ****.
Just give me the drugs and some inspiration;
I need a little intoxication.


Pour disease into my throat,
Let me have some alcohol.
Cleanse me of this demon inside,
Give me heart shaped drugs before I die.


Feed your addiction, have a smoke;
Nicotine, this stuff is no joke.
It’s deadly, it’s toxic, it will **** you for sure.
Yeah for sure, I believe you, come on man, I need it for this joint.


I don’t snort coke but I do, do lines;
I only inject to pass the time.
I’ve never actually been high;
Sorry, that was a blatant lie.


I need it to tell you, how I feel when I see you;
You’re beau…, ******* it, I can’t speak to you right now.
To hold you, to kiss you, to love you, to miss you.
I need to take an overdose, of tender loving care.


But I cannot tell you, for I am cursed by another;
Maybe a former lover, or a cheat and their lover.
Brain malfunction, mind destruction,
Conscious thoughts mixed by a subliminal corruption.


You paid the price for their life of vice;
Your divorced wife and fatherless child.
The boy on drugs, who came to no good,
Met a sticky end, when getting wasted with his friends.


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Black Widow Spider.


Secrete your deceit, like a Black Widow Spider,
But I shall not become the husband you devour.
Your web I shall not become entombed in.
I have no wish to be mummified;
Do not try to keep me.


For you are wrong,
If you believe you are worthy of my love.
You’ve clearly become deranged, because of the drugs.
You’ve never even tried, to give me true love
And now I’ve simply had enough.


For my heart is huge and my love is endless,
Whilst your love is only ever temporary
And every promise you’ve made, you’ve broken it.


You say you’re flirtatious, you’re no longer a man eater,
But you sleep with any man who comes onto you
And you expect us to still be together?


Leave me now; go find all the ****** partners you want.
I shall go in search of my true love.
You can let them use your body, whilst you’re still young and easy,
But I need a woman, who is mature enough to get married.


She and I will have lots of ***, plus love and devotion,
Understanding, honesty, showing true emotions,
A closeness, a fondness, completely knowing each other,
Someone to hold hands with, someone to truly explore,
In every way imaginable.


And you my Black Widow Spider?
Well, occasionally you’ll go and get ******.


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The Broken Heart Club.


I came to see you yesterday;
There were drunken degenerates outside your place.
I got nervous, I'm afraid to say;
I'll come back tomorrow and try again.


I had an epiphany, a realisation;
Why must I struggle to come see you?
Why can't we change the situation?
What do you say, shall we live together?
Stay together as one person, forever and ever?


I love you completely, I'm infatuated,
Please tell me you feel the same way,
I don't want to feel deflated.
Let down by you, the one person that shouldn't;
Because our love is eternal, I'd still want you even if I couldn't.


I want to hold you in my arms, knowing you truly love me;
Because I'm obsessed by your beauty and personality.
Head over heels, wearing rose tinted glasses.
We could teach lessons to students, 'The How to Love' classes.


Wedded in white, the ****** bride;
Not in today’s society, they lose it as a child.
Make a promise to each other to stay together;
Until death does us part; or you’re bored of each other.


I'd like you to meet my Wife; oh you met her last week?
Yeah, she was stripping in that club,
She's got a nice pair of (Bleep).
Sorry didn't you know, that your girl is a **?
The boys down the pub have all had a go.


Walk away and I stumble, I need your belief;
You take away my breath, I need an Iron Lung to breathe.
Everyone comes and goes, but no-one really knows.
When you found me, I looked deep inside, at a picture of my soul.
There was a picture of me smiling, I felt good inside;
But the truth will out and now my heart has just died.


You’re getting too close, get out of my bubble,
What is this love thing?  Why does it cause so much trouble?
Your love is a hemorrhage; it's bad to the taste.
I gave you my heart and my soul.  Oh my dear, what a waste.
You threw it in the bin, like it was yesterday’s news;
As you met the man you loved, who would have knew?


I really didn't, I stupidly thought you loved me;
I must really be a loser, for I lost all I need.
You my love, you were the one for me.
But true love?  Now I'm not so sure; I no longer believe.


We were happy once, before all this happened.
You loved me once, before you loved him.
But why did you marry me and then do something like this?
I will always love you dearly;
Yet at the same time know you’re a *****.


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What I love


Your soul is within your eyes.
The colour, the pupil, the lens to focus the light.  
Your visions are put together like a family photograph.
Click!  You stole my soul through your camera lens.
Give it back!  


I’m no Demon;
I am Human-e, that is for certain,
Because if I had the power to change the world for the better,
We would all live in paradise, forever and ever.


