I’m in free fall
With my feelings
Letting my emotions run amok

When I think about you
I can’t help myself to wonder
If you’ll ever love me back

I tried so hard to open up to you
I know none of it was ever your fault
You assure me that you’ll be here for me
But the chaos inside my world
Won’t accept you,
Even from afar

This state of entropy
Is all I have at the moment
While my world has turned to blue
But please have faith in me
Because the tides will turn soon

I’ve been fighting, my whole life
As I see you enjoy your time
I can’t help to wonder
Of who you truly are

You know you’ve been playing life
On easy
While the rest of us try to fight our way
To the top
You’re out here looking to the bottom
As if you’re immune to the fall
Don’t worry it won’t hurt at all
The accuser works hard
But you need to work harder
And if you’re scared then remember
At least you won’t make it past the bottom  

“These days seem so dull”
Can’t say I can relate to your problem
Wondering of what you could be
I’m out here pinching pennies
Just to make it through the mourning

Let me hate you from afar
It’s what cowards do
Wishing you could join their misery
And marinate in hate
No one understands them
For only they have the right
To rule the world

Your struggles never mattered
It’s not what they focus on
They’ll keep on tossing and turning
Wishing they could be just you
But for now just enjoy your privilege
Before the tides turn
Life wasn’t always fair for them
But life wasn’t always fair to you too

Miles away from my head
My mind wonders
Through the vacuum of space

If I try to drown my sorrows
Maybe they’ll learn how to swim
On par with my sins

Remind me,
Why the there’s beauty in this world
Remind me,
Of all the good times we used to have
When we’re so far away from the status quo

Be there through my time of need
Be my escape from this fantasy
Because I’m starting miss reality
Now,
More than ever before

I’m 40,000 feet above the ocean
And 400 parsecs away from this Earth
I say hello to Orion’s nebula
On my way to towards the unknown

Deep in space within my own my brain
I feel the neurons misfiring on every end
I try to rationalize everything
Why am I feeling overwhelmed?

Ignorance is bliss up to a certain point
But never knowing what’s past this universe
Has my head thinking to a boiling point
But for now it’s getting late
So I fastened my seatbelt
As I return back to Earth

I see butterflies in the sky
I see the trees sway
And the birds fly
And I wonder,
Could it be my time
Is this my moment
Is this a sign from the devine?

I wait and wait and wait
I wait to the point that I may lose hope
I was never meant for this moment
Was I never meant for this world?

But this maudlin feeling hovers over me
Feeding the doubt in my mind
Filling me with shame
Straight into my heart

But feelings come and feelings go
There’s no perfect moment
In this perfect world

So let’s dance under the dim lights
No time for moonlights
No time for limelights
Enough with the perfect moments
Fabricated at the expense
Of living our lives
Don’t miss that moment
Wishing for the stars to align
Somehow things will work out
And if they don’t
At least we tried
But forevermore we’ll know
We are all meant for this world

It’s getting kinda late
The sun is gone for the day
The tides grow fonder of the darkeness
Waiting for their Queen to rise

Send me to the moon
At least I’ll be happy there
I try to forget this growing worry
That the Earth will end soon
Should I panic or should I ride this storm  
No one ever told me
The world could be so cold

I wish I could turn time
And live the good days
Sunsets, Moonlights
Sunrise, it’s all fine
At least it was a good life

Can you return to me
Because I need your warmth
Please return to me
Because I miss your energy
You’re my beam of light
In this rather dull life
You’re what keeps me going
You’re what makes me feel right

Fill my heart with joy
Even if it’s just for a second
Stare into my eyes
And wipe away my tears
Look into my soul
And you’ll find me,
In the deepest part of space

I never felt like I belonged
I was always felt out of place
I entered the plane one day
But it feels like I never left
I never saw the change
But as time passes
So will I and so will you
It’s getting kinda late
But the Sun will return soon

Perfect body
Perfect mind
It’s all we strive for
A perfect life
The nights are slow
But the years go fast
We work hard to not show weakness
Appearances matter
When we want to show we’re doing just fine

I don’t want to live a life without regret
I just want to be like you
I find you special
For your own ways
I want to be on your wavelength
Never mind of who I am
My old self never stood a chance
I just want to be noticed
Even if it means I have to wear a mask

The sun will shine soon
And a new day will arise
I let go of my old self
It’s time to give up the past
But when you’re no longer my passion
Then who will succeed your place
I just want to be perfect
Even if it means
I’ll never be the same