That day,
we were riding
in the same old wreckage of a car
that you wouldn't change
because it reminded you of some actress you used to like.
you told me I look like her.
I never liked to be compared to, you knew that
you knew so much about me
that you could shatter
my existence,
but you never did that,
instead, you loved me.
And the next time we met
you came in a new car.
We went to the same places
talked about the same things
but today, you didn't compare me to anyone.
today you accepted me
as I am.

Is she like Calypso
in The Camomile Lawn,
knelt down and speechless
by the fire, resembling
Jennifer Ehle so closely,
as the camera lingers
at her being naked as a jaybird,
and quite comely at that?

Or is she perhaps
more like Felicitas
in Flesh and the Devil,
a dead ringer for Greta Garbo,
who brazenly encouraged
illicit love and rivalry, only
to go quietly by falling
through thin ice?

Sometimes the siren's call
is more a winsome variation
in its silence.

Jenna was a seasoned actress.
She never put a fight with colleges or directors.
And fans, they lusted after her,
but she was always kind to pushy faces.
Jenna was well-balanced.

Jenna was a diligent Christian.
In the XXI century, she prayed for the good of every citizen.
She never missed a single mass.
She gave money to dirt poor lads,
and she was a volunteer for UVN.
She was magnanimous and principled.

Jenna was a loving mother.
For breakfast, she cooked bacon and brownies.
Her 20-year-old daughter Kate was still afraid
to go out without permission.
Kate wore classy clothes, but she loved Metallica.
Jenna was noble, and she couldn't allow Kate to have a punk attire.

Jenna was a happy woman.
She took her vitamins every noon.
She loved taking long strolls along the river.
That Friday, she had a script and a Bible in her purse.
Jenna stopped by the stone railing,
and feverishly threw the purse into the stony water.

She was very young when she was shot and killed by Robert John Bardo.
She starred in 'One Life To Live' and 'My Sister Sam' over 30 years ago.
Bardo had stalked Rebecca for three years and tragically ended her life with his gun.
Fans were forced to say goodbye to this great actress who died at the age of twenty-one.

Hours alone, living small
in a hotel room
without dying

going crazy or
staying behind
alone forever

like hell and purgatory
in the evening
on the stage

I do miss my children here
beside me on the bed, my love
my life without drama

without the decisive end
from which the audience wants to learn
to understand what life is