I would make every Human marry their equal
And a self-destruction button would be activated,
If they were ever unfaithful.
Spontaneous combustions like stars falling to the ground.
Everyone is guilty; everybody cheats love if they are fooling around.
So I would be the last man standing,
Before you my love, speaking the truth; being genuine.


Please accept that you are all that I need.
If at the moment you feel differently,
It doesn’t mean you should just ignore my true feelings.


Yes it is possible someone loves more than you do.
No it is impossible for me to cheat on you.


Leave you I will, if I think you have strayed.
Wait for proof?  Never again.
Drove me insane, it did for sure;
So I cannot be your *****.
Use another body; anybody.
Just please do not use mine.
My broken heart stares up sadly, at my broken mind.


My soul is shattered!
I…
I love…
I love y…

It doesn’t matter…

…what I love.


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1+2 does not mean free.


Why must beauty already be gone?
Why must love be a sad, sad song?
Why do I keep on falling for the wrong one?
Why did I not meet you, before you tried that ring on?


Love is stupendous!  And stupidly stupid.
Thanks a lot Cupid, look who you stuck me with.
Did you miss-fire or was this all planned?
Stupid Cupid, stupid arrow,
Stuck through the one who already has a man.


Narrow boats float side by side,
Along the river and into the blue.
Pictures painted from the bank only ever show two,
But under the clock more are seen,
And the one that was one, hopefully to become two,
Was eventually seen to be only a possibility of three.


Water shore, climb out of bed,
Forget the thoughts of dread that leave me dead.
Inside no heartbeat; beating myself up.
Another drug gone; lost to love.


A rainbow shone from inside those eyes,
And those lips they spoke of heat;
But worthless was the truth, which stood in front of the lies,
Because they have already met someone to love
And I have no interest in becoming a three.


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Promises made by mortal man
Are rarely met by mortal hand
For though they strive to win your heart
Such passions land far from their start

They'll paint, so clear, a future bliss
And draw you in with blinding kiss
But just when you have bought the dream
Man finds pursuits more worthy to deem

Ambition, sport and other girls
Whose flattering words and smiles like pearls
Will tempt a fellow to leave his nest
And lie upon another's breast

'Tis pain so sharp you think you'll die
And tears aren't found enough to cry
A torture rack would be better friend
With all its tearing limb to limb

To have your innards disemboweled
Or face the fiercest lion's growl
Would be kinder punishment than this
From one who knew your ****** kiss

And yet within this darkest night
A hint of moonbeam's softest light
Might rise upon such blistered soul
And shine into its gaping hole

For romance still may spark a flame
And whisper to your heart by name
To woo you in your bleakest hour
With promises of healing power

Promises unlike the others you've known
Whose good intentions were quickly thrown
Away by the frailty of human flesh
When sin's entanglements did enmesh

No, this One's words are wholly sure
His heart and mind and will are pure
His faithfulness cannot be shaken
Nor His covenant love ever be taken

He chose you before He made the sun
And said to the Father, "I want that one!"
He searched you out through all your years
Through all your joys and pains and fears

And now He waits for you to grasp
That deepest pleasure lies in His clasp
That His own kiss brings highest delight
That His face is eye's sweetest sight

It's He alone Who can fill you up
And saturate your empty cup
When life has left you hollow and dry
And numb to further wish to try

When memories lie tarnished with stains
And not one worthy dream remains
He reaches in with perfect hope
That pulls you up like saving rope

And as He wipes tears from your eyes
He says to you: I am the Prize!
Take hold of Me and drink My love
Come sit with Me in realms above

For I have blessings prepared for you
That you've never imagined, but oh it's true
I long to give you all of Me
To draw you close and let you see

That in your pain you know Me best
That heart's rejection finds its rest
In this sweet fellowship of intimacy
Where you are made to look like Me

I'll give you love like you've not known
Enough to see your will o'erthrown
Enough to pour it out upon
That very one who did you wrong

For that one, too, knows thirst of soul
And needs My love to fill the hole
Which, though he's tried hard to ignore,
Pleads, "More and more and more and more!"

But if he never should respond
Still, that pure love will seal the bond
That ties you to My own heartbeat
For then you'll see My love complete

For though the world resists Me still
I love them fiercely and always will
I've known rejection like no other
From bride and kindred and friend and brother

And when you love through hate and scorn
A jewel within your heart is born
For then you glimpse My own heart's breaking
And learn My secrets of rarest taking

To rejoice in the face of bitter spite
Requires sure death but will invite
Your soul to dance in gardens of bliss
Where you will know My Lover's kiss

So come and dance with Me, make haste
There's no spare moment left to waste
Abundant life waits through this door
With thrills and pleasures evermore!